Running Into Oblivion

I Got A Feeling. A Weird One.

2009-11-12T00:03:00.002+08:00

[Listening To: "Turn It Off" - Paramore]
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I saw her yesterday. I dunno what to say.

Fourth week of school just went by like that. I like my new class. Better than last sem's class. It's full of jokers haha and good thing is, we study together. We clicked just like that.

I'm just updating stuff here; I just made a tumblr account. The link is at the affiliates page on this blog.Go check it out.

Not doing to bad in my studies. Well, waaay better than last sem. I slacked too much last sem.Ended up not getting the course I wanted. But I wanna change. I hope I'll get to Aerospace Electronics in third year. Wish me luck.

I might be going China for six weeks next year haha. Should be cool I guess. I mean, Im not that big a fan of china, but I guess the only country I might be able to go to in my course is China.So why waste the opportunity right?

Anyways, no luck on the love side haha. Never had much in the first place.

Gnight All! Au Revoir! Bonne Nuit!

Lists

2009-10-11T21:32:00.002+08:00

[Listening To: "Her Diamonds" - Rob Thomas]
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I'm Just Making Lists Of Things. So Bear With Me Folks.

Movies I Want To Watch:
1) The Good, The Bad And The Ugly (Western)
2) We Were Soldiers (War)
3) A Fistful Of Dollars (Western)
4) 3:10 To Yuma (Western)
5) For A Few Dollars More (Western)
6) Kingdom Of Heaven (War) maybe..
7) Black Hawk Down (War)
8) Full Metal Jacket (War)
9) The Big Red One (War)
10) Gamer (Action)
11) Hot Fuzz (Action/Comedy)
12) Space Balls (Comedy)
13) Police Academy series. (Comedy)
14) The Faculty (Horror/Sci-Fi)
15) (500) Days Of Summer (Romance..not exactly)

Ok uh...didnt realise it's this much.And I think there are still movies that I forgot about.I guess I better start now haha.

Things I HAVE To Buy:
1) Catching Glove
2) Batting Glove
3) White Slacks
4) A Cap (Maybe)
5) Soccer Boots (Maybe)
6) Spectacles (Tmr!)
7) Whopper Meal
8) Mcspicy Meal
9) More Clothes For School
10) Paramore's Brand New Eyes album

Things I Gotta Do(But Will Probably Not Be Done):
1) Refresh My French For Basic French 102.
2) Train For Singapore Poly Softball Invitation.
4) Get Some Sleep.
5) Saving My Money Somehow.
6) Get Some Sleep.
7) Conquering The Medieval World In Medieval:Total War game
8) Finally Completing Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion game
9) Remember This List.
10) Think Of Better And More Important Things To Do.
11) Get Some Sleep.
12) #10/TBA
13) #10/TBA
14) #10/TBA
15) #10/TBA

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Till Then, Bonne Nuit.

Summer.

2009-10-08T00:53:00.003+08:00

[Listening To: "She's Got You High" - Mumm-Ra]
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( 500 ) Days Of Summer.

Boy Do I Feel Alot Like Tom Sometimes. All That Misery.

She's Got You High And You Don't Even Know Yet
She's Got You High And You Don't Even Know Yet
The Sun's In The Sky, Its Warming Up Your Bare Legs
You Can't Deny You're Looking For The Sunset
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FUBAR.

2009-10-06T01:49:00.003+08:00

[Listening To: "Brick By Boring Brick"]

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I thought there was something special about you.I thought,"This could be it".You know?

But meh,I was wrong again.

Haiz forget it. Somehow I knew it was bound to happen again.

Thinking about this,I guess, there wasnt anything much in the first place.

No sparks or anything.

I bet I'm the last thing in your mind.

Who am I kidding?I know I'm not good looking and all.Its a fact.

And My lack of conversational skills never fail to disappoint.

I Could Really Freaking Use Somebody Right Now.

All The Good Ones Are Taken.

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Softball Camp was akfjkgkklzfasl;kfod;. And the softball match was kaff!!$^#@^&!#!. But I did have abit of fun.....abit only.

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More bad news- My appeal to go to Mechanical Engineering is not successfull.

So I'll be in Electronic & Computer Eng next semester. Man I'm so regretting choosing Engineering Common Programme. ...Haiz...I hope it will turn out ok.

Maybe theres something for me in ECE or maybe Ill do great in it.Insyaallah.Only God knows. I can't take another big disappointment.

I'm Tired.

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I Hate My Teenage Life.And It Sure Hates Me Too.

Perhaps More.

I Really Could Use Somebody.

2009-09-14T00:43:00.003+08:00

[Playing:"I Shot The Sheriff"-Bob Marly/Eric Clapton]
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[Listening To:"Use Somebody" -Paramore Cover]
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Nothin much to update. Ouh I'm watching 9 tomorrow at West Mall with Kenneth and Paul.That should be great. yea.
Hari Raya next week.Cleaning house as if I'm on a rampage this week.....well....
not really hehe.

Goodnight World! Well,just this part of the world.

Haiz....

2009-09-13T00:35:00.002+08:00

[Playing:"You Shook Me All Night Long" - AC/DC]
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[Listening To: "Welcome Home"- Coheed & Cambria]
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Dear Blog

I know its been awhile(A Month) since I wrote(typed??) to you.I apologise.It's been hard for me to find the time to blog much.And besides,no one ever reads this dusty blog.
Nothing much happened.Except that its RAMADHAN now.Thats great.I always look forward to it.But we're nearing the end of it and it'll be Hari Raya next Sunday!or Monday....hmm Im not so sure.

Anyway,today I got to know which course I will be goin to next semester.
I got Electrical & Computer Engineering.
I am disappointed.

And So He Became Seventeen.

2009-08-12T00:20:00.002+08:00

[Listening To: The Fray's self-titled Album]
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[Playing:"My Heart"-Paramore]
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And so I became seventeen.

To all my friends and acquaintances who gave me a birthday wish,I can't thank u guys enough.Coz,I never really expected to get from some of u.Especially from the friends I've made in poly.
And of course Syafizah,I am honoured lol coz she made a whole post about me.Except for the last part,it was about buying Kinder Bueno(??)Whats up with that man?haha just kidding.The pic of me was rather big.Malu aku hehe.

I didn't celebrate much.Pretty much,as normal as any other day.I never really did celebrate my birthdays,since I was 10.I guess,to my parents,I'm too old for birthdays.I think they're right.
I dunno.But I dun really mind at all.Dun get me wrong,I love my parents haha.

As expected,I didn't get any presents.No wait,I am getting one I think.Mom says,one of these days we're gonna eat at Sarpino's Pizzeria or order from 'em I dunno.My favourite.Especially New York Deli.Ah.....I can smell it...cheese and all.
I also bought myself a present over the weekend.The Fray's self-titled album.
Actually,it wasn't what I had in mind.I was thinking of buying Paramore's Final Riot Album,but I couldn't find it.Not even at Citylink's HMV store!I can't believe that honestly.So ended up buying The Fray's Album.I'm not saying I dun like The Fray.If I didn't like 'em,I wouldn't buy the album.
The album is great.I love the songs.Some are relaxing,some are thought-provoking and gets you thinking.I can just sit down and listen to the songs and be at peace.

I guess,nothing quite beats buying yourself a present haha.

Ah thats all I have to say.I shouldn't even be blogging right now.I have a test tmr haha.God,when will I ever change.

I hope 7teen is my year of changes.For the better.God knows I need to change.
I hope I have the will and courage.

Ramadan is coming.Thats always good.See you all around.

"Breathing Comes In Pairs.Except For Twice.One Begins And One's Goodbye"
- Enough For Now- The Fray

"But Happiness Is A Little More Like Knocking On Your Door.You Just Let It In.
Happiness Feels Alot Like Sorrow.Let It Be.You Can't Make It Come Or Go."
- Happiness- The Fray

I Survived

2009-08-04T16:53:00.002+08:00

[Listening To:"Underdog - Kasabian"]
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[Playing:Nuthin....Been Rather Sick]
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Coldplay - Strawberry Swing
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Hoped you guys liked the video.I know I love it.You might wanna put the volume up.

Anyway,I've been rather sick for the past....uh...1,2....6 days.Had a pretty bad flu virus.Scared me at first.I thought it was the H1N1 virus but the doctor said she can't determine.That really didn't help me.
But good news people.I've recovered now.Though I still have a bit of a cough.
I havent been online too.Due to the fact that I sick of course.
And for that matter,I havent done any work at all too.Though I'm not sure I would still do if I wasnt even sick.I bet there's tons of work waiting for me when I get back in school.Awesome.

Haiz,school is really getting on my nerves.And for some reason I keep meeting annoying idiots in school who for some reason,thinks I'm even remotely interested in their lives and wants to be their best friends.Why oh why.
I assume someone cursed me or something.

Sure,I'm a jerk.But sometimes,I just don't give a shit.

Thats all for today.
And please people.If you wanna tag my blog,please dun put gay comments or any other kind of bull crap.They're very much unappreciated and There are more than enough childish idiots in this world.Don't add to it's suffering.

Pictures Of Late.

2009-07-28T20:25:00.002+08:00

[Listening To:"How To Save A Life"- The Fray]
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[Playing:"21 Guns"- Greenday
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Here are some outdated pictures.Posting This for the sake of posting.

Lutfil took this.

My neighbourhood.
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These are from a family picnic not too long ago.
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Rooted to the ground.

My Brother Calls This "Tiny Durian".

From A Tiny Perspective.

Calm Before The Storm.

Sepia.

My Brother Khair.

David & Goliath. lol.

Leeeeeeaves.

Of White,Blue,Green And Brown.

Panorama

Me Wearing Sandals!?wOW!.
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Aye thats all for today.Wish I had stuff to talk bout but I got nuthin.School is well.....its Same Shit, Different Day.
Will try and post more.
Au Revoir!
Mayb The Force Be With Y'all.

Dead Man Bloggin.

2009-06-27T21:30:00.003+08:00

[Listening To:Music from Transformers In My Head]
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[Playing:Nuthin]
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Watched Transformers:Revenge Of The Fallen today.Man,the movie was one word,AWESOME.Great action from start to finish.And well yea,can't deny it,Megan Fox is freakin hot in it haha.

I watched the movie with Lutfil and Taufiq at Lot One in the morning around 1030 hrs.Totally wasted our money on popcorn coz we didn't even finished half of it.I was focusing on the movie alot.Eating popcorn is distracting.Anyway,the movie was worth it for me.2 and a half hours of pure action and well..Megan Fox.Who would say no to that?
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Anyway school starts in like,one day,and I havent done any homework at all hehe.Typical of me.I was actually hoping I'd get a one week holiday extension due to the swine flu and all.But,NP is just keeping quiet.So that sucks.

So I guess if I'm not lazy tomorrow I'd be able to complete maybe half of the total homework.But there's always the possibility that my laziness will get the better of me.Haiz.I dunno why,I just hate doing homework so much.Hate it.And I sure hate online homeworks.
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Replaced my guitar strings last night.I took the whole night to do it.Not coz I'm a dumbass or anything.I was multi-tasking...sort of.Hehe chatting with friends thats all.Got into a stupid argument with a bandmate.
I dun wanna talk bout that much.Its a silly thing.

I still havent start jammin with the band.Since everyone's busy.
Never matter,I shall find a day when we can start jammin.
Dunno why but i feel like I'm the one taking charge.
Well,I'm just sayin thats all.

Au Revoir.
Random Soundbulbs Is A Go.

Missed Opportunities Are My Speciality #2

2009-06-24T23:36:00.002+08:00

[Listening To:"Over My Head(Cable Car)"-The Fray (I really must be)
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[Playing:nuthin.Strings Rusty uh]
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Today was a nice day.The weather was nice.Cool and all.
I had enough of the sun.I dunno why people halfway around the world complains about the cold so much.
Be thankful Idiots.
We all could be nuked by North Korea any moment and you all would be beggin for a breeze.

Anyway,went out with mum and my kid brotha,Khair.We went to Lot 1.I met Zahirah and Syafizah in the library.They looked so tanned haha but not too bad.
I got dark meself due to camp.Gee Thanks Mr Sun.Appreciate it.
It was good seeing them again.I saw Syafizah the other day but it really had been awhile since I saw Zahirah and I think I wore the same thing that time.
Black hoodie and jeans.

And that makes me wonder how I can remember stuff like that when I dun even remember what I did yesterday or my homework.Anyway,I'm kinda Sick of myself now coz I wished I said somethin more than just,"Hey,what are u guys doin here?" and "I'm gonna go look for books now."
Dunno why My brain just freezes up in conversation when I meet people I'm not used to or people I that I hardly meet.And freezes up especially around girls I sorta like.So that basically explains why I dun have a girlfriend I guess hahaha.

I am pretty chatty when I'm online though.Syafizah would know hahaha.I am so full of crap.
Hmm maybe I'm just afraid of what people think of when they see me.I know I shouldn't be like that but I just can't help it.I mean,after all,I am a teenage guy haha.Like I said,I am just about the most Average guy you'll ever come across.
I'm startin to think,in an optimistic way,that God gave me such an uneventful and average teenage life coz maybe he is preparing an eventful and oustanding and awesome adult life for me.haha that is what I'm hoping.But I will accept whatever God gives me.
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Syafizah told me to put some pictures,so here goes haha.

My first pair of sneakers.

Caught "Lookin Out Into The Great Wide Open" by Shichang.

My Friends And Me.At Nurul's birthday party last year.

Me.Obviously bored out of me mind.

The one I wasted my time on.Moving on..haha.

What I feel like most of the time;In the middle of something,somewhere.Dunno where to turn.

I just feel like eating spaghetti.

Pic taken;2007.Still wearing these specs.

Something I wanna be.Well...part time maybe.

Doctor Gregory House.
Best.TV.Character.Ever.

Thats it for today I guess.
I leave you with something to think about.
Sure,Everyone Wants To Save The Earth But No One Wants To Help Mum With The Dishes.

"Every Road Is A Ray Of Light.It Goes On And On And On And On.
Time Only Can Lead You On"

Goodnight folks.
Au revoir.Bonne nuit.

Missed Opportunities Are My Speciality. #1

2009-06-24T21:55:00.004+08:00

[Listening To:"Over My Head(Cable Car)"-The Fray]
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[Playing:uh my strings are rusty.]
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Here I am,updating.Finally.
Your wait is over!...If you were waiting.Which I doubt you were.
Okay enough.I know,who am I kidding?I am just about the most average guy you'll ever come across.
Nevermind.
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I had softball camp during the weekend.haha Ridhwan,my senior, named it "Rojak Camp '09"It was pretty fun.It was more of a leisure camp coz we did nothin much.Most of us,including the seniors,brought laptops so we spent most of our free time(and we had lots of that) playing counter-strike and all.Like most camps,this one is never complete without a night walk around school haha.

I have to admit,some parts of school are pretty scary.Especially the infamous Block 50 where there are many ghost stories.
I was told there was a graveyard at that spot before the it was built.
And also,the scariest part,some of the stories happened on the 7th floor.And so the 7th floor is locked these days.
There's a gate on the 7th floor staircase landing and the lifts don't go up to the 7th floor.The door leading from the lifts to the corrider is locked.And it was so freaking dark that time.
And also,we were so freaking noisy that it probably spoiled the mood of whatever that planned to scare the shit out of us.

Then we had the softball match against SP.
Which we got a narrow victory haha.
The pros were awesome.The junior guys weren't bad at all.
Though I didn't get to play.We had alot of people.
I was just forgotten I guess.Another proof that I am easily forgettable haha.I didn't voice out coz I just wanted to see whether anyone realised that me,Fuad,haven't played yet.Only Kenneth knew but it was too late haha.Thanks Kenneth.Seriously.

Next time,I am goin to play.I'll make sure haha.I mean,I'm not that bad.I'm pretty good(for a beginner) with my throwing and fielding.
Well,what happened,happened I guess.I admit,I am slightly pissed off by it but I'm ok now.Its a small thing when I really think about it.There are probably more games comin my way.

The First Step To Being An Optimist Is Never To Expect,But To Accept(If Possible) Everything That Comes Your Way.
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Something Random.

2009-06-09T22:59:00.002+08:00

[Listening To:"Strawberry Swing"-Coldplay]
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[Playing:"Trouble"-Coldplay]
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I watched Seinfeld last night.So hilarious.
Here's a part of it;

(Jerry just woke up in a hospital after a knife he accidentally flipped,fell and hit his jugular.Kramer saved him by donating his blood lol)

Kramer:(Facing directly at Jerry) Can you see me Jerry!?
Jerry: Argh! YES!I can see you. What happened?
Kramer: You know Jerry,when someone shouts,"Heads Up!",you're not suppose to look up.
Jerry: ........Thank you...
Kramer: You lost alot blood so I gave some of my blood (smiles)
Jerry: .....what!?
Kramer: (Stands up)Thats right Jerry,you got 3 pints of Kramer inside you.
Jerry: (Looks shocked) ARRRHHH!ARHHHH!!ARHHHHHHH!
Kramer: uh....ARHHH!!!ARH!!!!!!AARRHH!!!!

Hahaha this is just a tiny part of the show.There are alot more hilarious stuff in every episode of seinfeld.Sure it's an old show but the humor is timeless haha.
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I had maths common test today,but I dun think i'll talk bout that.My blog is boring,I dun have to make it even more so.
Only one more test to go and I'll be having my much needed break!
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Anyway,the band is shaping up nicely.We just need to confirm a bassist then we can start jamming.Well,we gotta practise first before we can start jamming.
Hmm I chatted with Grace and Kenneth a few nights ago about what to name our band.
We ended up with a whole lot of crap names haha.
We came up with names like,Art of Random,Hyped Junkies,the buccinators(Dun ask me bout this,I dunno haha),The council of fools...
And Random Soundbulbs haha.
And that will most probably be our name.
Yeap,Random Soundbulbs.
Quite weird and random but I'm startin to like it hahaha.

Okay so,thats it for today.We'll blog again most probably thursday night or something I dunno.When I got stuff to say.

Au Revoir!Bonne Nuit.

Back In My Shoes.

2009-06-04T21:57:00.003+08:00

[Listening To:"Reinventing The Wheel To Run Myself Over"-Fall Out Boy]
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[Playing:"Know Your Enemy"-Greenday]
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I know,I know,It's been ages since I updated this dusty blog.
I can't believe it's June already!
So obviously alot has happened,though I can't remember some of 'em.
Poly is a blur at times.No wait,most of the time.

Lessons are well...boring.But I did manage to learn.I'm no dumbass.I'm just an apathetic student.

I just took my french test just now.Did it in under 30 minutes.I think I can Ace the test.I mean,it's not as hard as what people always tell me.Or maybe,I just havent start learning the hard parts yet,I dunno.haha.

Anyway,I'm clicking well with my softball mates,unlike with my class haha.I dunno,my class just doesn't appeal very well to me haha.

Common test week is next week.Hope I can pass all tests.After that,two weeks break!Boy,I really need a break.
I know I'll be doing alot of stuff during th.e break.
I'm thinking of signing up religious holiday programmes coz I got a brochure from NP Muslim Students Society bout it.
Also there'll be a Softball camp!(Finally).Really lookin forward to that one.

And Also some big news.
Me and Kenneth is making a Band!Awesome.
Yea,we're making one from scratch haha.And our experience playing is close to zero put together haha.
But luckily,Grace,who had tons of experience has decided to join us.Again,Awesome.She'll be singing.Finally,I can play Paramore songs!
I've always wanted to play 'em in a band.

So now,all we need is a bassist and a drummer.Hmm wonder where we're gonna find 'em....I really have no idea haha.
I hope this will really work.If not I'm just psyched up for nothing haha.
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Hmm thinking of watching Terminator Salvation with Lut next week.Maybe invite Hadi and Taufiq and all.
It's been so damn long since I've seen 'em no thanks to the stupid ECP timetable that doesn't allow me to go friday prayers haha.
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K well.Thats it for today I guess.I bet only a couple of people will read this haha.
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Oh ya,I told you guys bout this girl in my french class last time right?
haha she only came once haha.And I rarely see her now.Sad man.
Just when I thought my luck's changing...haiz haha.
But who knows?I got 3 years in Ngee Ann.Alot of things can happen during 3 years haha.

Alrighty.Me gotta sign off!
Fuad.Out.
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The band will probably be called,"The Council Of Fools".
Nice or what?haha.
Être Ou Ne Pas Être
(To Be Or Not To Be)

Of Softball,Star Trek,And New Found Friends.

2009-05-17T21:54:00.003+08:00

[Listening To:"Never Say Never"-The Fray]

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[Playing:Nothing Currently]
Never Say Never

The Fray-Never Say Never

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Its The Fray's New Song!!Woah woah.

I think I'm goin to buy their album!No,I have to buy it!

I hope someone is nice enough to buy it for me hehe.

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So you guys probably thought I played a softball match against Regent.Well that didn't happened.No thanks to some stupid mix up.So Ngee Ann softball ended up playing against NTU girls softball team!A long way from Regent if you ask me.

So I guess,we went from an easy win situation to an "Oh crap,We're gettin our asses handed to us by girls!",situation.

But it was more of a practice match for us.Hell,I don't even remember the scores.

And the weather totally killed my mood and concentration to play.It was just so freaking hot.And also,I didn't even get to bat properly and not coz I suck at it,the NTU pitcher keep throwing bad balls,as in balls that were off from the strike zone.And the team made alot of errors too,especially with the new guys like me.I made errors too.Sad la my first match haha.

But hey,my cousin who'ss in the Regent softball team said he made alot of errors during his first match too.

I guess,the first match is always the most awkward one.
Aiya gotta work on my swing man!
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Anywho,after the match,my softball friends,Kenneth,Paul and Ridzwan,together with me,went to Jurong Point to watch Star Trek!
Man I think the movie is great!No I'm not a total nerd if thats what you're thinking.I just like sci-fi thats all.
Anyway,the action parts are nice and the movie is quite funny at times.The characters are not forgettable characters.I especially like the guy with the funny accent.And Zachary Quinto,who played Spock was good too.He's the guy who played Sylar in the Heroes series.
I wish the show was longer though.Its two hours but it felt kinda short.
If there will be a sequel,I would surely watch I guess.

Well..uhh I guess that's how I spent my weekend coz I totally did nothing on Sunday.Except cut my hair.
Ah well,Gnight folks.
Au revoir!
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I think the new friends I've made in softball will be the ones sticking with me for along time haha.Finally,I think,that my feeling of loneliness is gone.
I guess I've really changed now.Only time will tell if its for the best.I hope it is.

Self-Acceptance #1

2009-05-12T22:47:00.005+08:00

[Listening To:"Fix You"-Coldplay
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[Playing,or at least,thinking of playing:"Know Your Enemy"-Greenday
If only.haha.
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Fix You-Coldplay
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The First Step To Being An Optimist,Is Never To Expect,But To Accept.Kick The Feeling Of Disappointment,And Move On.
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Today was my mom's birthday.I didn't get her anything.
I know,what kind of son am I.
But,she'll always say that she doesn't want anything from me except to see me succeed in life.That to her would be the best present I can ever give to her.
The only fear I have now is failing to achieve that.
God,I just hope I can do it.
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Came late to school today.No wait,everyone is just earlier than I am.hehe.
Hmm pretty good day,besides all the gayness shown by my classmates and the badwords and swearing I hear every few minutes.No,seconds.
Paid attention in half of the classes I think.
Well,better than yesterday.Coz now,I am really sure that after every weekend,my brain don't start functioning at least till Tuesday.It doesn't help coz monday has all the important subjects like Electrical,mechanics and my favourite subject,Maths!And I mean that in a sarcastic way.-.-
I hate Mondays.I just hate em.Except for softball practice on mondays.hehe.

Tomorrow's goin to be good i think,during lesson time.And definitely goin to be better during softball practice.First lesson at ten.End school at 3.Softball at 5.
Repeat.Just kidding hehe.

I hope alot of people will come to practice tomorrow coz not many came to last practice.Besides,tomorrow is the last practice before our first friendly match against Regent sec(Haha still can't believe it).I seriously don't wanna get kick in the ass by secondary school students!Wahaha I'm such a jerk.I mean,I'm not so different from them right haha.
But seriously,I don't wanna lose haha.Who does right?

Alright,I got nuthin more to say here.So I guess I'll end here tonight.
Wait,gotta ask you guys somethin.

What's The Deal With Homework?I Mean,It's Not Working On Your Home Right?
K lame joke.Wahaha.
And Syafizah = EVIL
Seriously,"Axion" Syafizah?
Wahaha k now I'm evil.

Un,Deux,Trois,
Au revoir!

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"Lovers, Keep On The Road You're On
Runners, Until The Race Is Run
Soldiers, You've Got To Soldier On
Sometimes Even The Right Is Wrong"
-Lovers In Japan-Coldplay

mmmHmmm Uhhuh

2009-05-10T22:13:00.002+08:00

[Listening To:"Emergency"-Paramore]
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"As If It Isn't Bad Enough That I Get To Do Maths In School Everyday,I Get To Do It Online At Home Too!It's Like A Two-For-One Deal.Except It's A Bad Deal.A Really Bad One."

So well,sorry for not updating much bout my life.
I've been rather busy....if you can ever believe that.

I think I'll just write short posts now,since I don't have a lot of time to write "essays" bout my life.Besides,people don't read long posts right.
I'm not sure they can even read now.(I hope you can read,otherwise I'm just wasting my time here)
But then,whats the point of a blog anyway?

School has been...well this is only the 4th week so I guess I can say it was ok.
Nothing amazing or life-changing happened...yet.

Softball practice is getting better and better.At least there is something to look forward to at school.Though I hadn't had the chance to talk to Grace again.She didn't come to a couple of practices.
I also made a new friend.His name is Kenneth.Cool guy.He also plays the guitar.
He started later than I did though.But I think he's better than me haha.I dunno.
Hmm anyway,the team will be having the first Friendly match of the year this Saturday.And guess who were playing against?Come on guess.
Okay,I'll let y'all know.
We're playing against Regent Secondary School!Wahaha.WTF right.
Well I guess the team just wants to test the rookies like me.
I still can't believe that,of all the school we could be playing against,we'll play against my former school.
Hmm well,gotta shape up my batting and fielding.Can't wait though.
****
French class is fun as always.And I think I am actually doing well in it haha.
Too bad the pretty girl havent came since the first lesson.Skali she stop.
Sedih sey wahaha.Maybe it just wasn't to be.....uhuu=(
haha.Ah whatever I guess..
****
I seriously need to learn to play new songs.And also kick this feeling of loneliness outta me.Dunno why I feel this way.I guess I still havent truely connect with anyone at school.
Come on Fuad.Be nice in school.

Etre Ou Non Etre.
(To Be Or Not To Be)

Play Ball!!

2009-04-27T23:18:00.003+08:00

[Listening To:"Whoa"-Paramore
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[Playing:"Fix You"-Coldplay(On Acoustic)
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Ah Bonjour!haha.
My poly life is starting to shape up nicely,though I still hate the friggin timetable
for not allowing me to go Friday Prayers.What the hell is wrong with the Admin people I wonder...

Anyway my weekend was pretty fun though I wish it was longer..coz I had a Long week full of maths....nothing gets better than that..-_-'
On Saturday I met up with Lut then we went to our friend's house.
The first thing we did when we reached Yazid's house was to take out our laptops and start installing games from Yazid's External Harddrive.
Then what did we do?We play games la of course!
But sad la,me and lut actually installed alot but only few worked so we had to make do with 'em.
We played till we forgot the hunger in our stomachs that painfully reminded me that it was there when I stopped playin haha.
I also caught up with my guitar playing on Saturday.It was awhile since I played my guitars so it felt great playing.

On Sunday,I did nothin other than finish up on my homework and practice my computer programming...ceh2 budak ni rajin eh?haha ah pui!
Haha well,I am trying not to slack like I did in secondary school.Besides,I gotta get a good GPA in this semester if I wanna get into Aerospace Tech next Semester.
******
Well today.....
Hmm school was...well,school.And I managed to understand the lessons and that's good.
Managed to go solat Zohor at the Muslim Students Society cca room during break time.
Hmm well the fun really started AFTER school.

As you know,I had my first Softball practice today!It was AWE-some.
I'm pretty good at throwing and catching though I still can't throw fast enough like the regular guys.Well,who could when they're playing Softball for the first time right?
I made friends with a girl named Grace.Wow,when she talks,you won't hear any Singlish haha.I couldn't help but to speak proper english to her hahaha.
I thought she was malay at first but then her name is Grace haha..and she speaks proper english somemore!
But she's cool haha.And she hates Twilight!hahaha.First time I heard of a girl who hates twilight.Seriously.
And she's quite funny too haha.

Bloody hell,I forgot to ask her what course she's in.And I forgot to ask for her number!?Oh wait,I did think about that but I dunno what happened to the thought at the time.
Oh well,next time then..

Yea I think I'm gonna Love Softball.There's alot of friendly people I met during practice,and not to mention Grace.
Can't wait for next practice.And I have to buy boots!I wore sport shoes just now but I fell down sey when during a throwing,catching and baserunning drill.
Nasib tak pakai seluar panjang.Nanti berlobang!

Kk till next time guys!Probably after french class on thursday night...if you know what I mean hehe.
****

I'm Seeing Myself Becoming This Whole New Better Person.Really.
A Person Unlike The One I Was A Year Ago.
I Think I'm Becoming The Sociable,Religious,Softball Playing,French Speaking Malay Guy wahahaha kidding.But that would be cool I guess.

Fuad 2.0 With 2X The Bullcrap.Available In Stores Now...Or Never.

Un,Deux,Trois.Je Suis Fuad.

2009-04-23T23:32:00.008+08:00

Lovers In Japan-Coldplay --------

[Listening To:"Fix You"-Coldplay]
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[Playing:Sad la,can't find the time to strum]
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Today was surprisingly good.
Not bad at all.

Didn't do any maths today.Thats a +++++++++++++++!
Actually I had Sports & Wellness program where u have to choose a sport that u would like to learn.Depends on which day you have S&W by the way.At first I thought bout taking tennis but then,I'm not the tennis type of guy.For thursday's AM class,the sports available weren't too interesting.

I ended choosing Orienteering.Not coz I had no choice,but because I think it's interesting to learn navigation skills like reading the map and all.I think these skills are essential and I know they would definitely help me in NS haha.Anyway the orienteering thing will only start next week so today's S&W lesson ended waay early.I was on my own so I roamed around like an idiot waiting to go to the next class which Creativity & Applied Thinking Skills(CATS)

In CATS,I'm in a totally different class as in,a class where I don't know anybody.So the class....only 2 malay guys includin me...*sigh*.And the guy doesn't look like he wanna make friends haha.There are also only 2 malay girls.My lecturer is called Mdm Alice Lee,who like most other teachers I've met,couldn't pronounce my name right..*Sigh*I think I'm the only guy in NP whose name is Fuad.I dunno if thats good or bad though haha.

Anyway,the class was separated into groups of 5 each.In my group,there is one chinese guy,Hong Chyn,a chinese girl,Kai Xin,and the two malay girls,Arina and Rose.I like my group sey.I mean,it was only the first lesson and my group got along quite well.Cracking jokes and get to know each other.Overall,I think my group is the lifeliest in the class haha.

We had to name our groups according to the theme,"Creativity".We ended up with Brainbenders!Contributed on my part haha.So well,I guess I don't hate all of my classes.

And I certainly don't hate my French Class!!Haha.CATS ended at 12.So after that I went home first before goin to first French class at 6. *****

French class was great haha.The lecturer is American sey,with an italian name haha.Jordan Rodriguez.See what I mean?haha and he's teaching French somemore.

Anyway,the first things he said were all in french haha and I didn't understand a single thing..duh,though I did catch some things of what he said. He's from texas,USA.Graduated from princeton university.And only 22 years old.Anyway,I havent bought the textbook yet.It costs $38 sey bloody hell.I didn't bring enough money. So I had to share a textbook from this girl whose name I do not know how to spell it here haha. So....we started learning French!Wow,I seriously don't regret taking French class sey haha it's kinda like a stress-reliever for me.I've been doin maths the whole week so it's nice to learn something different and not related to my course.Also,there was this girl who sat infront of me and she is very pretty hehe.I got distracted abit haha.

Boy,I wonder what's her name...I hope next week I get to talk to her or somethin haha.

God,I'm Gonna Love Thursdays!=)

The Poly Life...At Least,For Me.

2009-04-21T21:30:00.002+08:00

[Listening To:"Lost"-Coldplay]
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[Playing:Nothing...Coz Of School Ah Alamak!]
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So...Poly huh...

My first day of school....Sucked.
My timetable was packed kinda like secondary school.
9 to 5.One hour break only.Unbelievable man,One hour only.There must be kidding me.
There's so much events for freshmen and they gave us a one hour break only.

Anyway my class,LC03,not too bad though i could do with a couple more malay guys.Anyway,I'm fast becoming one of the forgettable guys in class.

Did maths the whole day yesterday.Unbelieveable again.I thought we wouldn't be studying much since it's the fist day of school,but we got lessons sey.Full Lectures.Seriously.
****

I told you in the last post is that I'm complainin bout my timetable for fridays right.So my classmate,Faeez,who hates it too,and me decided to talk to our Advisor bout it.Our advisor,Mr Chew,told us,he'll look into it.He said he'll try to look for classes that have a different timetable for Friday that is suitable for us to go Friday prayers.But he also said,if he found one,and if we really want,me and Faeez will have to change classes.Well I think I'm ok with that.
Hopefully the class will have more malays and is more appealling to me.
Well,not that I'm being racist or anything ok.
****

My lecturers are all ok I guess(The Lecturers I met already at least).My staff advisor Mr Chew is also my Computer Programming Lecturer.He's ok.Looks like he's always willing to help students and all.I forgot the name for my Engineering Maths Teacher haha.But she's a nice lady.Nice as in kind to students and all.Not meaning good-looking.Defenitely NOT good-looking haha I'm a jackass I know.
My Electrical Tech teacher is called Mr Lek.He looks very relaxed and all.And I understood what he teaches so thats a good thing right?
My Engineering Mech teacher is called Mr Foo.Very old guy.Seriously.
His voice is toneless.
Toneless Voice+Air-con Room=Very Sleepy Students
His face kinda like expressionless at times haha.
But I do try my best to learn.I really dun wanna slack.
Hmm anyway I havent met the rest of my lecturers.Hope they are fun people.
I'm starting to doubt the "Fun" in poly.
****

The last day for CCA Fiesta was today.Only 2 days sey.I wish it was longer since my break for yesterday and today was one hour only.Didn't have enough time to look at all CCAs.But I did manage to look at the CCAs I'm interested in.
And seriously,"WOW" is the right word to put it coz there are SO SO manye CCAs!
From the super-active(e.g Dragon Boat)to the Super Laid Back And Boring CCAs
(Astronomy Club Anyone?).
In the end,I signed up three CCAs.

First is Softball!Wahaha.I've always wanted to play baseball and Softball.
And I wanna sports CCA that's fun and not to serious sports kind.

Second is the Muslim Society Group.Pretty laid back one coz I only have to come down when there are events.And I joined also coz I wanna meet other malay muslim students seeing as there are not alot of us in NP haha.
I found out from a girl from that CCA that there are places where I could solat.
Thats good.Really good news for me.
Well anyway third CCA is,Malay Cultural Club.I know,So NOT me haha.I just sign up with Faeez coz this dude,a guy from the CCA,looked like he won't leave till we sign up.So me and Faeez just sign up so he can go away.I assure you that I won't be joining that CCA haha.Like,So NOT me sey.
******

I wanna wrap this up.
So Poly Life...I havent start to love it yet.Hope I will soon.
Hope I get used to it too.I must admit,I miss secondary school life,especially the great times with my closest friends.I dunno if I can find anyone in this new place who can be as close to me like they were.
And I'm hoping I caught the eye of some girl....hahaha.
So overall......I feel Lonely at school.I can't even believe it.
And That's Just Sad.

You:"Aawwwwww"
Me:"(Sigh)"

Enjoying Boredom While It Lasts

2009-04-16T14:43:00.002+08:00

[Listening To:"For A Pessimist I'm Pretty Optimistic"]
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[Playing:"Best I Ever Had"-Vertical Horizon]
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Had my orientation yesterday.MDE orientation.Only for students in three courses.
Sad lah my class.Class 1C03.
Only three malay boys including me.And no malay girls.
Well,at least it's just for a semester,coz then I'll be in another course.Hopefully,Aerospace Technology.

Well I did made a few friends I guess.One of em is Faeez.Cool guy haha.Funny oso.He lives in tampines.Can you imagine that?hahaha sad la everyday must wake up damn early.

Anyway,I gotta tell you,I really feel nervous bout starting school.Not coz I'm afraid bout meeting new people or what.It's coz of thinking the amount of work I will have to do and seriously ALOT of new things I have to learn.Like computer programming.I am like,useless with computers so it will be a challenge for me.
And there's also a ton of things I guess I gotta have when school starts.
Don't blame me.They didn't give clear instructions!Seriously.
They just dump all the announcements on the announcement section on my MeL!
Would it hurt to just give the students a list of books and notes to buy?
They're relying too much on this MeL thing and they're expecting students to log in everyday!
I only logged in yesterday.I should've logged in earlier but nobody told me that I should!
So what I've found yesterday was a ton a info thats just messed up.They didn't even categorised the damn announcements.And some of em didn't look like they were for me,but for 2nd or 3rd year students.
I'm just so fucking confuse about everything.
Man I really hope I'm not the only one.Seriously.

And another thing I gotta complain bout is my timetable for Fridays.
So the day starts late at ten,an hour later break,then lessons all the way to 5!
Like,I can't even go to Friday prayers!
What's up with that man?That is just bullshit.

So anyway,overall,I am just clueless bout things I should do and things I should follow.I wish the teachers could be more specific to which students they're referring to when they make announcements on MeL.

And oh ya,all my module teachers are male haha and old.
Except my would be French teacher.He's male but at least he's younger.
Speaking of French class,I don't know what the hell I should bring for French Class.And my MeL thing doesn't seem to realise that I have French class.
Anyway,since my main class kinda suck abit,I'm looking forward to see the people in French Class.Maybe thats where I'll get lucky haha.
****

Hmm I havent decided which CCA to join yet.I was thinkin of sports since I am well,lets put it straight,skinny and needs more workout.
So I was thinking of maybe joining Softball or something.It can definitely work my arms and legs and Softball is fun hahaha.And I don't think it'll affect my studies much and I really don't need to be distracted much since,I totally gotta work hard when school starts if I wanna get to Aerospace Technology.
God I just hope I do.I just hope my freshmen year won't be as hard as I think it would be.

G'day all.Enjoy the last days of your freedom people.
Me?I'm just enjoying boredom while it lasts.
Poly starts Next week aAh!I CAN'T BELIEVE IT MAN!aRHHH
******

Haiz esok balik kampung kejap.Cool I guess.Gonna bring me guitar.
And I still gotta buy a ton of stuff like stationeries.Damnit.
I really am goin to miss having nothing to do when school starts.

This Is It Eh.

2009-04-14T14:38:00.003+08:00

[Listening To:"Strawberry Swing"-Coldplay]
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[Playing:"Run"-Snow Patrol]
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I guess this is it.This is really it.Starting my Poly life in...less than a week.
Wow.A part of me just can't believe I made it to poly.And it feels kinda weird knowing I'm gonna start school next week.I guess this means things are goin to be Very different.Very different indeed.New environment,new people in my life,New friends,new jerks I'm goin to hate.Umm new food maybe.Definitely.

Wow...it's just...wow.

Anyway,I got orientation tomorrow.9 to 5.Just that one day for me since I didn't
sign up for any camps.Startin to regret that a little.Only a little.
Hope I don't overdress since I tend to do that.Hope I won't be late.Hope I won't get on the wrong bus.....Focus,focus,focus.

Haiz,usually I got more stuff to talk bout than this but I just got nothin more to say.I dunno why.
I'm updatin for the sake of updating.Havin problems with my blogger abit.Can't seem to put videos in my posts.If not,I would've put up Coldplay's video for Lovers In Japan.
But then,Y'all will be like,"Enough With Coldplay already!Sheesh."

Ah well see ya guys around.Gd luck in ur preparation for school.
I feel like I should prepare somehow but I dunno what.(Mental Preparation?)
And I gotta start sleepin a little early and wake up way more earlier so that it wouldn't be so hard for me later.(I wake up at near noon almost everyday)

Time to play BF2 like crazy b4 poly starts.
O-kay Buh-bye now.

And I found out my French Teacher's Name is Jordan Antonio Rodriguez.Cool.
Is it just me or does that name sounds Spanish?Weird.But cool anyway.

Self-Praising #1

2009-04-06T20:33:00.002+08:00

[Listening To:Coldplay's New Album I Just Bought!Wahoo!]
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[Playing:"Absolutely(Story Of A Girl)-Nine Days]
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Coldplay Viva La Vida Prospekt's March Edition
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Since no one invite me go anywhere and I really needed a break from home(Can You Believe That?)I decided to go out myself.Especially after what happened last night.(I got into a fight with my younger sis,I'll tell u more later if I can)
Anyway,I was expecting a crowd of people outside my house clapping and cheering for me since I manage to overcome my laziness and all but Alas,there was none.I'm so disappointed in you people.

Anyway,I went to Lot 1 to go to CCK library.Reached there 'round 2 somethin.
The first thing I wanted to do was find a book on engineering or somethin so I searched in the general section.It said engineering is numbered 620.So I looked for it.You know what I found,there were books on animals there and nothing on engineering.What the hell sey.I should've gone to Jurong regional.
Since I couldn't find a book on engineering,I went on to search the number 2 on my list;A book bout the French language coz I'm goin to be learnin French and all in school.I decided to take An Idiot's Guide To Learning French.They should title it A Genius' Guide To Learnin French since I'm a genius and all.
(Okay Don't Vomit!Please!I'm Just Kidding!)But I'm not an idiot either.

I didn't want to borrow one book only so I went to search for some random books.Ok,not so random.Just books I'm interested in.
So my next 2 books was,Order 66;A Republic Commando Novel,which is basically a Star Wars Novel with a lot less Jedis and more Clones.Who doesn't love clones?Boy,I didn't realise it's such a nerdy quote till I typed it out.
Anyway,the next book was a non-fiction book.The title is,Everything Bad Is Good For You.The book talks about why TV,Movies and Video Games,which most parents would say,is a waste of time and makes children become Dumber,isn't really bad for us.It actually makes you smarter.
So you don't really have to feel guilty bout those 24 hours TV/Games/Grand Theft Auto/Left4Dead/Korean Drama(Whatever)/Gossip Girl/Cartoons/House/Spongebob Squarepants marathon.
Haha cool,I know.

Anyway,after that,I went to Playcraft to look at some PC Games then I went to Popular to look at books and look at PC games.-_-
Then I went to Sembawang.No,not the actual Sembawang genius,the Sembawang CD shop.Since I'm so loaded these days(Don't even think about asking me money Muahahaha!)K i'm not so loaded unlike some people.Anyway I decided to look for Coldplay's album since I've been thinkin of buying it since last few months.
And I just decided to look for it at the right time since the shop is havin a 50% off storewide sale.Then I found it,not just a Viva La Vida Album,Its a Viva La Vida Prospekt's March Edition with more songs.It would've cost me $35 but it was a 50% off sale so it costs bout $17.50!Haha cool right?
So I buy ah what else sey.

Anyway then I got hungry so decided to go MacDs.When I reached there,What did I saw?I saw Syafizah,Zahirah and Eliana haha.The day just got better I thought.
So Syafizah invited me to sit down with em and I did.I just wanna buy McSpicy and eat haha.So I dun mind sittin anywhere.Havin company is good.
So yea I ate.They were playing around with their laptops.Nasib Baik I didn't bring mine hahaha mine pales in comparison to theirs haha.But I'm still grateful I even have one.Then we chatted and joked and all.Catching up on everyone.Talking bout poly and all.It was cool I guess.

Since I was lazy,I rode the train home with Zahirah.(One stop only haha).Syafizah wanted to go popular bookstore.Maybe buy a book called 101 Ways To Praise A Genius Like Fuad or something I dunno.Eliana followed her too.
Chatted with Zahirah for awhile on the train and while we walked out of the MRT station oso.Then parted our ways and head for our respective homes.
I drop buy to the shop to buy Skittles(I do love my skittles) then went home.

So now here I am,Blogging and eating Skittles and Listening to my Coldplay Album!!!!
And wait NEWSFLASH!!
Mimi and Faree just invited me to go town tmr haha.She inviting other 4-7s also so that should be cool haha.

Ok so thats it for tonight I guess.Haiz,I guess my luck's turning around.Maybe it's coz I'm a genius and life of the party Wahahahahahahaha!
G'night!
Out!

Self-Loathing #1

2009-04-02T15:04:00.002+08:00

[Listening To:"At Least I'm Known For Something"-New Found Glory]
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[Playing:Nothin At The Present Moment]
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Man I just hate myself.
I sit at home,complaining about how freaking bored I am and I know it doesn't accomplish anything.
I don't know why but I guess I'm just slightly pissed off coz nobody ever seem to invite me to go anywhere.
But then again,I'm way over my head thinkin that SOMEBODY would even want to ask me to go anywhere.Unless I have something to offer maybe,like things or opinions or money.

I think that people I know,think that I'm a busy guy or something.I mean,I can't remember a time when I was really busy.
Like right now,I am the Freeest guy around.No plans everyday.
Hmm maybe people think I'm a loner?Ah I don't even know why the hell people might think I'm a loner.
Maybe people think I don't want to be around them.Well that is not true.
Well,I mean,there are some people I don't want to hang around with but that's
a different story.

Uh man I think that,if I wasn't too shy when I was in sec one and two,I would've known people better in sec three and four.
I'm only starting to come out of my shell.

Argh why the hell do I care what people think?I just can't help it I guess.
Does that make me an insecure person?
But I don't drop the F-Bomb alot or curse alot.
Arh I dunno,maybe I need new friends.People who I can really hang out with.
Or maybe I just need a psychiatrist.
Damnit.I know I need something.
A Girl maybe,If only there was a girl who has feelings for me haha.
Maybe in poly Fuad.Maybe in poly.

Being an Overthinker is good at times.But other times....you just don't
need a million extra thoughts that only makes you think more about your sad current state.

I need to watch more Spongebob Squarepants to simplify my mind abit.If only simplifiying my mind was possible.

Good Day To All.

Confessions Of A Fool #1

2009-03-30T21:53:00.002+08:00

[Listening To:"My Heart"-Paramore]
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{Playing:"Thats What You Get"-Paramore]

Haley Williams.
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Aaahhhh Haley Williams....I Wake Up To The Sound Of Her Voice Everyday(My Phone Alarm Is "Thats What You Get")Somehow,she's my Dream Girl..WAHAHAHA
I wanna find my own Haley in poly.Boy I just hope I do haha.

When Chicks Dig Guys Who Look Like Chicks

2009-03-30T20:28:00.003+08:00

[Listening To:"Life In Technicolor"-Coldplay]
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[Playing:"Thats What You Get"-Paramore]
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Anyway,you ask,"Why The Title?"
I'm goin tell ya!Just relax man!Man...people these days.

Last Saturday,I followed my uncle(Freaking awesome guitarist),Uncle Faizal
to see him and his buddies Jam somewhere in Arab Street.
Knowing my Uncle,the songs they would play would be the heavy metal classics like Iron Maiden,and uhh,Led Zeppelin and some Malay Heavy Metal and I dunno,is not like i'm a fan of heavy metal.
So you're probably asking why I came since I dun like Heavy Metal.
Well I just came for,you know,exposure or something and I've never seen Pros jam before so its like a lesson for me also.
If I thought my uncle looks like the heavy metal kind,his buddies ARE heavy metal kind haha.All of em are above 40 I think.
So I always smile to myself whenever I think,
"What The Hell Am I Doing With A Bunch Of Middle Age Men?"

Anyway when they start playing,they blew me away,almost literally!(I sat quite close to the Amplifiers since I'm such a genius)
The guitars were awesome!Of course I've seen my uncle play and he's a pro.
And the drums were Grreeat!
Its like I was transported back to the time when Chicks Dig Guys Who Look Like Chicks.
Though the only thing I wanna complain is the singin.I mean he's not singing!He's Yelling and struggling to sing haha.Moaning more like.
Some songs,the vocals were right,others,you just wanna cut it out.

When Maghrib came,I got out of the studio to go Solat at Masjid Sultan.
Funny how I'm the only one who did this wahaha.Mesti la,kate aku alim.Ceh bah.
Nah,its nothin to be ashamed off my dad always say.

After that,I went back to the studio buty I never went inside.I just viewed them from a glass panel.There were two guys that work there that night.All slightly older than me.Funny la they.Cursing each other,making fun of each other,just goofin around haha.They talked to me also.They told me my uncle and his buddies sound great.
They asked me whether I play any instrument.I told em I play guitar but I'm not in a band.
Then one of the guys,the big one,took a bass guitar and plugged it into a small amp and started playin.He's pretty good.
The other suggested jokingly,why not the 3 of us start a band ahha.Then the bass dude said,"Then ape?Jadi Blink 182?".
Then we all laughed.
Anyway then the two goofballs decided to plug some pedals to the bass guitar just for the heck of it haha.Makin stupid sounds and all.

Then after like 2 hours my uncle and his buddies finished jamming and we all went home.
Some of em asked about me.Like how old I am and whether I'm still schooling or what.I told them I'm goin poly.So they say thats good for me and they told me to just study first.
I guess they realised the importance of studying since seeing that none of them appears to be highly educated.I'm not being criticising though.

Anyway,got on the train and went home.Nothing much exciting except for this one group of teenagers who think they're being cool wearing super smartly.Like I'm not kidding,the guys were wearing tux and all.
Boy,what's the occasion huh?
I mean the girls dress normal as in,not overdress but the guys.....seriously man u should've seen it.
Effing Posers.

Anyway reached home at nearly midnight.Then totally had insomnia and couldn't sleep the WHOLE night.Great.

Sweat Drops On My Guitar/Laptop/Whatever

2009-03-28T14:11:00.007+08:00

[Listening To:"Thats What You Get"-Paramore]
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[Playing:"Thats What You Get"-Paramore]

Only recently I realised myself how much me getting to Poly meant for my parents and how much it'll set me apart from my elder sister,and definitely my kid sister.

And I realised I am angry at my two sisters too.
Firstly I wanna talk bout the elder one first.
So well,she didn't do well for her O levels.Well it was her fault.
My mum always said she spent too much time on her art instead of the more important subjects like math and science.
Well I always knew Art was bad,thats why I gave it up even before my sec one year was over.
To tell you the truth,her art wasn't really good.Just a so-so.Don't even know why the hell she couldn't realise that.I mean,for me,Art is something you're born with,not something you try to do or learn.Sure,you can learn airbrush techniques or whatever.But if you dun have a great Art idea that you can use the techniques on,what the friggin use of it?
Anyway,like I said,she spent too much time on doin her Art instead of the other more important subjects.So she didn't get good results.

So she cried.What else could she do?She couldn't blame anyone but herself.
I thought,"Thank God I don't take Art".haha.
And her aggregate score didn't manage to get her to any poly.
Then mum and dad told her,if she still wants to study,they can put her in private school or something.She took the offer.Duh.
But she took Mass Communication.Personally I don't think taking that course in private school is any good since its only for one year and you won't get alot of experience during that one year compared to people taking that course in poly.
Well thats what she wanted,my parents paid for it.
My dad is a good father,he said if I want to study,I dun have to think bout the costs.He can provide it,especially for education.Coz education and knowledge is priceless.

So my sister went to private school.After one year,got good results.
Mind you,private school cost mum and dad 4k.
But the problem is,she couldn't find a job in the mass communication sector.
Up till now she couldn't find.She's working at clothing store.A pretty miserable job for someone with a diploma.
I can't help but think that is she took a diff course,it would be a different story.

So now she's pissed that she couldnt find a proper job,so she complained to my mum about how useless her diploma is!
Can you believe that?Freaking ungrateful!I mean,she was the one who wanted to study at the course!What the hell.
My mum told me she was hurt hearing those words.
I would be too.I mean,it's like,all that money to put her into private school was for nothing.
What the hell is her Goddamn problem?I mean,is it not her choices that led her to this?And she goes around saying her diploma is useless to the people who paid for it.My parents AREN'T rich.That 4k could have been use for other more important things.
If there's one thing I hate,I freaking Hate ungrateful people.
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Now for my kid sister.
If my elder sister was slightly ungrateful,this one is worse!
Unlike my elder sister and me,she didn't get to express stream.
But i'm not criticising her for that.What kind of person would i be then?
Well,anyway,I thought she would at least try to do better and maybe get to Sec 5 and do her O levels and get to poly and stuff.
But now I look at her,my parents look at her and,it's like,she's not even trying.Not even giving a damn.
She's taking her 'N' levels this year.And I thought that would certainly mean something to her but NOoOoOoOo.
She's like,"Ibu I'm goin out today""Abah Im goin out today hehe."
"I'm goin to go work."(She's working at Macdonalds and is apparently,a good worker.Dun ask me why)
And always to me,"Ad i'm using the com later"."Ad I'm using the com tmr"."Ad I'm using the com the next day,and the next day,and..u get it"
Thank god I have a laptop now.
My point is,she does everything BESIDES study and being polite to me for that matter.

You know what,I dun think she studies anythin.Do you know how did she do for her last exam?
She failed EVERYTHING.EV-ER-RY-THING.
And you know how she break the news to my mum?
She was like,"Ibu,I failed every subject for the exams"
Like,WHAT THE BLOODY HELL!?And she's still smiling like she achieved something by failing every damn subject.
And her attitude didn't change.She still go out alot every weekend.
And uses the com almost everyday.I never saw her study.
Well to tell u the truth,I study abit at home during o level year hehe but at least I understood what I studied and learned at school.
She's like,"Study?What the hell is that?"

So I'm starting to worry.How nice a brother am I?Just unappreciated.
I just worry that she might flunk her N levels so bad that she couldn't
go sec five or ITE.Maybe get to stay back or something.
She keeps saying she want to go to ITE(Dun ask me why).But then again,even ITE has some standards right.

So my parents dunno what to do with her.I know my mum just pray to God that somehow she would change and start focusing on studies.
Man I pity Mum and Dad.Thats why it means alot that I got good results and got to poly.

Ah what the hell,my sis wants to fail thats her Goddamn problem.She can work at Macdonald's all her life for all I care.I'm not being harsh.I'm just being realistic.
My mum told me once that my kid sis is a unique one.She can still survive coz she got street smarts.So Education or no education,it doesn't really matter much to her.Sure I sort of agree abit.(She's always a Hot head and manages to piss me off every morning)
But then,we live in a country where qualifications mean everything right.
Haiz,whats the use talking to people like her?Not refering to mom.

*****
Looks like its up to me and my kid brother to have a chance at being succesful.
My kid brother is only Pri 2 now.He's starting slow just like me when I was just starting pri school.But I noe he's a smart one.I just hope,he won't make the mistakes my sisters did or will be doin.

Wah so long ah my post?I understand if y'all dun read everything here haha.
Take care y'all.

I just feel the need to put all my thoughts here.
Not putting will just feed my anger.

Fuad's To Do List For The month.

2009-03-24T21:35:00.002+08:00

[Listening To:Sounds Of Gunfire From Battlefield 2]
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[Playing:"Best I Ever Had"-Vertical Horizon]
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Fuad's To-Do List For The Month.(Rather late since its the 24th already)
1)Reach Lieutenant Rank in BF2.
2)Snipe More People In BF2
3)Get More Sleep,Somehow.(Hard with BF2 around.)
4)Watch more episodes of spongebob.
5)Change the strings on my electric guitar.
6)Wake up early(By at least 30 min.Woke up at 12 almost everyday.)
7)Watch more Jimmy Kimmel Live.
8)Start learning French.
9)Get A Life.Seriously.
10)Communicate with more people(Comrades in BF2 are not counted.)

Aww God!I'm Fast becoming a total Nerd!

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So yea as you can see.I don't really have a life.I just hope this would change when I start Poly.Damnit,why is it such a long wait?WHY?WHY?WHY?
Haiz,thank God there's BF2 to keep me company.Seriously.

All These Things That I've Done

2009-03-22T14:36:00.002+08:00

[Listening To:"Life In Technicolor"-Coldplay
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[Playing:"Gone"-Jack Johnson]
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Hey guys.Boy it's been like what?Ten days since I posted anythin?Yea.
But then,who reads this blog right?yea.

So of course,alot of stuff happened in that ten days...but nothin too exciting really.
Firstly,I finished doin those Poly enrolment stuff...FINALLY!.
But I'm just hopin my mum and I did it right.Skali tak succesfull...Sedih ah.

Also,I got a new Laptop!!Wahahaha!
I just bought it from Ngee An.The cheapest(and still good) Acer I could find.
It's the one that cost $1288(w/gst).Bersyukur la da dapat laptop ni.
Anyway,the one of the first things I did was install a game!haha.

Anyway I have to say that this new laptop with the Windows Vista feels so new to me.I mean,I don't even know half of what this thing can really do.
I'm uh..pretty slow with coms as you can see.
And the new MSN feels weird using at first,so new and all.
And I never thought playin with the webcam can be so fun..hehe.
I think I took alot of Dynamic pics.
.....I feel like a caveman...A clean one.

Another thing I did last week was buying Battlefield 2 game wahahaha!
I've always wanted to buy this game!But was just waiting to buy a laptop first since the com at home is lousy with games.
So yea,one of the reasons I wasn't able to go online alot and blog is because I was playing bf2!!It's been so freakin long since I played games.(My PS2 is dead...or dying)And I'm lost sleep during those days too.My eyes are practically red every morning and I wake up at 12 everyday.
My eyes havent quite recovered from lack of sleep.
And whats more,I didn't sleep at all on friday night all the way to Saturday morning.
Not because I was playing games.I'm not that nuts.

I applied to go for a night cycling event with Lut at Asyafaah Mosque at Sembawang.The night cycling was from that mosque,all the way to East Coast Park.It sounds intimidating at first,but when we reached East Coast,I was like,"Eh...Dah reach dah?I thought like a couple more hours till we reach".
I mean,sure my legs ache but that was all that I can wince at.
It wasn't tiring mentally at all.
We reached there too early and ended up doing nothing much there besides just waiting for Subur prayers.
Thank God I came with Lut.Otherwise it'd be so damn boring.Though the lectures by the Uztaz were'nt bad.

Lut wasted $4.30 for a packet of Beef jerky.I told him it costs $4.30.But he thought I said $1.30,so I was quite surprised when he still wanted to buy it.
He was shocked to see at the register that it cost $4.30,but he still bought it..The Genius haha.
But the Black Pepper Beef Jerky tastes awesome!I never expected to see a pack of Beef Jerky that was Halal.But still,$4.30 was wasted.

Then the Subur Prayers came.We(every participant that could solat) solat berjemaah on the sand!I thought it was cool.Behind us was the ocean,hitting the beach,makin that all-to-beautiful sound.A good lesson which shows that no matter where you are,you can still perform your solat.

After that,there was some lame stuff to do,then finally we were aloud to go home.
When Lut and I reached Yew Tee,we went to have breakfast at MacDs.It was 10 am.I blanja him since the next day(Today) would be his Birthday.Hmm which Birthday ah?12th is it?Haha just kiddin.The boy's turnin Seventeen.
I still got Five months till I'm Seventeen.

And thats all I gotta today.Hmmm this blog is dying I think...Ah What The Hell.Who Gives A Shit.
Haiz Poly,when will you freaking start?

Lets Do This Thing

2009-03-11T21:55:00.003+08:00

[Listening To:"Stuck On You"-Paramore
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[Playing:"Andai Ku Tahu-Ungu]
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Hey guys.
Hmm so I've finally decided that I'll be learning French!haha.
I just hope I filled up the form correctly.
Anyway I choose French coz I'm sure it will help me in the future when I go out and look for job overseas or something since I wanna do Aerospace Tech.If,I dunno,I get a job in europe or something(ceh europe sey) or maybe visit those north african countries where the people mostly speak French like in Algeria and all.
And French is COOL!haha.
Unlike some people like Syafizah who's learning bangla hahaha NOT.

But then I know learning French is HARD!I just have to give it all I got.
French is the language of love!hehehe.
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So today,well,I went jamming for the first time with Ziyad,Sufi and Khairul.
At our old school since theres a jamming room there.Why,U ask?Well coz it's FREE!No need pay anythin ah.
Hmm well,I don't really noe what to say bout it.It feels weird at first,then it feels right.We practice the song "Andai Ku Tahu" By Ungu.I only started learning the song last night seh!Then I had play the lead today.I don't deny that I suck abit,but then,it's my first time and I had to learn the song in less than 24 hours!

Uhh I just can't do my Barre chords properly.Damnit.

So yea,we played for nearly three hourse I think.A Big chunk of the time was for Khairul to get the correct beat for the song coz he drummed too fast for a slow song like that but I don't blame him.I mean,I didn't do so well with lead.
Ziyad relax je haha style ah though I didn't know he played bass.

Umm I think we still need a few(or more) practices together before we master the song.And we still have yet to pick a name for the band.
I guess I'll leave that to them uh.
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Anyway,goin for a colour vision test at Ngee An poly tomorrow with Sufi.
Though quite bummed coz he can't make it at 11 am.Meeting him at Yew Tee at 12 noon.I want to go early so I'll have enough time to meet up with Lut at Jurong East Interchange later,coz we wanna go town,maybe go IT Fair or something.

Can't wait for friday.Seeing Hadi and the Gang! again haha even though for friday prayers only.

Yea thats all I gotta say for tonight.
My thumb is SO SO Numb.

I Hate Hot Days

2009-03-08T16:09:00.004+08:00

[Listening To:"Clocks"-Coldplay]
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[Playing:"Check Yes Juliet"-We The Kings]
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This Vid was taken and edited from Band Of Brothers.
Soldier,"Pie In The Hole!!"
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OK so I'm just updating here for the sake of updating.
Ok I know I should be outside right now.It's a Sunday!
But I'm not.This Sunday is like any other day for me.No kiddin.

So anyway,still no news whether I am goin to be in a band.
Honestly,I not counting on it much.But that doesnt mean I don't want to be in one.I can use the experience since I've never jammed with anyone before.
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I got another package from Ngee An poly.This time bout Freshman orientation camp.No,wait.CAMPS.
Anyway,I won't be goin for the main Freshmen Orientation camp.
Coz if I go,I have to sacrifice a shirt and a pair of shorts!What good is that?
My wardrobe is small enough as it is.I really don't need it to be anymore smaller.
Besides I HAVE to pay $15 to go.Thats even more stupid.Ya' know,some people actually don't have enough money to just throw away like that.

Anyway,the events that are compulsary for me to go is the MDE(MultiDiscipline Engineering) Freshmen Orientation Programme in April.I don't mind that one.
But the MDE also has a Freshmen Orientation CAMP right after the programme.
It's a 2 day camp.Hmm I think I'll go since they never said anything bout sacrificing some clothes.
By the way,these MDE events are exclusive for people goin to Logistics Management,International Supply Chain Management and Engineering Common Programme(That's Mine!).
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So another form came in with the package.
This form is about taking up a third language.I ask my mum about it and she thinks I should go.So I'm now stuck with 2 choices,either learning French,or learning German.
I know that German is easier to learn than French.But then,French is like,the language of Romance or something right?Haha.

So help me guys!Help me choose!Which is better for my future!?

Here's Me Speaking In French;
"Bonjour Monsieur,Bonjour Madame......Viva La France!"*Throat Hurts*

Here's Me Speaking In German;
"Guten Morgen!.........Heil Hitler!"

K I'm just kidding.German is kinda cool too.I wanna go to Aerospace Technology through ECP,and who knows?Maybe I'll get a job in some German Aerospace Company!Then German language would be very useful.

That's all today guys.I wanna learn a new song.
Out.
Au Re Voir
(Not so sure bout this one.)

2009-03-05T22:01:00.002+08:00

Listening To:"All We Know"-Paramore]
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[Playing:"Crushcrushcrush"-Paramore]

Hey people.
Actually I thought bout puttin a Paramore pic here but then I didn't.
I dunno why.

Anyway yesterday I followed Shichang to go to Polyclinic coz he had to have a medical checkup for polytechnic.
Then we met up with Lut.
Then we seperated with Shichang.

Lut was following Weesen,Shouxian and Ziyad to go Jurong East for a Medical Checkup.So I just followed them anyway.
Then we met up with Khairul and Sufi and went on our way to jurong east.
Then they had their medical checkup at SATA while Lut and me relaxed in the library nearby till they finished.
Then met up with Weesen and Shouxian to go to IMM just to walk around and make fun of stuff and talk bullshit.
Then we went home.
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At home,
I thought bout what Sufi told me earlier in the day.
He said,"Get ready to join if my lead guitarist merepek".
I didn't know what he meant really.So I msged him bout it.
Turns out he wanted me to join his band if he finds that his lead guitarist is crappy.
I didn't know what to say at first.So I just thanked him.

I can't deny that I'm psyched up abit but I'm not putting high hopes on it.
I've learnt enough to put high hopes on stuff.

Ziyad plays Bass in the band.Khairul plays drums.Sufi plays Rythm and Vocals.And the lead guitarist is a guy named Hidayat.I'm don't know who he is but I know he's younger and is still schooling in Sec school.

Hmm I dunno what kind of songs they play though.
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I'm a guitarist but I have never been to a Jamming room before.How sad is that?Well main reason is I don't have any close friends who plays music like I do.
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Anyway guys,I created my facebook account today!Haha so add me people!Ok.
Haiz I'm still confused about the tons of stuff to do in Facebook!haha.
Well I wanna keep todays post short coz I wanna watch Heroes!
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And yea I figured out the solo parts for Crushcrushcrush By Paramore!See Y'all sometime else!

In Company Of Others

2009-02-28T20:07:00.004+08:00

[Listening To:"Life In Technicolour"-Coldplay
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[Playing:"1,2,3,4"-Plain White Tees
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Doctor House

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Had a rather fun day today.

Went out with Naj,Irfan and Zul to Peninsula.

I went coz I wanted to buy a hoodie.Naj wanted to buy one also.

When we reach there,we didn't went to go look for hoodies first,

we went straight to the guitar shops there and admire all those electric guitars that none of us can afford yet.

Then we walk around again,this time lookin for hoodies.There were alot of shops that sell hoodies but all those hoodies are for matreps and all.

Me and Naj wanted plain hoodies.Surprisingly enough,plain hoodies cost more haha.

Finally found a shop that sells plain hoodies.But as I said,they cost more.But the shop owner was nice to us and showed us one that costs $35.It was black but it looked nice.The guy said the cloth is good quality.

I tried it on and I thought it looked nice on me.The kind of fitting I always wanted but dunno where to find.

So then,Me and Naj bought one each.Both black since there are no other colours.(But I'm not complainin)Unfortunately,Naj only brought 22 bucks.So I helped chip in abit for him since I got a $50 note.He gave me 20 then said he'll pay the rest someday.

I don't really mind much helping a friend.Dunno why.I just don't.

Anyway I just hope Naj pays back haha.

You beta!=)

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I'm thinkin of buying this guitar soon.Maybe in June.

Squier OBEY Graphic Telecaster HS Collage-$533.93

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Or maybe this

Squier Standard Telecaster Black And Chrome(Special Edition)$470.80

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Hmm What Do You Think?

I have enough money right now to buy but I dun think it's wise to buy it now.

I'll just save more money first then I'll buy.

I just hope I do buy.

I have a bad history of wanting to buy stuff and ending up not buying.

Like today I was thinkin of buying Viva La Vida but I forgot.Damnit.

But I am sure I AM goin to buy it.

What can I say?Their songs are Awesome.

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Well thats all today.If I sound abit moody in this post I apologise.

I dunno what's go into me.Seriously.

Night All.

Milk And Oreos

2009-02-24T22:20:00.004+08:00

[Listening To:"Clocks"-Coldplay
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[Playing:"clocks" By Coldplay]
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Chris Martin

Hey guys.
I've decided to stop putting up the 'mood' thing since I'm always clueless about my mood when asked the question coz my mood is usually not obvious to me.
Stupid,I know.

So instead,I'll put up the 'playing' thing.And it shows the song that I'm playing on my guitar that day.Expect to see alot of songs repeated coz,hello,I'm not an effing guitar god.
*****

Anyway,I changed my blog song to clocks.Man I just love that song.and the main tune to it.Freaking awesome.I've decided I'm goin to buy Coldplay's album,Viva La Vida or Death And All His Friends.And I will definitely buy their greatest hits album if it should come out.

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So wanna am I doin now?
I am well typing and listening to songs...and sitting...and thinkin bout stuff...and..and dunking oreos into my cup of milk.(Yes,I'm getting younger by the days)
I think staying at home for so long made me like this hahaha.
I hope I wont be too boring a person when I start poly.

Anyway,my best friend Shichang is goin to NYP for digital media design.Congrats to him.He actually got accepted to RP in a course he didn't want but luckily he applied digital media design under JPSAE.Congrats again to him.
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The reason why I'm so freaking bored at home?
Nobody bothers to ask me how I'm doin and so on.
Nobody asks me whether I'd like to go out or anything.
Like,not even my friends.
I have to Msg them first,then they'll msg and talk.But some of em dun even reply.Dunno why coz it's not like I msg them everyday or what.

I seriously need more friends who are as interested about me as I am about them.No,not gay friends.I met too many gay bastards already.
I need more friends who can invite me along to go out and do fun stuff.
I dun have all that now.I just hope the friends I'll find in poly will be great.
Thats all I'm askin for.
You better be good for me poly life.
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Hmm Lut put in his blog some stuff bout him.I dunno why he didn't tell me.
Anyway he says he'll tell me on Friday.
It's kinda hard to be a good friend if he keep turning you away.
Anyway,I'm goin to go to library with Shichang.Dunno when though.
He said he'll msg me.Should be good seeing him again.
G'night All.
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(Random)
Taylor Swift is So pretty!Why the hell did Nick Jonas Broke Up with her?Wth.
Wait,Why do I freaking care!?

Life In Technicolour

2009-02-21T14:54:00.002+08:00

[Mood:Hmm I Dun Think I'll Put This Up Again]

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[Listening To:"Violet Hill"-Coldplay
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Hey guys!
Watch this Music Video haha Awesome.
The song is called,"Life In Technicolour II" By Coldplay.
From The Album Viva La Vida or Death And All His Friends.

Anyways Hmm I dun think this post will be long.
I feel like buying Coldplay's album.
And I heard they're coming to Singapore in march.
Awesome.Maybe it's time I go watch a concert.I've never been to one before in my life.
Should Be Awesome.
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Argh!I need to get back to learning songs on my guitar!Haiz I keep playing the same songs,feels abit..boring.Hmm and I think maybe in poly,I'll join a band haha.It's always good to have company in music.
Seriously Can't Wait For Poly To Finally Start Already.
I need to move on to better things as soon as possible,coz I feel like I'm decaying or something.I dunno.It's hard to explain.
Maybe I'll try later or something.
Expect abit of emo-ness I guess.

Chiowz People!

Well I Don't Celebrate Valentines Thank You

2009-02-16T20:40:00.003+08:00

[Mood:Not Awesome,Not Suckish..Then It's Good!Wow]
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[Listening To:"Sway"-Michael Buble (No,Seriously)
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Hola guys.
Enjoyed your weekend?
Anyway my weekend was....Good actually.
Spent my weekend with my family in my grandfather's kampung in johor haha.
It's been a while since I've been there.
My grandfather is actually Singaporean you know.But he lives there.

Anyway my family went to a shopping mall called Angsana in Johor Bahru,Like we always do when we're in Johor.
And I followed Faree's advice bout buying original shoes in Malaysia haha.

I know,Y'all must be thinkin like,"You listen to Faree's advice Fuad?Are you like...Nuts?"
haha K kidding Faree.

I bought a pair of Vans Slip-ons that are brown in colour and looked like they were made of leather I guess.And my sis said it looks good on me.
I dunno why Hadi told me I wont look good wearing slip-ons.
I can't wait to show my foot in his face.He'll think otherwise probably.

I don't know why I didn't buy anything else there.I mean,there are practically tons of things I could've bought there like hoodies and such and all I bought was a pair of shoes.Hmm I wasn't thinking straight I guess.
Bloody Hell.

Anyway,on the way back to the Kampung,I did something I never thought I'd do till I get older.
Guess what?
My dad was driving the car along a long stretch of highway.There weren't alot of cars on the road.
Then my dad ask me whether I'd like to drive the car abit!
Ape lagi sey!I said sure why not!

So he pulled the car over the side of the road,and got the the seat beside the driver's while I got to the driver's seat.
Then,I started....driving.
Wow,I gotta tell you guys,it felt awesome!Very scary but Awesome!
I think I did 90 km/hr abit and I didn't even realised it.I think thats why I should go driving school first.I'm a speed crazy driver already.It's scary to think.
Anyway for some reason,I sort of forgot that the red light means stop.
I guess I was just amazed and stunned that I was driving a car.A Real Car damnit!Not a videogame!Just a bit.

So I manage to brake in time with my dad's help and make a tight right turn.I think I could hear my mum's heart beat that time.And my own too.
After that I pulled over the side of the road so that my dad can take over.
Phew,I made it I guess.
I still can't believe it even though I'm typin it all down here.

5 Things It Felt Like:
1)Aw Yea Man!Lookout you stupid pedestrians!(Like I'm playing Grand Theft Auto)
2)Flying Without Wings,Just Wheels Babeh.
3)So Stunned At What You're Doing Till You Forget The Important Parts,e.g Red means stop the damn car.
4)Like Playing a Videogame,except that it's more complicated and it's real,real life.You can actually DIE.Like,no restarts.Ever.
5)Again,felt like playing a videogame except that the game I had in mind was Burnout(Crashing cars for fun & profit)Definitely NOT comforting.

It's just Crazy/Amazing/Scary/Awesome/Great/Nerve-racking/Shocking.

Boy,I definitely can't wait to get my own licencse.And my motorcycle licencse,and my pilot licencse(ceh ceh ceh).

Thats all I got for tonight.I wanna watch House on AXN.

Night'all!

Saving(And Then Accidentally Blowing Up)Private Ryan

2009-02-08T22:45:00.004+08:00

[Mood:Fairly Happy...Whatever.]
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[Listening To:"For A Pessimist,I'm Pretty Optimistic"-Paramore]
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Hmm picture this guys;

This is a place.The Basement of some building.Well-lit.And there are many children.Many.And Parents also.The children are running around without a care in the world.There are small tables and chairs and shelves too,filled with books..that the children are rummaging through as though they were hungry or something.Not too mention that it's pretty noisy with Kids laughing and crying and parents talking loudly.(man oh man)Hmm so what is this place you ask?A Childcare Centre?A special clubhouse for children?A Mental ward for children?A disco for children?
Wrong,Wrong,Uhh Wrong and you got problems,Definitely Wrong.
It's the children's section of Jurong Regional Library on the weekend.

Crazy I know.

Haiz..Thank God I stopping work this Tuesday.
I mean seriously,it's a library!And the kids are behaving like they ate too much candy and are having a sugar rush or something I dunno.
And the parents just let them run wild.
And this is the place to see how kiasu Singapore parents are.The just take alot of books for their children to read.Unfortunately,they read less then half of the books.Then after that,they just dump all the bloody books on my trolley!

5 Things I Felt Like:
1)The Dirty Trolley
2)That Guy Who Sweeps The Floor
3)That Aunty Who Sweeps The Floor
4)That Bangla Who Sweeps The Floor(No,actually,He gets worst)
5)The Donkey Being Forced To Carry All The Crap The Farmer Has To Offer.

And the people are noisy too!And messing up the whole place!I felt like screaming to them,"HEY!THIS IS A LIBRARY!!A GODDAMNED LIBRARY DAMNIT!WHAT THE HELL ARE YOUR PROBLEMS PEOPLE!?WHEN YOU'RE IN THE LIBRARY,SHUT THE FUCK UP!!AND KEEP YOUR CHILDREN ON A LEASH IF THEY LIKE TO RUN AROUND!AND IF Y'ALL FININSHED WITH YOUR BOOKS,DUMP THEN AT THE MESSUP TROLLEYS!DON'T FUCKING DUMP THEM ON MY FUCKING TROLLEY!I'M TRYING TO DO MY JOB HERE DAMNIT!Sheesh."

Hmm maybe chuck stuff at them like the guy up there u noe..
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For those of you wondering where that pic is from,it's from the movie Saving Private Ryan.As you can see,it's a War movie.Well it's one of my favourite movies.And when Tom Hanks is in it,how can it not be a good movie?
Hmm the action parts are great,and gory also(Yea man).And I like the story too.

Anyways,the picture is a breakthrough for me coz if you've realised,Its the first time I put a Picture in my post!Hahaha I didn't noe how to before haha.(Me no good with computers)I feel so stupid when I found out that I can just copy and paste pictures.(Again,me no good)
So yea,definitely more pics are coming through.
Hmm I guess thats why people never come to my blog much.Dang it.

Till then,G'night guys.
Enjoy This,

Strangers On A Train

2009-02-07T22:19:00.002+08:00

[Mood:Pissed Off By Work But Still Smiling]
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[Listening To:"For A Pessimist,I'm Pretty Optimistic"-Paramore]
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So I wanna get some things outta the way first alright.
I've decided not to apply for the Joint Poly-SAF Diploma Scheme.
I've put alot of thought bout it,even lost sleep one night.
And I've decided on it.My Final decision.
Sorry Lut,I just made up my mind.But if u want someone to train with man,just call me up.

******

Anyway,Tuesday's gonna be my last day at work!
Then I can relax more at home.And catch up on my guitar playing haha.
Hey guys you noe,I'm goin to buy a new guitar!haha with me own money of course haha.But not this month or next I think.Probably buy 'round April or June..
Gonna buy a Squier Telecaster! I wanted one since I started playing Electric haha.I have more than enough money already(ceh2) to buy but it just has to wait first.I got lots of clothing to buy for poly!

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Uhh Crap.This post is too short by my standards.I apologise.I have alot on my mind but I just dun have the time to put here haha.
G'night!
Out.Can't wait to see the girls at NP!hehe.

The Unveiling Of My Path

2009-02-01T21:32:00.003+08:00

[Mood:In The Process Of Making A Choice]
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Listening To:"All We Know"-Paramore
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Hey Guys.
It's been awhile....but then again,who reads my blog right?haha
I need to do an advertisement about my blog or something haha.

Anyway,I'm goin to Ngee Ann Polytechnic man!haha.
I'm sure there'll be alot of hot girls there hehe.
I got into Engineering Common Programme.Not too bad I guess haha.
I can choose which Engineering course I want to further pursue at the start of my second semester.Not too bad right?haha

Haha so now I just have to wait till start of the first semester haha.Maybe buy some more clothes while I'm at it.
Can't wait to get a laptop too haha.Well who doesn't right?

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Ah you know,I'm actually quite sad.All my friends are goin different places than me.Three of my best friends will be in the same poly haha and I'll be on my own at Ngee Ann.
Well the best I can hope for is that we'd all keep in touch with each other haha.
And people!Don't forget to go my blog aite haha.

Anyway,I'm really quitting work on the Tenth of the month.FINALLY!
But guess what?Since this will be my last week at work,my supervisor's givin me no day off!What The Fuck right?That's just
FUBAR.Haiz,9 hours of work everyday for like I think,8 days straight!Hello,I'm not a Goddamn robot!
Nevermind I'll just take a day off myself haha.I'll just say I'm really tired(or I sprained my ankle,or broke my leg,or broke my neck etc.).Fatigue you know.That happened before.And that reason usually works haha.But I think that's due to the fact that the people at the top are not that strict on the workers.Like,hello man,we're only working in a library haha.

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Hmm today I went to a seminar on the Joint-Poly SAF Diploma Scheme with my Mum,my uncle Addha and my good friend Lutfil.He's decided to apply for the scheme.I did too.But straight after applying,I had some second thoughts and doubts about it.The scheme states that you have to serve a minimum of 5 years in the army,inclusive of the 2 years NS.And you'll be immediately put under the SAF premium plan upon starting life in the army.The plan has two phases,the first is that,I'll be a specialist for ten years first.The second phase,should I get it,would be that I'll become a warrant Officer for like a long time.And thats where I had my doubts coz I thought,what if I dun get to become a Warrant Officer?then what will I do?Will it be easy for me to get a job outside the army then?coz I'm sure my diploma would be outdated by then.

So I talked to my mum about it.I asked her,if I dun want to take the scheme,can she and my dad handle my poly fees and all?she told me she can.Then I ask her if I wanted to go to university afterwards,can she provide the money.She told me that she couldn't promise anything especially if I want overseas.So I will have to do my best to secure a place in one of the universities in Singapore.Haiz..both the army path and the independent path are pretty difficult.

Well my mum then told me to just apply for the scheme coz it doesn't mean that I'll definitely get it right.And yea she's right I guess.
My dad told me that I'm still young,and that I dun have to think about whether my mum and dad can provide the money for my studies.They said to me that the main thing is that,I just have to do my best.

So I just go with it for now and see what happens next I guess.
Whatever path I get,I just hope it'll be the right one.

Insya'allah,God Will Help Me.

Just A Short One

2009-01-25T21:03:00.002+08:00

[Mood:Your Guess Is As Good As Mine]
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[Listening:"Be The One"-The Ting Tings]
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Ahoy there.
Hmm Gettin my Postin Results on the 30th!haha and I'm So freaking anxious haha well who wouldn't be.
Thinkin of quitting work next month.Its not the work,It's just me....No,it's the work alright.$4.70 per hour.9 hours everyday.No raise on holiday eves.Boring brain cell killing work over and over again.Better quit before I'm brain-dead.
Listening to The Ting Tings' songs.They're definitely somethin new and cool.Gotta watch out for them.
Gonna get a new phone like next month I think.'Bout time!My phone looks like crap now haha.I dun think it would be stolen if i just leave it around haha.Two years with me man.
Will be buying new clothes and stuff for the new life ahead yea!
And continue learning the guitar again.

That is all.=)
Hope you guys got beta stuff to do than me.
G'night!Good Luck!And Keep The Faith.
Out.

Insert Jokes Bout Tiredness Here

2009-01-20T21:54:00.005+08:00

[Mood:(Insert Jokes Bout Insomnia Here)]
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[Listening To:"Secret Valentine"-We The Kings]
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Boy I can't believe I got work today.
I mean,yea I know that I work for 3 days then a day off.But I still can't believe I had work today.
I just don't think working 9 hours for 3 days straight and having one a day off is good.One day off just isn't enough.
I didn't even noe how the hell I got temporary full-time.Most of the others are part-timers.That means they work for 5 hours at a time.
What's more,I've been having trouble getting some sleep these days.
I.Just.Can't.Sleep.
No matter how tired I am.
That's why I can't believe I got work today.I was just tired.So tired.And I don't think I'm tired physically,I'm tired mentally.
Nowadays I get moody and abit grouchy when I wake up in the morning.
Obviously from lack of sleep.
Know what I think?I think I have Insomnia.Fuck.

*****

Sent my JAE Application last Wednesday.Aeronautical Engineering at SP is my first choice.It's COP is 12.And I got 14.But I figured I'll just try my luck since I didn't do badly for math and science.
My second choice is Aerospace Technology at Ngee Ann.It's COP is 12 too but I just put it down anyway.
Third is Engineering Common Programme at Np.It's quite interesting coz the first semester you'll be studying the common modules that all engineering courses have.The next semester,then you choose which engineering course you want to go to haha.That means that I can still get into Aerospace Technology muahaha!
Fourth choice is Aeronautical & Aerospace Tech at Nyp.A new course so it doesnt have a COP yet.
Now I'm sure y'all notice the similarity here haha.I'm just so damn interested in aeroplanes!haha call me a little boy,I don't give a damn haha.
Now I'm just praying to get to one of these courses.
Hope You All are praying to get to ur courses of choice!I wish y'all the best.
Hmm I'm thinking of applying for the army diploma too.Probably The Air Force one.Who Knows?I could be a fighter pilot some day haha.

******

I want to complain bout work again here.hehe hope ya don't mind haha.
So yea,I've told u guys before how annoying some of the readers are right?The ones who kept asking me stupid questions?Hmm I think I havent...I dunno.
Lack of sleep can affect one's memories.
So yea,they keep asking me questions like I'm the one who runs the damn library!Hell,I'm not even a freaking Librarian!I'm arojust the zombie who slumbers around shelving books!And the one to straighten and arrange the books for that matter!Stupid Idiots.They can't even put the books back at the right place!Much less the messup trolley where they were supposed to put books that they're done with!There's even a big enough sign on the damn trolleys!
You'd think they'd be smarter if they read alot of books in the library.Dumbasses.
I feel like throwing books at their heads.Who knows?Maybe they'll get smarter.
Haiz I can't wait to quit next month.

*******

You Know...Seeing Couples And All In The Library And Everywhere Else,Makes Me Feel Kinda Lonely.(This is the part where you say,"Awwww that's sad".Forget It.)
Hmm I Cant Wait To Start Poly.It'll Be The Start Of Something New!(hehe)Get To Meet New People,And Who Knows?Maybe I'll Meet The One...

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This Is Fuad.
Keep The Faith.

2009-01-13T22:50:00.003+08:00

[Mood:I'm So Freaking Happy!Haha!And Slightly Nuts]
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[Singing:"I Passed My O Levels!I Freaking Passed!"]
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Oh Ho Wowie.
I can't believe it.I did it.I really did it.
Got my results yesterday.At 1400 hrs.
Actually,it was quite sad.The whole thing.
My index number was 24,so there are 23 people in my class getting their results b4 me.
Well,from the look on some of their faces,I know some of them didn't do very well.And that made me so damn nervous and anxious.It was nerve-racking,sitting down there.So I went to a couple of my friends,and tried to comfort them abit.

Then my turn came.So I sat infront of my form teacher,Mr Ng.His face wasn't all that happy in the first place.I guess he's sorta disappointed in the class.
Anyway,he showed my results first.The aggregate score was sealed.
So my results...B3 for English(Hmm not bad I guess)..B3 for Pure History(Again,Not Bad haha) B3 for Humanities(I dunno if i'm good at ss or geog,Whatever haha) B3 for Maths(Haha!I can't believe this one!) A2 for Science Phy/Chem (This One Also haha) D7 for POA (Expected.Spoil the Picture) B4 for malay(Well I didn't retake it haha.Dun mind it)
So yea,I was surprised and I lost the ability to count the number of points I got haha.

I opened up the other letter alongside one of my friend.Haha I got L1R4 of 14 haha!Can u believe that!haha I can't haha.I hoped to get 15 u noe haha.I totally didn't expect to get 14 haha.
My friend didn't do badly himself.Haha congrats Lut haha.You did your best.You can go to poly man haha.And then take the Army Diploma that U always wanted haha.Nice man.

So yea,after that we just hanged around the hall,talking to other people.haha.
So I went home with Lut and another friend,Yazid.Talking and laughing just like we used to do when me and lut were still schooling haha.

I reached home and my mum was waiting for me by the door.She must be psychic or something haha.So she asked me how did I do.I said jokingly that I didn't do so well haha.I'm evil haha.So i just gave her my result slip and she went inside first,I was still taking off my shoes.But I heard her say,"Al-hamdullillah" and she sounded so happy haha.
I finally got inside haha and she came to me haha with smiles and all.She cried also haha and I just smiled.
It certainly felt great haha.

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So now,I just have to choose where I want to go.Well it's more harder than I thought haha but I finally finalised my choices haha.My top choice is Aeronautical Engineering haha something I've always wanted coz I've always been interested in Aeroplanes and all haha.The Cop is actually 12 but I'll just list it down since I got 14 and a ace my science and passed my maths haha.You know,my top 4 choices all have something to do with planes hahaha.As they say;

The Sky's The Limit.
******
Anyway,since I start working again on friday,I wanna go out and buy stuff haha since I'm getting my delayed pay tmr haha.Hmm maybe I'll bring Lut along haha.Maybe treat him fast food haha.I have to buy a new mp4 player and replace my guitar strings.haha

So yea thats all I gotta say.
To those of you who did well,keep it up!And to those of you who didn't do so well,dun give up ok.

Keep The Faith.

Out.
******

2009-01-11T21:43:00.002+08:00

[Mood:Holy Shit!Tomorrow's The Day!]
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[Listening To:Listen To What Man?O Lvl's Tomorrow!]
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Oh Wowie...tomorrow's the day huh guys?I can't believe it haha.4 years(5 for some of us) of secondary school education and it ALL comes down to this.
Oooh I don't think I can sleep tonight...
Ok I'm gonna stop talking bout it now coz I noe you guys are as nervous as I am now haha.

CHANGE TOPIC

Okay I'll talk bout my week haha.
Hmm on Wednesday I think...I was working,you noe in the Library,in the children's section unfortunately.I was just moving away from my trolley when one malay kid called me.You know what he called me?
He said,"Eh Uncle".(quite loud too.)
I felt like replying back,"Uncle kepale otak kau!"haha.
Do I look that Old?Seriously.He was being slightly rude too.
Where are your freaking manners kid?Nobody taught you?
haha and the fact that I am malay too doesn't help.He could've have called me "Abang" or something.Or at least a polite,"excuse me".
We're not of different generations hello.
Hmm maybe I do look kinda old...nope.Not Me.He's just to young haha.

On the same day,I was pushing my trolley past the shelves and then I saw a head popping out of one of the shelves.No,my eyes didn't deceive me.
I came nearer and two blue eyes were staring up at me.
A caucasian boy was curled up inside one of the shelves,with his head popping out.Reeaall nice.
For a moment there,I thought he was stuck.So I came up,well..Down to him.I felt like saying,"Kid,What The Fuck Are You Doing!?".But seeing as I am such a Polite Young Gentleman(And everybody threw their shoes at me),I said,"uhh excuse me,what are you doing?"
But I didn't reply.So I said,"Are you OK?".Then he replied,"ouh I'm Ok.I'm just flexible,thats all."
I felt like saying,"Its a goddamned Library!Not some circus tent!"
But I just said Ok and went back to my trolley.I didn't want to know more bout his problem.Haha.

Hmm that's just about all the weird things that happened this week.

I can't remember alot bout yesterday...ouh yea I worked yesterday too.My mind always sorta switches off when I work.Well the memory side.
Today,I went to the library,I know,you are probably thinkin I can't get enough of the library haha wrong!haha.I have enough of WORKING in the library,but I havent got enought of reading in the library haha.Besides,I went to CCK Library not Jurong Regional where I work.
First thing I did when I got inside was that I went to the section D under young adult section.Coz I got an Errand to run haha.
Then I found the book,Vampire Beach:Intiation.Weird title I thought.I flipped through the pages and found it.A postcard with a picture of Taufik Batisah haha.
Then I put it in my bag.I just have to remember to bring it to school tomorrow.

Anyway I borrowed five books today.haha more than I have ever borrowed at one time.The first book is,Finding Lubchenko,second,Poolboy,(same author as the first,Michael Simmons),third,The Sniper(James Riordan),Fourth,Freshman(Michael Gerber),Fifth,Flags Of Our Fathers(James Bradley).
Haha Got a lot of reading to do now hahaha.

Uhh well,I dun have anything else stupid enough to put here so uh Goodnight Folks haha.But I think Most of us won't be sleeping much tonight hahaha.
Arrrhhh Tomorrow!!2 pm!See You There!I sound like I'm excited but I'm nervous abit and really really anxious for tmr......Here I come....I need more Skittles...
Night-O.

2009-01-06T21:26:00.002+08:00

[Mood:Good,I Guess]
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Listening To:"Sk8er Boi"-Avril Lavigne
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Hey people.
So hey,2009 huh haha.
Hmm I dunno man,still feels like 2008 haha.Maybe I gotta give 2009 a lil more time to settle in.

Anyway,Like almost all the students waiting for O level results,I still don't noe when the hell the results are coming out!
I wonder why the moe hasn't said anything bout that matter.We should've known bout the date by now you know.
I hear people say it could be the 12th.But the 12th is like,next monday!If it is on Monday,the moe should've told us earlier.What the Hell.
Some other people thinks it could be on the 20th.
Haiz....I really have no clue.This is just stupid.Seriously.Stupid.

Anyway,other News!
I goin to cut my Hair tmr since I'm not working tmr!(Still,this might change in the last minute haha)
Another bulletin,
I still havent manage to start a conversation with that Cashier girl at Cheers.No surprises there coz if I did,I would've talk bout it like crazy at the start of this post haha.
Haiz,I dunno why it's so damn hard to say,"Hi I'm Fuad".
Hmm no,thats not a good start.Hmm how bout,
"Hey baby,where've you been all my life?"
haha ok maybe not that.
Hmm I think I'll start with something like,
"Hey,how long have you been working here?" or something.
Then I'll add,"I'm Fuad by the way".
Hmm thats good right?Right?
Uhh I'm hopeless.Gone-case.

Anyway,I'm thinkin of goin for a jog at dawn tmr.But that depends on whether I can stay awake when I wake up haha.Wow it's been ages since I jogged.I'm sure it's goin to be hell when I jog tmr.I'm goin to be aching all over my body by the end of it haha.But then again,no pain,no game right?haha.Besides,m dad told me I gotta start training for NS haha.At first I thought it's stupid to start now since I'm not starting for NS for another couple of years.And also,I'm a skinny guy haha.I need training.Seriously haha.
Also,I can think more when I jog.

I need to think clearly,longer.Especially,that things in my life are changing with the choices I made.
Well,yea,I'm glad to say,I let go of the thought of being with Eleanor.I must say I'm doin good.I'm not sad and thats always good right.I'm moving on.
Now that I think of it,I dun think I should be with her.I know could never be more than a friend.I gave all my feelings...and it was all spent.Now,I dun have anymore to give except friendship I think.I know I'll be ok.
I know I'll find someone.That cashier girl could be the girl,or maybe someone else I'm goin to meet.

Anyway,I have a lot of other things to think bout too.Like where I wanna go after I get my O level results.And If i go to poly,I'm thinkin of taking the army diploma coz I'm very interested in the army.
Boy,I really have a lot of stuff to think.I'm losing sleep because of it haha.

Well thats all I got to say for today.Its boring stuff I know.haha.
Don't mind me while I ponder on my life and why the hell am I even here.G'night Folks.

Faree wants me to chat with her haha.Weird I know.haha k kidding.
Hmm talked bout what is up(the ceiling she says) haha.Talked bout how lame I am.-_-.I'm always the lame one.Hmm I think I'm gonna cry.haha.
Told me to write bout her so here I am.Yay!haha.Against my will haha kidding.
Can't wait to see her again.Hmm what colour is her hair now?Red?purple?Yellow?(HAHA),Gold?(HAHA).
Oi Faree!When wan watch movie again?hahaha.You beta write something bout me ah haha.Nighhts.

2008-12-30T15:44:00.003+08:00

[Mood:Hmm Uhh What?]
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Listening To:"You Found Me"-The Fray
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Hey...I guess this is it huh.
I think,we got less than 48 hours to 2009 haha.
So how was the year for you?Hope is was great haha.

For me it was ok I guess.Well it was definitely more eventful than last year.
Learnt alot of life's lessons this year haha.It's all for my own good.
It's the year where I became 16,surely one of the big ones.
Another step to being a man haha.

Hmm well,I'm just glad the year is ending in 2 days.I just can't wait for next year man.No more secondary school.I know I hate secondary school but still,I'm gonna miss it too.And all my friends too.I know there's a possibility that I ain't gonna see some of 'em ever again.I can't decide whether thats good or bad...haha kidding.

I think next year is gonna be good....well,way better than this year hopefully.
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I don't have work today!Yay!But what am I doing?I'm just sitting here typing stuff.I must say I'm losing touch with my social life.I rarely see my friends now.
Not even msg them alot,much less call them haha.uhh Shit.

Work is ok...I mean I can't expect anything much out of working in the library right?Uhh boy I can't wait when I get my money cause then I'll quit so that I could enjoy my holiday...or what's left of it.

Same Shit,Different Day.(SSDD)
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Hmm my hair is long...I dun think it has ever been this long before.But I like it haha.Though I still have to cut it soon.I'm still skinny...haha though I eat alot.
But I've been doin my push ups.I wanna start running again but I'm just so busy with work these days.Boy I just can't wait when I quit.I need more excercise
haha.
When I get my money........
1)I wanna buy a new mp4 player!My mp3 player is like,nearly three years old!Seriously.Haiz.
2)Buy a good set of heaphones haha.
3)I wanna buy a new pair of slim cut jeans.
4)A new Jacket.Hoody maybe.I seriously need one.
5)I dunno,go to the cinemas like crazy I guess haha.
6)I need to change the strings on my Electric Guitar.They're starting to rust.
7)A new,good,tuner.
8)I wanna buy The Fray's upcoming new album!I just love their songs man.And the new song is awesome!
9)And whatever else that pops up in my head.

*****
Hmm well,I'm running out of words for today.Can't wait to play the computer game I borrowed from my nephew.Star Wars:Knights Of The Old Republic II The Sith Lords.haha.Dunno why I suddenly want to play these kind of games.
Well,goodbye for now my Friends..and enemies if I ever have one haha.May you all have a great year next year.
*****
2009,Here I Come.JC/Poly,Here I Come.Future Girlfriend(If I ever gonna get one),Here I Come.
See Y'all Aound.

2008-12-27T01:25:00.003+08:00

Today I Saw That Cashier Girl Again On My Way To And From Work.
I Dunno Why,She Looks Prettier Everytime I See her haha.Hmm
It's Just Me Maybe.

"Hi,I'm Fuad".I Never Thought This 3 Words Could Be So Hard To Say haha.
I Think She Might Be Older Than Me.
Boy,I got till 10th Jan To Start A Conversation,Coz I Stop Working At The Library After That.

Oh Yea,I Saw Her Nametag Too.Her Name Is Suzy.Yes,Spelled Like That.
Now I Wonder,Does She Speak Malay?Haiz.
Damnit.

2008-12-26T23:42:00.003+08:00

[Mood:Up And Running]
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Hey Hey Hey haha.
Hmm It's abit late to say this but uhh Happy Christmas!To those of you celebrating it.Especially to my Good friend Shichang haha.yea.
For the rest of us,Happy Holidays or just uh Happy Saturday haha.

Anyway,I watched Twilight on Wednesday haha.I watched it with Faree and Matthew.I decided on it in the last minute too haha.
I just switched on my com around 1 pm,and Faree was online,so I chat with her abit.She told me she's goin to watch twilight afterwards with Matthew.Then I asked her jokingly,"Never ask me also ah"haha.And she said I could come if I want haha.So I did.

Havent seen Faree and Matthew for awhile...It's good to see them again.
Anyway,Twilight was...Good,I think.I like the story,but I think the love part is I dunno,abit Too much haha But then Again,I'm a guy haha.
But the action parts are nice and I especially like the Baseball part haha.
Well,Overall,it's Good hmm 4 out of 5.I think I'm a bad Critic but I don't care haha.Well I would definitely watch the sequel,if they are goin to make one.

After that,I went to eat with Faree at hmm I can't remember where haha.
Then I dropped by Hadi's house to do Asar prayers coz it was 5 pm(Eh kate orang alim hehe ceh) and I needed to rest abit coz I'd be goin out to town afterwards.

6.20 pm,I got out of Hadi's house and went to the interchange to take bus 190 to get to town.I was heading for Paragon but the problems is I've never been to Paragon haha so I dun really noe where to alight haha.

Got in the bus,sat beside a window,my favourite place,took out my phone and earpiece,plug 'em together and Voila!A not-so-decent mp3 player is made!
Okay,that was lame.
Err so yea,I listen my way into oblivion,thoughts runnin across my mind and before I knew it,I was somewhere in Orchard and I still havent figured out where the hell I was supposed to alight.Then,I saw that the bus I was in passed by a building called,you guessed it,Paragon.I should've alighted at the bustop before coz the next one was quite a distance away haha.

Well I did alight.It was raining.And it was 7.10 pm.I was late.hehe.

So I decided not to give a shit about the rain and I started walking fast towards Paragon.After all,no matter how many times it rains on me,I never get sick.Hmm I guess my immune system is pretty good.I wonder what the hell did I do to get a good Immune System haha.
Anyway,I reached the entrance to paragon,the was a performance goin on at a space infront of the building.I wasn't surprised,It was where I'm supposed to be anyway and it was Christmas Eve too.So I was behind it,and there he was haha.My friend Shichang haha.It's been long since I seen him haha.He invited me to come down there.His church was the one holding the performance and he was part of a group that moves the props around haha.
So I talked to him.Then watched the performance.I thought it was ok.But what do I know?I've never been to this kind of events anyway haha.
After that,I talked to shichang again.He showed me his new phone and all.It was a Motorazr V9 haha lucky bastard.
Then after everything I told him I had to go and find a mosque near the area coz my parents meeting me there.Then bid farewell and the rest of the night was ok haha.It's just that,I havent seen my friend for awhile and I havent gone out with my parents like I did that night.It feels weird by the end of it and I dunno why.haha haiz.
Oh Yea,did I mention?I went to eat at Burger King with my parents.I bought a Whopper.Also,it's been awhile since I ate at Burger king.And also been awhile since I ate at Burger King with my dad there coz he was away and all haha.

I guess,that day was just made for me to catch up on things.

Oh Yea,I also bought a new button up shirt.
And when I went home and sleep,it was the first time in about a month that I slept in the top bed in my room coz my kid brother was sleeping in the bed below.
Yea,I was just catching up on everything so I didn't forget bout them.Hmm God didn't want me to forget certain stuff haha.

Uhh Goodnight...I'm just weirded out right now haha.
******

Song Verse Of The Day:"The Best Way To Make It Through

With Hearts And Intact,

Is To Realise That Two,Out Of Three,

Ain't Bad.."

I'm Like A Lawyer With The Way I'm Always Trying To Get You Off(Me+You)

-Fall Out Boy

2008-12-23T22:11:00.001+08:00

Here's Something For You Faree.
.Faree.

There You Go,I Just Put Your Name On My Blog.
I Just Hope I Wont Get Sued For This......
HAHAHAHAHA!Happy Now?haha.

2008-12-22T20:58:00.003+08:00

[Mood:Not Bad,Not Great,Somewhere In Between]
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Listening To:"About A Girl"-The Academy Is..
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Hey guys.

Things have been Okay since my last post.
My Dad's back!Ahh man I must say I miss him ordering me around haha.Well he doesnt order me everytime,just sometimes.
Hearing the stories that he has,just makes me appreciate what a great man my father is haha.Sometimes,I can't help but notice that his patience is Incredible!haha.I guess that's where I got my measure of patience from haha.

Anyway,lets talk bout my work haha.
For those of you who didn't know,I work at Jurong East library.I shelve books....and push trolleys....and straighten books.....and curse people under my breath.Haha.
The other day,I was stationed at the basement,which is the Childrens Section.Boy,I gotta tell you,when you get down there,it's not a Library anymore..It's like a Playroom!Only with shelves and books.Haha seriously.
Anyway,at one time,I wondered why I rarely shelf information books numbered 200 to 300.So I checked that area and do you wanna noe why kids dun borrow books from that area?the books are all bout Religions.Hahaha,I guess children are not as angelic as we thought they were huh?hahaha.

Well,today was my much needed day off.Man,when you've worked everyday for one week,you'd give anythin for a day off haha.So I went out with my mum,sisters and brother.My dad was working.We went to West Mall,coz my elder Sis,Atikah,wants to buy a new phone coz her old one is busted haha.
I followed them first coz,after that,I wanna go to my Uncle Addha's house coz he's giving me his acoustic guitar haha.I havent told you guys this but,My old acoustic guitar was busted haha.It was given to me by my uncle Faizal.Haha One day,bout a couple of weeks ago,I was about to change the strings on that guitar,so I removed the old string first.And when I did,to my horror,the Nut fell off,and the tuning pegs on the right fell off too hahaha.Then I called my uncle Faizal.He said it's ok coz that guitar's very old haha.It was a Samick guitar.I don't know if it's a good guitar but It feels good to play it haha poor old Samick,his time came.So then I told my mum I have to buy another acoustic guitar.HAVE TO.I told her I will pay a part of it haha.

This morning my Uncle Faizal Called my mum to talk.Then my mum asked him whether he could find and buy a guitar for me coz my mum doesn't really noe bout guitars.She said she would pay him afterwards.He said ok,no problem haha.
And then I think he called my Uncle Addha about it.Then Uncle Addha called my mum.He said I dun have to buy a guitar,I could just take his since he doesn't play much anyway haha.He said,he doesn't play acoustic,he prefers electric haha.
So yea,I went to his house to collect it haha.It's a Yamaha acoustic guitar.Uncle Addha told me it's a good one haha.Well I'm just so grateful and I guess I'm damn Lucky to have 2 Uncles who play guitars haha.

Well thats all for today I guess.Actually I wanna type some more stuff but that's for the next post haha and anyway,I wouldnt want to miss House On AXN haha.
It's a seriously great show!Haha smart and funny and sad sometimes,thats suits well with me haha.Kk Later guys.
*******

Song Verse Of The Day:"Pain....Make Your Way To Me...To Me...

Coz I've Always Been Just So Inviting

If I,Ever Start To Think...Straight

This Heart,Will Start A Riot In Me

Let's Start..Start HEY!

Why Do We Like To Hurt So Much?

Oh Why,Do We Like To Hurt..Som Much?

That's What You Get-Paramore

2008-12-18T23:45:00.006+08:00

[Mood:Pretty Good Actually.I'm Surprised Myself.]
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Listening To:"Shattered"-O.A.R(Of A Revolution)
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Hey People.
How are you guys doin huh?haha.
Anyway,sorry bout the last post haha.It doesn't make sense right haha.
I wasn't makin any sense when I typed that haha.
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So yea.....these few days has been pretty weird for me emotionally.
Haha.It's been CRAZY haha but I'm not pissed off or depressed by it,I'm learning from it,and gaining from it I think haha.I think.=)
And yea I can't believe I can still smile alot haha.It creeps me out haha.
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I've been busy working this week.Not one day off.But I managed to ask for a leave tomorrow coz my dad is coming back from Hajj haha.So I have to give up my throne for the Man of The House back to my dad haha.It's been cool being the man of the house,though I didn't do anythin much haha.

Anyway,just now my day was ok.Weird coz I feel sad but still good at the same time haha but still ok.I finished at 9.I got out of the library and drop by the
Cheers store nearby and bought myself some latte in a can.Actually,thats not exactly the reason why I went there.I started goin there on my way home coz,there's this girl who works there...she usually works in the evening into the night.Well I dunno...there's something about her haha.And thats why I go that Cheers store everytime I'm on my way home from work haha.I dunno why ok haha.
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Uhh you know,I actually asked Eleanor whether she'd like to go and watch Twilight with me or something haha.But she said she's goin with her friend today haha no surprises there haha.I think I guessed the answer before she told me haha.Boy,if you are me,you'll get used to it haha.I don't expect much from her anymore.And then I asked whether we could watch somethin else on another day but she said she can't.haha no surprises there either.
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You know,I think it's time for me to move on and forget about it.I've been waiting for her to change her mind for 2 years now and I guess,in the end,I was the one who changed.
I know that if I move on,I won't feel sad coz..
1)I am a person who can't bring himself to feel sad for more than an hour.2-3 hours tops haha.
2)And Life is a bit easier with a sense of humor haha.Especially if you're a teenager like me haha.

Also,I wanna thank you Eleanor.I guess I learned alot from waiting.
I was a seriously shy guy,full of doubts and so unsure of myself.
But I changed I guess.Maybe not by much,but I still changed.
Don't worry I don't hate you or anything haha.How could I hate you haha.
And I'll still wish you goodnight if you want me too coz I promised that I'll try to wish you goodnight everynight.And I am a man of words.I don't make alot of promises,but when I do,I keep them.Well...I do try my best haha.
*****
So I dun have work tomorrow.And that's great coz I'll be able to meet with my friends again!haha.Man it's been awhile since I've seen them.I miss being among them haha.
I havent told you guys bout how I'm doin with my guitar playing right?haha.
I'm actually progressing rather well.I learned to play songs from greenday like American Idiot and Basketcase haha.They're great songs haha.
I've also learned to play Paramore songs like,My Heart and Crushcrushcrush and I also now how to play the lead for Decode.And there's alot of other songs that I can play too so I guess I'm progressing well haha.
*****
Hmm well Goodnight People.Thats all I have to say for today/tonight.
Remember this;
Unhappiness Does Not Come At You.It Comes From You.
haha Nights.
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Song Of The Moment:"One song about a girl

I can't breathe when I'm around her

I'll wait here everyday

In case she'll scratch the surface

She'll never notice

I'm not in love

This is not my heart

I'm not gonna waste these words

About a girl

Whoa!

Last night, I knew what to say

But you weren't there to hear it

These lines, so well rehearsed

Tongue tied and over-loaded

You'll never notice

I'm not in love

This is not my heart

I'm not gonna waste these words

About a girl

I'm not in love

This is not your song

I'm not gonna waste these words

About a girl

To be loved, to be loved

What more could you ask for?

To be loved, to be loved

Everyone wants

To be loved, to be loved

What more could you ask for?

To be loved, to be loved

Everyone...

(Chrous)

I'm not in love

(To be loved, to be loved, what more could you ask for?)

This is not your song

(To be loved, to be loved, everyone wants)

I'm not gonna waste these words

(To be loved, to be loved, what more could you ask for?)

About a girl."

About A Girl-The Academy Is..

2008-12-17T00:15:00.001+08:00

I Think Love Is Stupid Now.
And I Hope Too Much...Damnit.

2008-12-12T21:54:00.003+08:00

[Mood:If Not Bad,Miserable.Seriously Miserable]
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Listening To:"Until Tomorrow"-Paramore.This is the most miserable sounding song I could find.You should hear it.
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Hey.

Well,as you can tell,I feel miserable today.
I think I just had one of my most lousiest day in my life.
No,it's not because of what happened during the day.
It happened,at this moment,nearly 24 hours ago.
But lets talk bout my day today.
I know you're probably wondering why I even bother to talk bout my day when it's so lousy..
I just don't like my posts to be too short haha.Don't be fooled by the "haha",
I'm actually feelin like crap.

Anyway,I had work today.I reached Jurong regional Library abit late.Well
not that I was never late before hehe.But as soon as I start workin(straightening the books on the shelves),I started thinkin bout the sms conversation I had last night and then my mood dipped right there.
I can't believe that just as the day started,I wanted it to end as quickly as possible.I can't concentrate on my work,I sorta did my work half-heartedly.
And I think thats an understatement.
I think,at one time,I had some difficulty breathing.But I dunno if that's due to the misery or if it's coz I'm really sick.

For The First Time In My Life,I Felt Truly Miserable.And not just misery I felt,I felt guilt and anger abit.
Well first time for eveything I guess.
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I'm sort of a God-fearing man.Which I know is a good thing coz my dad told me once that if there's anything you should fear,it's God,coz God is well...God.
I was so glad I could go to friday prayers during my break today coz I didn't have the chance to go last week.haha
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*******
Well I msged Yana just now and she did reply.=)And I guess that's all I need to make my day...or well what's left of my day coz its a couple of minutes to midnight now haha.
*******
Anyway,I read her blog.I wonder if a part of one of her posts was about me.
But I can't be too sure cause I don't want to get my hopes up too high or it might
come crashing down.
*******
I Wonder How Many Times Can I Break Till I Shatter.Hmm Food For Thought.Mine At Least.
*******
So well I'm sorry this posts looks like a mess haha,I can't help it,I'm a mess today.
Crap,I got work tmr too.The days just keep gettin better and better haha.
Well at least I finish at 1 tmr,so I'm free for the rest of my day tmr.
*******
I read this sentence in a book just now.
"'Sorry'?I've always thought that's the most useless word in the English language,because it can never undo what's done"
I think thats exactly right.But that's just me,I dunno bout you.
Well with that,I bid you Goodbye for now.haha.Try not to be miserable haha.
G'night!

2008-12-08T11:29:00.003+08:00

[Mood:If Not Great,Good]
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Listening To:"Decode"-Paramore
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Hey guys!

Haha oh yea finally I'm back haha.Took me quite awhile to start a new blog.
And I still can't seem to perfect the skin haha looks abit weird in some places,but
hey,it's good enough that I'm back haha.

Anyway,quite alot has happened since I last blogged last August.
Well I sat for 'O' Levels and I think I did good.And I got an Electric Guitar!(Finally!)So yea I've been rockin out haha.And my dad is away for Haji,so he won't be back till next 2 fridays I think.That makes me the man of the house right?Not haha.Well in a way I am but I still don't have authority over the household haha.And finally,I got job haha.And about time too.
Well anyway,I work at Jurong Regional Library haha just shelving books thats all.
If you think thats not tiring,try doing it for 8 hours straight haha it's a pain in the legs!haha.

Oh man,it's been awhile since I met up with my friends.I worry that this would affect my sense of humor soon..hehe.See I can't even crack a joke to save a life.
Lut still havent got a job I think..and it makes me feel guilty but I dunno why.
I havent seen my classmates for awhile.And it's definitely been a long long time since I've seen Yana.I think the last time I saw her was November 11th which was the last day of 'O' Levels.And I don't think I'll see her again till next year when we get our results.Ah boo hoo haha the thought of it makes me feel like shit abit.Uhh no,definitely alot.Haiz.
Uh crap,I'll change the subject..

So yea,today is Hari Raya Haji!Woke up early to go to the mosque.And it was raining too.Talk about a bad time to rain.But I know this was just a test of patience from God and I think I barely passed it haha.I mean,there were so many people and it was so cramped.I managed to get some small space(seriously small)and did the prayers.
It was still raining when the prayers ended,and thank god I brought an umbrella.
It was so cold haha but I guess I like the cold.Well,more than the heat.
I don't realy noe why I like the cold alot,but I think if I went to Antarctica,I would change my mind haha.
Ah I'm just blabbering stupid words here and this means I got to stop before y'all think I'm nuts or something haha.
So yea,if you're workin,enjoy haha I noe,I don't think that's possible either.
And if you're searching for a job,Good luck!And Good Luck not regreting once you get one haha.
And to those of you who neither have a job or is lookin for one,good for you!Or bad,depending on whether U have money and....Ah what am I sayin?
I'm Outta Here.
******
I Came.I Saw.I Laughed.I Sat.I Found Love.I Sat.I Learned.I Graduated.
I Suck.

Over My Head

2008-08-22T22:12:00.002+08:00

[Mood:Nutty With A Tinge Of Misery]
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Listening To:"My Heart" -Paramore
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Hello again guys.

Wait,I'm not sure if I should say "Guys",

Coz I think only a couple of people read this blog haha.

Ah whatever.

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I can't help but feel like my life is so mundane right now.

It's just so uneventful that it's kinda nerve-wrecking and I don't even

know how the hell I got to that.

Nothing is happening to me and nothing is happening For me.

That's basically all that I've got to say bout my state of mind.

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Got a smile from Eleanor today.Can't remember any other good things that happen today..

I wanna talk to her,but I dunno when's the right time to approach and say hi.

It's the simplest of matters and yet it's becoming more and more complicated.

I'm just pathetic,I know.

What the hell am I hoping on I wonder?

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Hmm I notice that I'm a little crazy when I'm at home.I keep annoying my sisters with stupid sounds.I don't really know why,but whenever I hear a weird or annoying sound on TV,I just have to mimick the sound for hundreds of times.

Something is seriously wrong with me hahaha.

However I'm pretty different when I'm in school.I still am abit crazy,especially when I talk to Najwan or Shichang.(They're both crazy too),but I also feel sorta miserable and I just can't explain why.

It just goes to show that I'm a different person whenever I leave the house.

I bet everyone else is like that too.

Or maybe it's just me.Maybe I have a split personality or something.

That'll be cool haha.

I don't know which "Me" is better though haha.

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***

It Seems That Everytime I Open My Mouth,Garbage Comes Spilling Out.

And Everytime I Open My Ears To Listen,Garbage Goes In.

So I Take In A Large Amount Of Garbage All Day,Everyday.

I Got No One Else To Thank For But Myself.....AND Maybe The People Around Me.

Thanks For Filling My Head With Garbage People.

Now It's My Turn.....Muahahahaha!

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Man,I Wonder How Much Therapy I Need.

***

Game Over.Press Continue.

Pre-Eng Oral

2008-08-15T21:40:00.003+08:00

[Mood:I'm Doin Okay...I Think]
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Song In My Head:"For A Pessimist,I'm Pretty Optimistic" -Paramore
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Well the week is certainly goin better for me.But too bad,it's the weekend already..

No wait,It's not that I hate weekends it's just that....err... uh...Arh I dunno what

to say haha.Just complicated I think.haha.

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I decided not to retake O lvl Malay again.It's not that I'm satisfied with

gettin a B4,I am disappointed to get B4 as I was hoping to get B3,but then again,I gotta focus on my other subjects so that's why I'm not retaking.

I gotta focus more especially on my maths.Damn I think I need a study partner.

Like seriously haha.But then,who the hell wants to be my study partner?haha.

I guess I'm better off on my own haha Unless YOU,the reader,somehow are lookin for a study partner.

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I had my O Lvl English Oral yesterday.I must say,I think I did rather good haha.

I never stuttered when I read the passage.And I think I did the conversation

part ok.I dunno why but the whole session felt rather too quick.

I dunno if that's good or not.No,I really don't and I dun wanna think bout it much too.

The teachers who were testing me are rather pretty hehe.Lucky me,I got the group with the hot teachers hahaha.

One of them looks eurasian and the other chinese.

Thank God I never got the Ang Moh teacher coz I heard from the others that he was pretty damn strict and sarcastic when the candidates make a mistake.

Phew.

Well,I'm just glad it's over that's all.

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FRIDAY 15/8/08

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Today was actually a rather fun day to me.But if I had got a smile from Eleanor,

it would've been better.Her smile keeps me up.

Still,I'm not complainin much,I enjoyed today.

Now,I'm with the "Ain't Gonna Retake" Group in mothertongue class.haha No,what I mean is that I now have to sit away from the middle of the class since

I'm not retaking Malay O lvls and it's also to make space for those who are retaking.

I must say,I'm quite surprise that there are alot in my MT class who're retaking.

Some even got a higher Grade than me.I just hope they know what they're dong

coz they still got other subjects y'know.

Eleanor's retaking too.I hope she'll do better.....No,I'm SURE she'll do better.

Gd luck in your studies ok.I'm behind ya all the way.haha.

What kind of crappy prep talk is that?Only and Idiot like me would come up

with that.(Sigh)

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After school,I went to friday prayers with Hadi and the guys.

Then I went to Hadi's house with guys too.

Played games there all day haha.

Iskandar rules in FIFA 06!haha he made me freaking stressed when I played against him haha seriously but I managed to beat him a couple of times haha

The only guy there who's able to do it hehe Ceh Ceh.

Then I got home late hehe.Still,I had a swinging good time.

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Song Verse Of The Day:"Just Talk Yourself Up,And Tear Yourself Down.You've Hit Your One Wall,Now Find Away Around..........I'm Not So Naive,My Sorry Eyes Can See" Paramore-For A Pessimist,I'm Pretty Optimistic

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And That's What I Am.A Pessimist Who's Pretty Optimistic.

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P.S Why Else Am I Here For If It's Not For You?

The Perfect Words Never Crossed My Mind Coz There Was Nothin In There But You.

Honestly,It's The Truth.

And Thanks For Everything Too.

And That's What I Get For Caring

2008-08-13T21:01:00.002+08:00

And Thats What I Get For Caring.

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Listening To:That's What You Get-Paramore

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Mood:Feel Like Crap.

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Well uhh uhhh well uhh

I'm Sixteen Now I Guess.

Hmm....Now what do huh?haha.

Well my birthday was a boring affair I guess.

For those of you who didn't know,my birthday was on monday.

11/08/08

Yea as I said,it's a boring affair haha.

The day before and the day after was way way more eventfull haha.

My family celebrate me and my sisters' birthdays on the Sunday.

My elder sister has the same birthday as me and she's exactly a year older

than me.

My younger sis' birthday was on last friday.

Awesome date it was.

08/08/08 haha see what I mean?haha.

So yea my family celebrated by goin out to eat at Sarpino's pizzeria.

In my opinion,the best pizza around!Way better than Pizza Hut or Canadian

Pizza.I mean,their Large pizza is like,way way bigger than pizza hut's

large pizzas haha.

Awesome food.Just Awesome.

You should try it seriously!Seriously not kidding!

Wait,why am I advertising here?

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Now lets talk bout the presents haha.

Hmm I only got about three haha.

It's sad,I know haha.

I don't expect to get more than two anyway haha.

The first one is a fifty dollar note from my dad.

I seriously wanna save that money.

Oh God,please help me so that I wouldn't spend it on anything stupid.

The next one,I got a Polo T from my sis.

My first ever!(Not counting the school polo T haha)

Seriously haha.

Its a nice looking one too haha.

I got her an album.Riot! By Paramore.

Wow I must say,I think I bought myself a present too by buying that album.

I mean,the songs are so freaking awesome!

I love Paramore totally!They freaking Rock!

And Haley William's voice is just so amazing haha.And she's pretty too hehe.

haha now I know what I've been missing out on Zira haha.

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The last present I got was a rather special one to me.

Remember when I said Eleanor was goin to get me somethin?

Well she did get me something.

Well not exactly "get",but "Made" haha.

Well what do I mean you ask?

She made me a bookmark and birthday card.

The bookmark is beautifully made,complete with my name on it on the front and

a date and a small signature on the back.

It's very special to me coz,no one ever made me a present before,

no one ever wrote me a nice birthday card like her's before

Man I sound like I never had a life haha.

And knowing that it's the first time she gave me a present and that she gave time to make it so good,makes it even more special and unforgettable.

I don't even think I deserve it.

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That's The Best Part Of This Week.

But When There's A Best Part,There'll

Always Be A Worst Part.

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Tuesday.12/08/08.

She gave me the present that morning.But a couple of hours after that,

the worst part happened.

The sec four Es and the 5 NAs were getting their malay O level results back.

To tell you the truth,I was really,really anxious about it all.

To make things worst,just before I got the results,I just had this bad feeling about something that's goin to happen.

What's weird is that,the feeling was about someone else and not me.

It's all so weird and mysterious somehow.

Well anyway I got B4 for my malay.Quite disappointed really.

I was hoping to get B3.I know I did my best but somehow,it just wasn't enough.

At least I passed.But when I looked around me,there was a problem.

I couldn't find Eleanor.Then I went outside the Rifle Range room with my friends.

I was walking halfway down the stairs when I decided to walk back up again.

Then I saw her.Something was way wrong.

I walked to her.Then I realised she was crying.

I came to her side and asked her what she got.

She did pass but it wasn't that good.Lower than waht I got.

I looked at her and I just felt so damn sad.I never felt like it before.

Her classmate was beside her,trying to comfort her.And I stood there,not saying a word the whole time.I just feel so damn stupid not saying anything to her then.

But I just didn't know what to tell her.Thats the most useless I ever felt at anytime.

I think she's disappointed in me now because of that.And I'm so

disappointed in myself coz of that too.

Then she went away by herself,took a last glance at me,still with tears flowing down her cheeks.

I glanced back,expressionless.

Stupid,stupid,stupid.

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And Then I Was Quiet For The Rest Of The Day

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But That Was Yesterday.

Things Should Be Better Now.

I Hope.

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Song Verse Of The Day:"Pain,Make Your Way To Me(To Me),

And I'll Always Be Just So Inviting.If I Ever Start To Think Straight,This Heart Will Start A Riot In Me" Paramore-That's What You Get

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It Just Breaks My Heart To See Her Cry Like That.

God,I'm So Stupid And Useless.

I'm Starting To Accept The Fact That I Can Never Be

More Than Just A Friend To Her.

That's Me,Just A Friend.

But I'll Always Be Just So Inviting.

Lost A Relative

2008-08-08T21:20:00.002+08:00

Song In My Head:Whatever It Takes-Lifehouse
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Mood:I'm Doin OK
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Wow,this week is rather eventful for me,Good or bad.

I wanna get all the sad stuff out the way first so bear with me here.

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Oh boy I dunno where to start.

Hmm haiz...

Well my uhh my cousin's husband,passed away in the night of the 4th of August 2008.He was only 40.He left his wife and three kids.One,a boy,12 years old,havin

his PSLE this year.Another,a boy,11 years old.And lastly,a girl,2-3 years old.

His passing is very much,a shock to me.When I heard from my mum who received

the call,I thought it was just a bad attempt at a joke,but then again,nobody jokes about stuff like this.

I'm just shocked.I still am right now.

It just goes to show that we can never be sure when our last day on this Earth

will be.It could be Early,it could be Late.

I hope mine will be late and not early.There's a ton of things I still havent

got a chance to do.....like being on a date(seriously,havent been on one!) or bungee jumping or something.

Nah seriously,we can never be sure bout death.

So yea,be nice while you can people.

Just Do It.

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On a happier note.....

I'm Gonna Be 6Teen On Monday!Haha Awesome!

Haha I'm not expecting alot of presents though haha.

I never had much from my past birthdays haha.Well it doesn't bother me though.

But Eleanor told me before that I'm gonna get somethin and I totally can't

wait for that haha.I'm so anxious of what she's goin to get me haha.

I don't expect anything grand though haha.

Hmm My sister's birthday's on monday too haha and i'll be gettin her something and she told me she got me something already.

Hmm Awesome!I think it's goin to be my favourite birthday in many years even though I'll be gettin a couple of presents only haha.

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Also,as I'm sure everybody knows,well if you don't then I bet your not a Singaporean,Tomorrow is Singapore's 43 Birthday!Woo!Awesome!

Yea its time to bring out the flag from inside you closet!

Sing some national day songs!

Have a great day tomorrow!

And for those of you who ain't got tickets to watch NDP 08 tomorrow,have a great time sittin at home watching your TV!

See,TV's not all bad,its a good way to spread patriotism to the people.....

and maybe some propaganda too haha.

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Hmm I know I havent been bloggin much lately,I'm sorry bout that.

I just can't seem to find the right time to blog and also,everytime I wanna

blog,I just dunno what to say.

There's alot of stuff in my head right now but it's just so hard to put it down

in this blog haha.

Sometimes its because,I couldn't find the right words and other times,there some things I don't want some people to read bout.Either good or bad.

So anyway guys,have a great day tmr and may God bless you all.

I will try to post more alright haha.

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You Know What I Want?

I Wanna To Talk To Eleanor.

I Wanna Talk Bout Other Stuff.

Coz,Almost Always,When I Talk To Her,It'll Be About Our Friends'

Problems.Well,Her Friend,And My Friend.

And That Sucks Coz That's All We'd Be Talkin Bout.

I Just Wanna Know More Bout Her.

I Wanna Know Her Likes And Dislikes,And Everything

Else.

I Wanna Talk To Her Bout The Weather,Bout The Awesome Shows On TV,

Bout The Places We Wanna Go,Bout The People We Wanna Be,

Bout Our Families And Everything Else That We Should Be Talking Bout.But Then Again,I'm Not Much Of A Talker And I Always

Have Difficulties Trying To Say What I Wanted To Say Exactly.

Man I'm Such A Killjoy And My Mouth Is A Spoilsport.

At Any Time,I'm Either Too Fast,Or Too Slow For The World.

That,I Think,Is Why I'm Pretty Much Misunderstood.

G'night People,G'night Eleanor.

Trying To Ignore here.

2008-07-24T21:02:00.002+08:00

I'm Trying To Ignore Here Helloo.

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Mood:Uh..oh..uh

Uhhuh..Yup..Right..Okay.

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Song In My Head:Hit Me Baby One More Time-

Travis cover

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Wow,I must say,school has been rather enjoyable these days.

Though I get to come home later and later these days.

Which usually I would say something like "What The Fuck!?You gotta be kidding me!",to it.

But now I'm impressed with myself,I ain't complainin too much.

Maybe my brain had just realised that school is,in fact,Important

and good for me.

Well I gotta say is,'bout time brain,'bout time we work together.

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Well as I said before,school has been quite enjoyable.

Mr Ng,my new form teacher,is cool haha.I like him,he has a good sense of humor.

And the class is ok.Though I got two idiots sittin infront of me and behind haha.

Shichang and Najwan,these two guys...oh wait girls(haha),have been

disturbing me like crazy.Likewise,I've been retaliating them back

like crazy too.We're just a bunh of crazy people.

Hell,there's alot of crazy people in the school.Fun-crazy I mean,not crazy psycho-crazy.If you know what I mean.

Well let me list the different types of crazy:

(Warning:This List Is Not Recognised By Psychologists Or Doctors All Around

The World.Purely For Fun And Humour.Add British Accent For Comic Effect)

1.Fun-Crazy:Likes to do fun crazy things purely for fun and profit and humor

because they don't have anythin betta to do.(That's Me)

2.Stupid-Crazy:Likes to do crazy things because they're just too stupid or just too darn stupid to know that doing stupid things is...well...stupid.Doesn't

react quickly to funny stuff.

3.Retarded-Crazy:Doesn't react much too funny stuff...oh wait,doesn't react

AT ALL to funny stuff.Also,they say stupid things at the wrong time and gets

booed by everybody but they're just too retarded to give a crap bout it.

4.Psycho-Crazy:touch people,stalk people,give stupid lame nicknames to people,

spy people,torture people,you know,the usual stuff.Also,best to avoid these kind

of crazy.Trust me,I've been in that situation before.

5.Pure-Crazy:Whole package.Also,see Institute of Mental Health.

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Haiz you know,I gotta learn to ignore things.For example,i gotta learn to ignore

other people's problems.No,I'm not sayin that I gotta be a heartless bastard.

I'm saying that I shouldn't care too much about other people's problems.

Sometimes I just get worked up because of problems that are not of my own.

It's stupid coz I'd just waste my brain cells thinkin bout it.

Yea so I really gotta start learning how to ignore other people's problems....

ok maybe not Eleanor's problems......or Lut's problems.....or Shichang's

problems......Arh what the hell am I saying?Arh Forget it haha.

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I Hate Myself For Caring Too Much.

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Do your part to save the planet people!

Go and clean up after yourselves!Seriously.

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I know,You guys are wondering what the hell is with the sudden eco-friendly speech here.

I dunno,I just feel like it.

Goodnight people.Goodnight Eleanor.

Racial Harmony Day anyone?

2008-07-21T20:56:00.002+08:00

Mood:Is Goin
Up Bumply.
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Well my mood would've been beta if I start to ignore some things.

Ah well forget I said that.

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Well school is still as normal as ever.Its just that my social life has been

goin through a series changes,some of them I can't explain why.

Some of my friends,I find it hard to call them "friends".

One of my friends is becoming big-headed.

I dun noe what the fuck is his damn problem.

So unappreciative.What kind of friend is that?

You tell me.

I should just let him be u know.

Screw him.

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Anyway it was,Racial Harmony Day today haha.

Yea Mimi msged me yesterday,and asked me to wear

a traditional malay costume.

So I figured,what the hell you noe,its been a few years since I get to do that

so I'm down with anythin haha.

I msged Lut this mornin to ask him if he was wearin and he said no.

What the hell man,I was so sure he was goin to wear.

Ah well,screw him I thought.

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So when I got out of my house,I was wearing a Baju Kurung.

Of a dark brown colour.

As I walked to the bustop,I can't help but feel anxious as to how many students are actually goin to wear traditional costumes.

Well it got worse when I boarded the bus,

I saw nothin but well,the bus driver(well Duh),normal passengers(again,duh),and Regent students.....wearing the school uniform.

So you can imagine how I felt haha.

I was like,"Shit!Shit!Shit!Are u kiddin me?I can't be the only guy here wearin this!

I look freaking ridiculous!"

Then I thought to myself,"If I see one guy wearing a traditional costume,even one,I will not give a fuck of how ridiculous I look walking among dozens of kids wearing school uniforms"

And thank god,I did see one haha.

Then I just dun give a shit of what people might say bout me haha.

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When I reached school,I quickly moved up to the hall,and to my utmost surprise,

I saw Eleanor!Not wearing her school uniform but wearing a traditional

costume!

Oh boy,I certainly felt beta wearing my traditional costume because of her.

haha.

Thats what I always needed,a little boost of assurance from

someone like her.

I gotta admit,I really never expected to see her wear it.

But I never had a chance to smile at her properly today.

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Another good thing is that,I wasn't the only one wearing in my class.

Mimi,Faree,Nurul,Maisarah,Matthew,Hilmi and Zul wore it too.

Thats good u noe haha.

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However,the rest of the day wasnt that eventful as I expected it to be.

School Uniform or not,it's still normal school haha.

Yay great.Just great.

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Ah my form teacher,Ms Tan is leaving the school

That's sad you know.

She's a really good teacher.....well

in a sense that she treats my class well haha.

The new form teacher is Mr Ng.

In my opinion,he's pretty awesome,has a pretty good sense of humour haha.

and he's a blogger.

Which reminds me,I gotta put up a link for the class blog made by him.

haha.

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I think that's all I have to talk about right now.

Don't get me wrong,I'm not a problemless person.

I really have lots of things and thoughts in my head.

Only a small part of it is written here.

The rest however,

I don't think I should talk bout them,maybe not yet.

Some of them are half-formed thoughts.

Some of them are nver meant for others to know.

Some of them are questions in need of answering.

Some of them are observations and views in need of explanation.

Some of them are things that I shouldn't even care about.

Some of them are real problems.

Some of them are happy thoughts.

And some of them are just plain weird.Or funny.

And the rest of them.....I just dun know how

to put them in words.

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As I Say Before,I Am An OverThinker.

lala cultural night.

2008-07-18T21:37:00.002+08:00

Post Cultural Night

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Mood:Pretty Pissed

abit.Just abit.

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Ha I know I was supposed to have posted somethin

bout cultural night waay waay before today haha.

Ah anyway,I thought Cultural Night was pretty good.

I can say that I've dressed well hahaha!

With a tie and all.

Yeap everybody looked good that night haha.

The show was okay,though I'm pretty disappointed that there was

no singing or real acting drama,not that dancing thing they called drama.

But I was won over by the Japanese drum thing haha and

of course by the school band.

Yeap I know you're probably thinkin,"Fuad likes orchestral music?What the hell"

haha Yeap I do,especially musical scores from movies.

For example,I have a few musical score from The Lord Of The Rings trilogy

in my phone haha.

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There're quite a few things I remember from cultural night.

I definitely remember taking lotsa pictures with people haha.

I took pictures with Lut,some of my other friends,Nurul,the 4-7 people,

and Faree haha yea haha and there's alot more pictures I took.

I remember taking a picture with Mimi.

I was quite surprised that she would take a picture with me haha...

knowing how we don't talk much anymore.

And I still don't know why we don't....well maybe its my fault or

something.

Well anyway,I thought she looked great haha.

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And the one thing I know I cannot forget is when I took a picture with Eleanor.

I never thought she ever wanted to take a picture with me....ever.

I was lost for words at that time.

The only thing I said to her was that I asked her where she found her ticket since

she told me she lost it.

Haha.

Well I almost didn't think that she'd come that evening.

She told me in the afternoon that most probably she will not come.

So just imagine me sitting there in the seats,starting to lose all hope of her coming.Then suddenly,I looked at the entrance near the stage and hell,someone

sure caught my eye.

There she was,walking up the steps,looking as awesome as ever haha.

Haiz at that time I suddenly felt so happy to see her.I mean,I can't even stop

smiling.

Then she saw me and she smiled at me.

Then my mood was up for the rest of the night haha.

She looked awesome.Oh,I said that already hehe.

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Sadly though,there wasn't any food provided there!What the hell man!

I was kinda starving near the end of it.haha.

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However,the it wasn't that pretty near the end.Somethin happen which I dun think

I should talk bout haha.

Well Faree cried that night.Sad ah.

I went home with Matthew,Nurul and Faree.Lut was goin to go for a late dinner or somethin withcHadi and the rest of the guys.

I was pretty tired,that's why I went home straight away.

Anyway somethin happened that made Faree cry abit haha.

When we were in the train,me and Matthew tried to cheer her up abit.

I can say,she's pretty good at handling herself.She can still laugh haha cool.

I can't believe I'm actually praising Faree right now haha!

yea Faree,you beta appreciate me for this.

Anyway,me and Faree live in Yew Tee whereas Matt and Nurul live in CCK.

So I decided to send her home or something haha.

Matt also suggested to her that I should.

But she was like,"no no need haha"

But then somethin stupid happened haha.

When Faree and me alighted at our stop.

She told me she wanted to go to the Ladies' to wash up.

So when she went in,I went to go get myself a drink.

Little did I know that when I bought my drink and went back to the toilet entrance,she was already on her way home hahaha.

I didn't know that till I smsed her haha

Gee Faree....thanks for keepin me waitin...Haha.

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Haha well I must admit,I definitely had an interesting night.

well thats all I gotta say bout it haha.I'll

see you guys sometime later.

see ya!

A Lost Catch

2008-07-10T20:46:00.002+08:00

A Few Seconds,And One Catch Lost

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Mood:Dazed But

Excited

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My class played a frisbee match today.

We're in an inter-class Ultimate Frisbee Tournament.

The tournament started last week.

My class 4-7's first match was against class 4-8 on last tuesday.

I'm glad to say we've won the match hehe.

Our second match that took place today was against 4-8 again.

I was one the players on my class' team but I was a substitute.

I never got to play 'till the last minute,when I finally came in for Lut.

Oh wait,Did I say "last minute"?What I meant to say was,"Last few Seconds!"

haha

Seriously,I wasn't even fully ready when I got in and I havent read the game

much so I was as good as clueless as to what was goin on at the time haha

All I know was,I was putting on the blue strap,I looked up,the frisbee was heading towards my area(I was defender),I chased the damn frisbee as hard as I could but it wasn't enough.....the 4-8 team manage to score a point.

hehe

And then,the game ended...just like that.Nice.

And I've been in the game for about a few freakin seconds!haha

I barely broke a sweat.

Haiz.

But the good thing is,We won!

haha I bet you You thought we lost haha.

We lead the other team by alot haha.

So we should be goin into the semi-finals haha

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I dunno why but,I dun think my team have realised my full potential yet.

I like to sneak around opponents haha.

I think wearing "sneakers",says it all.

I'm just afraid that I would be sitting out for the next game.

I really want to play you know.haha

However,I really pity Shichang haha.

He still havent got the chance to play at all haha.

I HAVE to play the next match.

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As some of you already know,

Cultural Night is tomorrow.

I gotta admit,I am really excited bout tomorrow hehe.

Well..kinda.ahha.

Lut said somethin bout goin early to hang out first..

I'm not quite sure bout it haha.

I know one reason why I'm excited,

I have never been to anything like this.

I'd like to see the students wearing anything else but the school uniform haha.

I just hope the ten bucks I spent for the ticket will not go to waste.

I want to see good show tomorrow.

And hopefully,I'll see some of you guys tomorrow!

Look for me.

I'll be the guy with the blue tie haha.

Not to mention,army brown sneakers hehe.

And I do hope that food will be provided!

hehe.

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Ah thats it for today I guess.

My main computer is spoiled so I'm currently using my Sister's laptop.

Good For Me.

Lucky For You People.

Bad For My Sister.

haha

So anyway,I won't be online as much and I won't be posting much either.

I do apologise haha.

And With that,I bid You farewell for now.

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P.S Ah Man,I still Don't Know Whether Liyana Is Comin To Cultural

Night Or Not.

I Dun Think I Could Enjoy As Much If She Isn't Goin To Be There.

Haiz.

Ah.Whatever Happens,Happens.

I Kinda Miss Her Real Smile =)

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Yours To Break

Fuad

(Ring-A-Ding-Ding)

Saturday Blues.

2008-07-05T16:20:00.002+08:00

Mood:Woo Hoo!

I Have No Idea.

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Ah Finally,I got time to post somethin here.

'Bout time too.

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So I've been nothin much except studyin in class.

Well with 'O' levels comin up in a few more months,what else am I suppose to do?Lie on the ground and shout,"Give Me Am A1!Give Me An A1!"

That would be plain ridiculous.I know Ridiculous,I've seen too much of it.

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As some of you would've known,I had my 'O' Level Malay Oral examination yesterday.

It was fucked up man.

I think it was the worst oral I've ever had.

I just hope the results will not pull the rest of my malay exam results much.

But I've been told that Oral is around 15% of the total marks for the exam.

Shit.Shiii-It.

My palms were sweating when I was waiting for my turn.

I took out a coin and just started flipping it.

I don't know why,but I like to do that when I'm stress haha.

Weird I know.

Anyway,my reading was not bad at all but my conversation part sucked.

Well it's not because that my malay sucks,it's because the topic is stupid.

I mean,I'm sure I would've done better if the topic is about something like Recent news like that earthquake in China or the cyclone in Myanmar or maybe they should just change the questions that they ask Coz,honestly,I couldn't answer some of the questions.I mean,it's not because my malay sucks,it's because some of the question are not stuff that you

usually think about everyday.

Ah man.

I guess what's done,is done.

There's nothin more I could do.

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Anyway,I'm kinda relieved that it's the weekend now.

Though I don't have much plans for the weekend.

I think I'm goin out tomorrow with Lut and some of the rest.

Lut says he wants to buy a shirt for cultural night.

I think we're heading for IMM tomorrow.

For this comin youth day(No school.Woohoo!),I don't have any plans to go out.

So I think havin school on monday would have been better.

Did I just say that?

Bleeahhh.Wash my Mouth!

haha

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I've been progressing quite alot on my guitar.

And havin fun too.

I can now play a few songs.

And I mean from start to finish.

I can play,"Hit Me Baby One More Time"(Seriously),originally by Britney Spears but the one I'm playin is the Travis Cover.

I can also play,Easy versions of "Good Riddance(Time Of Your Life) by Greenday,"Chasing Cars" by Snow Patrol,"Heart Of Gold" By Neil Young."Eleanor" By Jet(Still Practicin on this) and one of my favourite songs,"Over My Head(Cable Car) by The Fray.

Yup,I guess I am progressing well on my guitar.

I'm finally starting on songs that has an F chord in them.

Not a really easy Chord to master when your just a beginner but I will get there,I will.haha.

Also I'm thinkin of buying a capo.It's just a thing that you clip on the guitar stock so that it would be in a different tune.

The song "Over My Head"Actually needs a capo on the first fret if you want to play it.

I had to improvise and use a pencil and loads of rubber band and make it into a makeshift capo hahaha.

Well it didn't sound as perfect as it should haha so I'm definitely goin to buy a capo.

And I still want an Electric Guitar.

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I'll probably be postin again around next week,so uhh I'll

see you guys in about a week!haha.

Haha Yea man I just remembered!

The Lord Of The Rings:The Return Of The King is on tonight!

Haha I just can't get enough of it I know.

Seriously,It's a seriously good movie.Seriously.haha.

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Song Verse Of The Day:"A Bleeding Heart,A Good Head Start To Anywhere But Here.Just Let Me Out.Please Let Me Out Before I Turn Into,A Box Of Things Reminding Me How Much I'm Missing You.I Am Missing You" Yellowcard-Shrink The World

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P.S You Know,I really wonder whether she thinks about me sometimes.

I wonder what she sees in me.

And I wonder if she cares about me at all.

For all I know,She might not give a damn about me haha.

I still havent got the chance to talk to Eleanor.

She told me in a msg that a smile can make a person happy.Well that's exactly right.

I mean her smile always makes me happy and keeps me up.

I wonder if a smile from me does anythin to her.=P

hahaha

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Yours For Keeping

Fuad

(I.Hate.Oral.)