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Ran Headlong Into Oblivion

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Monday, April 27, 2009/ 23:18

[Listening To:"Whoa"-Paramore
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[Playing:"Fix You"-Coldplay(On Acoustic)
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Ah Bonjour!haha.
My poly life is starting to shape up nicely,though I still hate the friggin timetable
for not allowing me to go Friday Prayers.What the hell is wrong with the Admin people I wonder...

Anyway my weekend was pretty fun though I wish it was longer..coz I had a Long week full of maths....nothing gets better than that..-_-'
On Saturday I met up with Lut then we went to our friend's house.
The first thing we did when we reached Yazid's house was to take out our laptops and start installing games from Yazid's External Harddrive.
Then what did we do?We play games la of course!
But sad la,me and lut actually installed alot but only few worked so we had to make do with 'em.
We played till we forgot the hunger in our stomachs that painfully reminded me that it was there when I stopped playin haha.
I also caught up with my guitar playing on Saturday.It was awhile since I played my guitars so it felt great playing.

On Sunday,I did nothin other than finish up on my homework and practice my computer programming...ceh2 budak ni rajin eh?haha ah pui!
Haha well,I am trying not to slack like I did in secondary school.Besides,I gotta get a good GPA in this semester if I wanna get into Aerospace Tech next Semester.
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Well today.....
Hmm school was...well,school.And I managed to understand the lessons and that's good.
Managed to go solat Zohor at the Muslim Students Society cca room during break time.
Hmm well the fun really started AFTER school.

As you know,I had my first Softball practice today!It was AWE-some.
I'm pretty good at throwing and catching though I still can't throw fast enough like the regular guys.Well,who could when they're playing Softball for the first time right?
I made friends with a girl named Grace.Wow,when she talks,you won't hear any Singlish haha.I couldn't help but to speak proper english to her hahaha.
I thought she was malay at first but then her name is Grace haha..and she speaks proper english somemore!
But she's cool haha.And she hates Twilight!hahaha.First time I heard of a girl who hates twilight.Seriously.
And she's quite funny too haha.

Bloody hell,I forgot to ask her what course she's in.And I forgot to ask for her number!?Oh wait,I did think about that but I dunno what happened to the thought at the time.
Oh well,next time then..

Yea I think I'm gonna Love Softball.There's alot of friendly people I met during practice,and not to mention Grace.
Can't wait for next practice.And I have to buy boots!I wore sport shoes just now but I fell down sey when during a throwing,catching and baserunning drill.
Nasib tak pakai seluar panjang.Nanti berlobang!

Kk till next time guys!Probably after french class on thursday night...if you know what I mean hehe.
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I'm Seeing Myself Becoming This Whole New Better Person.Really.
A Person Unlike The One I Was A Year Ago.
I Think I'm Becoming The Sociable,Religious,Softball Playing,French Speaking Malay Guy wahahaha kidding.But that would be cool I guess.

Fuad 2.0 With 2X The Bullcrap.Available In Stores Now...Or Never.

Un,Deux,Trois.Je Suis Fuad.

Thursday, April 23, 2009/ 23:32

Lovers In Japan-Coldplay --------

[Listening To:"Fix You"-Coldplay]
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[Playing:Sad la,can't find the time to strum]
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Today was surprisingly good.
Not bad at all.

Didn't do any maths today.Thats a +++++++++++++++!
Actually I had Sports & Wellness program where u have to choose a sport that u would like to learn.Depends on which day you have S&W by the way.At first I thought bout taking tennis but then,I'm not the tennis type of guy.For thursday's AM class,the sports available weren't too interesting.

I ended choosing Orienteering.Not coz I had no choice,but because I think it's interesting to learn navigation skills like reading the map and all.I think these skills are essential and I know they would definitely help me in NS haha.Anyway the orienteering thing will only start next week so today's S&W lesson ended waay early.I was on my own so I roamed around like an idiot waiting to go to the next class which Creativity & Applied Thinking Skills(CATS)

In CATS,I'm in a totally different class as in,a class where I don't know anybody.So the class....only 2 malay guys includin me...*sigh*.And the guy doesn't look like he wanna make friends haha.There are also only 2 malay girls.My lecturer is called Mdm Alice Lee,who like most other teachers I've met,couldn't pronounce my name right..*Sigh*I think I'm the only guy in NP whose name is Fuad.I dunno if thats good or bad though haha.

Anyway,the class was separated into groups of 5 each.In my group,there is one chinese guy,Hong Chyn,a chinese girl,Kai Xin,and the two malay girls,Arina and Rose.I like my group sey.I mean,it was only the first lesson and my group got along quite well.Cracking jokes and get to know each other.Overall,I think my group is the lifeliest in the class haha.

We had to name our groups according to the theme,"Creativity".We ended up with Brainbenders!Contributed on my part haha.So well,I guess I don't hate all of my classes.

And I certainly don't hate my French Class!!Haha.CATS ended at 12.So after that I went home first before goin to first French class at 6. *****

French class was great haha.The lecturer is American sey,with an italian name haha.Jordan Rodriguez.See what I mean?haha and he's teaching French somemore.

Anyway,the first things he said were all in french haha and I didn't understand a single thing..duh,though I did catch some things of what he said. He's from texas,USA.Graduated from princeton university.And only 22 years old.Anyway,I havent bought the textbook yet.It costs $38 sey bloody hell.I didn't bring enough money. So I had to share a textbook from this girl whose name I do not know how to spell it here haha. So....we started learning French!Wow,I seriously don't regret taking French class sey haha it's kinda like a stress-reliever for me.I've been doin maths the whole week so it's nice to learn something different and not related to my course.Also,there was this girl who sat infront of me and she is very pretty hehe.I got distracted abit haha.

Boy,I wonder what's her name...I hope next week I get to talk to her or somethin haha.

God,I'm Gonna Love Thursdays!=)

The Poly Life...At Least,For Me.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009/ 21:30

[Listening To:"Lost"-Coldplay]
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[Playing:Nothing...Coz Of School Ah Alamak!]
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So...Poly huh...

My first day of school....Sucked.
My timetable was packed kinda like secondary school.
9 to 5.One hour break only.Unbelievable man,One hour only.There must be kidding me.
There's so much events for freshmen and they gave us a one hour break only.

Anyway my class,LC03,not too bad though i could do with a couple more malay guys.Anyway,I'm fast becoming one of the forgettable guys in class.

Did maths the whole day yesterday.Unbelieveable again.I thought we wouldn't be studying much since it's the fist day of school,but we got lessons sey.Full Lectures.Seriously.
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I told you in the last post is that I'm complainin bout my timetable for fridays right.So my classmate,Faeez,who hates it too,and me decided to talk to our Advisor bout it.Our advisor,Mr Chew,told us,he'll look into it.He said he'll try to look for classes that have a different timetable for Friday that is suitable for us to go Friday prayers.But he also said,if he found one,and if we really want,me and Faeez will have to change classes.Well I think I'm ok with that.
Hopefully the class will have more malays and is more appealling to me.
Well,not that I'm being racist or anything ok.
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My lecturers are all ok I guess(The Lecturers I met already at least).My staff advisor Mr Chew is also my Computer Programming Lecturer.He's ok.Looks like he's always willing to help students and all.I forgot the name for my Engineering Maths Teacher haha.But she's a nice lady.Nice as in kind to students and all.Not meaning good-looking.Defenitely NOT good-looking haha I'm a jackass I know.
My Electrical Tech teacher is called Mr Lek.He looks very relaxed and all.And I understood what he teaches so thats a good thing right?
My Engineering Mech teacher is called Mr Foo.Very old guy.Seriously.
His voice is toneless.
Toneless Voice+Air-con Room=Very Sleepy Students
His face kinda like expressionless at times haha.
But I do try my best to learn.I really dun wanna slack.
Hmm anyway I havent met the rest of my lecturers.Hope they are fun people.
I'm starting to doubt the "Fun" in poly.
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The last day for CCA Fiesta was today.Only 2 days sey.I wish it was longer since my break for yesterday and today was one hour only.Didn't have enough time to look at all CCAs.But I did manage to look at the CCAs I'm interested in.
And seriously,"WOW" is the right word to put it coz there are SO SO manye CCAs!
From the super-active(e.g Dragon Boat)to the Super Laid Back And Boring CCAs
(Astronomy Club Anyone?).
In the end,I signed up three CCAs.

First is Softball!Wahaha.I've always wanted to play baseball and Softball.
And I wanna sports CCA that's fun and not to serious sports kind.

Second is the Muslim Society Group.Pretty laid back one coz I only have to come down when there are events.And I joined also coz I wanna meet other malay muslim students seeing as there are not alot of us in NP haha.
I found out from a girl from that CCA that there are places where I could solat.
Thats good.Really good news for me.
Well anyway third CCA is,Malay Cultural Club.I know,So NOT me haha.I just sign up with Faeez coz this dude,a guy from the CCA,looked like he won't leave till we sign up.So me and Faeez just sign up so he can go away.I assure you that I won't be joining that CCA haha.Like,So NOT me sey.
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I wanna wrap this up.
So Poly Life...I havent start to love it yet.Hope I will soon.
Hope I get used to it too.I must admit,I miss secondary school life,especially the great times with my closest friends.I dunno if I can find anyone in this new place who can be as close to me like they were.
And I'm hoping I caught the eye of some girl....hahaha.
So overall......I feel Lonely at school.I can't even believe it.
And That's Just Sad.

You:"Aawwwwww"
Me:"(Sigh)"

Enjoying Boredom While It Lasts

Thursday, April 16, 2009/ 14:43

[Listening To:"For A Pessimist I'm Pretty Optimistic"]
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[Playing:"Best I Ever Had"-Vertical Horizon]
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Had my orientation yesterday.MDE orientation.Only for students in three courses.
Sad lah my class.Class 1C03.
Only three malay boys including me.And no malay girls.
Well,at least it's just for a semester,coz then I'll be in another course.Hopefully,Aerospace Technology.

Well I did made a few friends I guess.One of em is Faeez.Cool guy haha.Funny oso.He lives in tampines.Can you imagine that?hahaha sad la everyday must wake up damn early.

Anyway,I gotta tell you,I really feel nervous bout starting school.Not coz I'm afraid bout meeting new people or what.It's coz of thinking the amount of work I will have to do and seriously ALOT of new things I have to learn.Like computer programming.I am like,useless with computers so it will be a challenge for me.
And there's also a ton of things I guess I gotta have when school starts.
Don't blame me.They didn't give clear instructions!Seriously.
They just dump all the announcements on the announcement section on my MeL!
Would it hurt to just give the students a list of books and notes to buy?
They're relying too much on this MeL thing and they're expecting students to log in everyday!
I only logged in yesterday.I should've logged in earlier but nobody told me that I should!
So what I've found yesterday was a ton a info thats just messed up.They didn't even categorised the damn announcements.And some of em didn't look like they were for me,but for 2nd or 3rd year students.
I'm just so fucking confuse about everything.
Man I really hope I'm not the only one.Seriously.

And another thing I gotta complain bout is my timetable for Fridays.
So the day starts late at ten,an hour later break,then lessons all the way to 5!
Like,I can't even go to Friday prayers!
What's up with that man?That is just bullshit.

So anyway,overall,I am just clueless bout things I should do and things I should follow.I wish the teachers could be more specific to which students they're referring to when they make announcements on MeL.

And oh ya,all my module teachers are male haha and old.
Except my would be French teacher.He's male but at least he's younger.
Speaking of French class,I don't know what the hell I should bring for French Class.And my MeL thing doesn't seem to realise that I have French class.
Anyway,since my main class kinda suck abit,I'm looking forward to see the people in French Class.Maybe thats where I'll get lucky haha.
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Hmm I havent decided which CCA to join yet.I was thinkin of sports since I am well,lets put it straight,skinny and needs more workout.
So I was thinking of maybe joining Softball or something.It can definitely work my arms and legs and Softball is fun hahaha.And I don't think it'll affect my studies much and I really don't need to be distracted much since,I totally gotta work hard when school starts if I wanna get to Aerospace Technology.
God I just hope I do.I just hope my freshmen year won't be as hard as I think it would be.

G'day all.Enjoy the last days of your freedom people.
Me?I'm just enjoying boredom while it lasts.
Poly starts Next week aAh!I CAN'T BELIEVE IT MAN!aRHHH
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Haiz esok balik kampung kejap.Cool I guess.Gonna bring me guitar.
And I still gotta buy a ton of stuff like stationeries.Damnit.
I really am goin to miss having nothing to do when school starts.

This Is It Eh.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009/ 14:38

[Listening To:"Strawberry Swing"-Coldplay]
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[Playing:"Run"-Snow Patrol]
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I guess this is it.This is really it.Starting my Poly life in...less than a week.
Wow.A part of me just can't believe I made it to poly.And it feels kinda weird knowing I'm gonna start school next week.I guess this means things are goin to be Very different.Very different indeed.New environment,new people in my life,New friends,new jerks I'm goin to hate.Umm new food maybe.Definitely.

Wow...it's just...wow.

Anyway,I got orientation tomorrow.9 to 5.Just that one day for me since I didn't
sign up for any camps.Startin to regret that a little.Only a little.
Hope I don't overdress since I tend to do that.Hope I won't be late.Hope I won't get on the wrong bus.....Focus,focus,focus.

Haiz,usually I got more stuff to talk bout than this but I just got nothin more to say.I dunno why.
I'm updatin for the sake of updating.Havin problems with my blogger abit.Can't seem to put videos in my posts.If not,I would've put up Coldplay's video for Lovers In Japan.
But then,Y'all will be like,"Enough With Coldplay already!Sheesh."

Ah well see ya guys around.Gd luck in ur preparation for school.
I feel like I should prepare somehow but I dunno what.(Mental Preparation?)
And I gotta start sleepin a little early and wake up way more earlier so that it wouldn't be so hard for me later.(I wake up at near noon almost everyday)

Time to play BF2 like crazy b4 poly starts.
O-kay Buh-bye now.

And I found out my French Teacher's Name is Jordan Antonio Rodriguez.Cool.
Is it just me or does that name sounds Spanish?Weird.But cool anyway.

Self-Praising #1

Monday, April 6, 2009/ 20:33

[Listening To:Coldplay's New Album I Just Bought!Wahoo!]
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[Playing:"Absolutely(Story Of A Girl)-Nine Days]
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Coldplay Viva La Vida Prospekt's March Edition
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Since no one invite me go anywhere and I really needed a break from home(Can You Believe That?)I decided to go out myself.Especially after what happened last night.(I got into a fight with my younger sis,I'll tell u more later if I can)
Anyway,I was expecting a crowd of people outside my house clapping and cheering for me since I manage to overcome my laziness and all but Alas,there was none.I'm so disappointed in you people.

Anyway,I went to Lot 1 to go to CCK library.Reached there 'round 2 somethin.
The first thing I wanted to do was find a book on engineering or somethin so I searched in the general section.It said engineering is numbered 620.So I looked for it.You know what I found,there were books on animals there and nothing on engineering.What the hell sey.I should've gone to Jurong regional.
Since I couldn't find a book on engineering,I went on to search the number 2 on my list;A book bout the French language coz I'm goin to be learnin French and all in school.I decided to take An Idiot's Guide To Learning French.They should title it A Genius' Guide To Learnin French since I'm a genius and all.
(Okay Don't Vomit!Please!I'm Just Kidding!)But I'm not an idiot either.

I didn't want to borrow one book only so I went to search for some random books.Ok,not so random.Just books I'm interested in.
So my next 2 books was,Order 66;A Republic Commando Novel,which is basically a Star Wars Novel with a lot less Jedis and more Clones.Who doesn't love clones?Boy,I didn't realise it's such a nerdy quote till I typed it out.
Anyway,the next book was a non-fiction book.The title is,Everything Bad Is Good For You.The book talks about why TV,Movies and Video Games,which most parents would say,is a waste of time and makes children become Dumber,isn't really bad for us.It actually makes you smarter.
So you don't really have to feel guilty bout those 24 hours TV/Games/Grand Theft Auto/Left4Dead/Korean Drama(Whatever)/Gossip Girl/Cartoons/House/Spongebob Squarepants marathon.
Haha cool,I know.

Anyway,after that,I went to Playcraft to look at some PC Games then I went to Popular to look at books and look at PC games.-_-
Then I went to Sembawang.No,not the actual Sembawang genius,the Sembawang CD shop.Since I'm so loaded these days(Don't even think about asking me money Muahahaha!)K i'm not so loaded unlike some people.Anyway I decided to look for Coldplay's album since I've been thinkin of buying it since last few months.
And I just decided to look for it at the right time since the shop is havin a 50% off storewide sale.Then I found it,not just a Viva La Vida Album,Its a Viva La Vida Prospekt's March Edition with more songs.It would've cost me $35 but it was a 50% off sale so it costs bout $17.50!Haha cool right?
So I buy ah what else sey.

Anyway then I got hungry so decided to go MacDs.When I reached there,What did I saw?I saw Syafizah,Zahirah and Eliana haha.The day just got better I thought.
So Syafizah invited me to sit down with em and I did.I just wanna buy McSpicy and eat haha.So I dun mind sittin anywhere.Havin company is good.
So yea I ate.They were playing around with their laptops.Nasib Baik I didn't bring mine hahaha mine pales in comparison to theirs haha.But I'm still grateful I even have one.Then we chatted and joked and all.Catching up on everyone.Talking bout poly and all.It was cool I guess.

Since I was lazy,I rode the train home with Zahirah.(One stop only haha).Syafizah wanted to go popular bookstore.Maybe buy a book called 101 Ways To Praise A Genius Like Fuad or something I dunno.Eliana followed her too.
Chatted with Zahirah for awhile on the train and while we walked out of the MRT station oso.Then parted our ways and head for our respective homes.
I drop buy to the shop to buy Skittles(I do love my skittles) then went home.

So now here I am,Blogging and eating Skittles and Listening to my Coldplay Album!!!!
And wait NEWSFLASH!!
Mimi and Faree just invited me to go town tmr haha.She inviting other 4-7s also so that should be cool haha.

Ok so thats it for tonight I guess.Haiz,I guess my luck's turning around.Maybe it's coz I'm a genius and life of the party Wahahahahahahaha!
G'night!
Out!

Self-Loathing #1

Thursday, April 2, 2009/ 15:04

[Listening To:"At Least I'm Known For Something"-New Found Glory]
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[Playing:Nothin At The Present Moment]
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Man I just hate myself.
I sit at home,complaining about how freaking bored I am and I know it doesn't accomplish anything.
I don't know why but I guess I'm just slightly pissed off coz nobody ever seem to invite me to go anywhere.
But then again,I'm way over my head thinkin that SOMEBODY would even want to ask me to go anywhere.Unless I have something to offer maybe,like things or opinions or money.

I think that people I know,think that I'm a busy guy or something.I mean,I can't remember a time when I was really busy.
Like right now,I am the Freeest guy around.No plans everyday.
Hmm maybe people think I'm a loner?Ah I don't even know why the hell people might think I'm a loner.
Maybe people think I don't want to be around them.Well that is not true.
Well,I mean,there are some people I don't want to hang around with but that's
a different story.

Uh man I think that,if I wasn't too shy when I was in sec one and two,I would've known people better in sec three and four.
I'm only starting to come out of my shell.

Argh why the hell do I care what people think?I just can't help it I guess.
Does that make me an insecure person?
But I don't drop the F-Bomb alot or curse alot.
Arh I dunno,maybe I need new friends.People who I can really hang out with.
Or maybe I just need a psychiatrist.
Damnit.I know I need something.
A Girl maybe,If only there was a girl who has feelings for me haha.
Maybe in poly Fuad.Maybe in poly.

Being an Overthinker is good at times.But other times....you just don't
need a million extra thoughts that only makes you think more about your sad current state.

I need to watch more Spongebob Squarepants to simplify my mind abit.If only simplifiying my mind was possible.

Good Day To All.