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Confessions Of A Fool #1

Monday, March 30, 2009/ 21:53

[Listening To:"My Heart"-Paramore]
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{Playing:"Thats What You Get"-Paramore]

Haley Williams.
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Aaahhhh Haley Williams....I Wake Up To The Sound Of Her Voice Everyday(My Phone Alarm Is "Thats What You Get")Somehow,she's my Dream Girl..WAHAHAHA
I wanna find my own Haley in poly.Boy I just hope I do haha.

Labels: Confessions Of A Fool

When Chicks Dig Guys Who Look Like Chicks

/ 20:28

[Listening To:"Life In Technicolor"-Coldplay]
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[Playing:"Thats What You Get"-Paramore]
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Anyway,you ask,"Why The Title?"
I'm goin tell ya!Just relax man!Man...people these days.

Last Saturday,I followed my uncle(Freaking awesome guitarist),Uncle Faizal
to see him and his buddies Jam somewhere in Arab Street.
Knowing my Uncle,the songs they would play would be the heavy metal classics like Iron Maiden,and uhh,Led Zeppelin and some Malay Heavy Metal and I dunno,is not like i'm a fan of heavy metal.
So you're probably asking why I came since I dun like Heavy Metal.
Well I just came for,you know,exposure or something and I've never seen Pros jam before so its like a lesson for me also.
If I thought my uncle looks like the heavy metal kind,his buddies ARE heavy metal kind haha.All of em are above 40 I think.
So I always smile to myself whenever I think,
"What The Hell Am I Doing With A Bunch Of Middle Age Men?"

Anyway when they start playing,they blew me away,almost literally!(I sat quite close to the Amplifiers since I'm such a genius)
The guitars were awesome!Of course I've seen my uncle play and he's a pro.
And the drums were Grreeat!
Its like I was transported back to the time when Chicks Dig Guys Who Look Like Chicks.
Though the only thing I wanna complain is the singin.I mean he's not singing!He's Yelling and struggling to sing haha.Moaning more like.
Some songs,the vocals were right,others,you just wanna cut it out.

When Maghrib came,I got out of the studio to go Solat at Masjid Sultan.
Funny how I'm the only one who did this wahaha.Mesti la,kate aku alim.Ceh bah.
Nah,its nothin to be ashamed off my dad always say.

After that,I went back to the studio buty I never went inside.I just viewed them from a glass panel.There were two guys that work there that night.All slightly older than me.Funny la they.Cursing each other,making fun of each other,just goofin around haha.They talked to me also.They told me my uncle and his buddies sound great.
They asked me whether I play any instrument.I told em I play guitar but I'm not in a band.
Then one of the guys,the big one,took a bass guitar and plugged it into a small amp and started playin.He's pretty good.
The other suggested jokingly,why not the 3 of us start a band ahha.Then the bass dude said,"Then ape?Jadi Blink 182?".
Then we all laughed.
Anyway then the two goofballs decided to plug some pedals to the bass guitar just for the heck of it haha.Makin stupid sounds and all.

Then after like 2 hours my uncle and his buddies finished jamming and we all went home.
Some of em asked about me.Like how old I am and whether I'm still schooling or what.I told them I'm goin poly.So they say thats good for me and they told me to just study first.
I guess they realised the importance of studying since seeing that none of them appears to be highly educated.I'm not being criticising though.

Anyway,got on the train and went home.Nothing much exciting except for this one group of teenagers who think they're being cool wearing super smartly.Like I'm not kidding,the guys were wearing tux and all.
Boy,what's the occasion huh?
I mean the girls dress normal as in,not overdress but the guys.....seriously man u should've seen it.
Effing Posers.

Anyway reached home at nearly midnight.Then totally had insomnia and couldn't sleep the WHOLE night.Great.

Sweat Drops On My Guitar/Laptop/Whatever

Saturday, March 28, 2009/ 14:11

[Listening To:"Thats What You Get"-Paramore]
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[Playing:"Thats What You Get"-Paramore]

Only recently I realised myself how much me getting to Poly meant for my parents and how much it'll set me apart from my elder sister,and definitely my kid sister.

And I realised I am angry at my two sisters too.
Firstly I wanna talk bout the elder one first.
So well,she didn't do well for her O levels.Well it was her fault.
My mum always said she spent too much time on her art instead of the more important subjects like math and science.
Well I always knew Art was bad,thats why I gave it up even before my sec one year was over.
To tell you the truth,her art wasn't really good.Just a so-so.Don't even know why the hell she couldn't realise that.I mean,for me,Art is something you're born with,not something you try to do or learn.Sure,you can learn airbrush techniques or whatever.But if you dun have a great Art idea that you can use the techniques on,what the friggin use of it?
Anyway,like I said,she spent too much time on doin her Art instead of the other more important subjects.So she didn't get good results.

So she cried.What else could she do?She couldn't blame anyone but herself.
I thought,"Thank God I don't take Art".haha.
And her aggregate score didn't manage to get her to any poly.
Then mum and dad told her,if she still wants to study,they can put her in private school or something.She took the offer.Duh.
But she took Mass Communication.Personally I don't think taking that course in private school is any good since its only for one year and you won't get alot of experience during that one year compared to people taking that course in poly.
Well thats what she wanted,my parents paid for it.
My dad is a good father,he said if I want to study,I dun have to think bout the costs.He can provide it,especially for education.Coz education and knowledge is priceless.

So my sister went to private school.After one year,got good results.
Mind you,private school cost mum and dad 4k.
But the problem is,she couldn't find a job in the mass communication sector.
Up till now she couldn't find.She's working at clothing store.A pretty miserable job for someone with a diploma.
I can't help but think that is she took a diff course,it would be a different story.

So now she's pissed that she couldnt find a proper job,so she complained to my mum about how useless her diploma is!
Can you believe that?Freaking ungrateful!I mean,she was the one who wanted to study at the course!What the hell.
My mum told me she was hurt hearing those words.
I would be too.I mean,it's like,all that money to put her into private school was for nothing.
What the hell is her Goddamn problem?I mean,is it not her choices that led her to this?And she goes around saying her diploma is useless to the people who paid for it.My parents AREN'T rich.That 4k could have been use for other more important things.
If there's one thing I hate,I freaking Hate ungrateful people.
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Now for my kid sister.
If my elder sister was slightly ungrateful,this one is worse!
Unlike my elder sister and me,she didn't get to express stream.
But i'm not criticising her for that.What kind of person would i be then?
Well,anyway,I thought she would at least try to do better and maybe get to Sec 5 and do her O levels and get to poly and stuff.
But now I look at her,my parents look at her and,it's like,she's not even trying.Not even giving a damn.
She's taking her 'N' levels this year.And I thought that would certainly mean something to her but NOoOoOoOo.
She's like,"Ibu I'm goin out today""Abah Im goin out today hehe."
"I'm goin to go work."(She's working at Macdonalds and is apparently,a good worker.Dun ask me why)
And always to me,"Ad i'm using the com later"."Ad I'm using the com tmr"."Ad I'm using the com the next day,and the next day,and..u get it"
Thank god I have a laptop now.
My point is,she does everything BESIDES study and being polite to me for that matter.

You know what,I dun think she studies anythin.Do you know how did she do for her last exam?
She failed EVERYTHING.EV-ER-RY-THING.
And you know how she break the news to my mum?
She was like,"Ibu,I failed every subject for the exams"
Like,WHAT THE BLOODY HELL!?And she's still smiling like she achieved something by failing every damn subject.
And her attitude didn't change.She still go out alot every weekend.
And uses the com almost everyday.I never saw her study.
Well to tell u the truth,I study abit at home during o level year hehe but at least I understood what I studied and learned at school.
She's like,"Study?What the hell is that?"

So I'm starting to worry.How nice a brother am I?Just unappreciated.
I just worry that she might flunk her N levels so bad that she couldn't
go sec five or ITE.Maybe get to stay back or something.
She keeps saying she want to go to ITE(Dun ask me why).But then again,even ITE has some standards right.

So my parents dunno what to do with her.I know my mum just pray to God that somehow she would change and start focusing on studies.
Man I pity Mum and Dad.Thats why it means alot that I got good results and got to poly.

Ah what the hell,my sis wants to fail thats her Goddamn problem.She can work at Macdonald's all her life for all I care.I'm not being harsh.I'm just being realistic.
My mum told me once that my kid sis is a unique one.She can still survive coz she got street smarts.So Education or no education,it doesn't really matter much to her.Sure I sort of agree abit.(She's always a Hot head and manages to piss me off every morning)
But then,we live in a country where qualifications mean everything right.
Haiz,whats the use talking to people like her?Not refering to mom.

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Looks like its up to me and my kid brother to have a chance at being succesful.
My kid brother is only Pri 2 now.He's starting slow just like me when I was just starting pri school.But I noe he's a smart one.I just hope,he won't make the mistakes my sisters did or will be doin.

Wah so long ah my post?I understand if y'all dun read everything here haha.
Take care y'all.

I just feel the need to put all my thoughts here.
Not putting will just feed my anger.

Fuad's To Do List For The month.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009/ 21:35

[Listening To:Sounds Of Gunfire From Battlefield 2]
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[Playing:"Best I Ever Had"-Vertical Horizon]
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Fuad's To-Do List For The Month.(Rather late since its the 24th already)
1)Reach Lieutenant Rank in BF2.
2)Snipe More People In BF2
3)Get More Sleep,Somehow.(Hard with BF2 around.)
4)Watch more episodes of spongebob.
5)Change the strings on my electric guitar.
6)Wake up early(By at least 30 min.Woke up at 12 almost everyday.)
7)Watch more Jimmy Kimmel Live.
8)Start learning French.
9)Get A Life.Seriously.
10)Communicate with more people(Comrades in BF2 are not counted.)

Aww God!I'm Fast becoming a total Nerd!

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So yea as you can see.I don't really have a life.I just hope this would change when I start Poly.Damnit,why is it such a long wait?WHY?WHY?WHY?
Haiz,thank God there's BF2 to keep me company.Seriously.

All These Things That I've Done

Sunday, March 22, 2009/ 14:36

[Listening To:"Life In Technicolor"-Coldplay
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[Playing:"Gone"-Jack Johnson]
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Hey guys.Boy it's been like what?Ten days since I posted anythin?Yea.
But then,who reads this blog right?yea.

So of course,alot of stuff happened in that ten days...but nothin too exciting really.
Firstly,I finished doin those Poly enrolment stuff...FINALLY!.
But I'm just hopin my mum and I did it right.Skali tak succesfull...Sedih ah.

Also,I got a new Laptop!!Wahahaha!
I just bought it from Ngee An.The cheapest(and still good) Acer I could find.
It's the one that cost $1288(w/gst).Bersyukur la da dapat laptop ni.
Anyway,the one of the first things I did was install a game!haha.

Anyway I have to say that this new laptop with the Windows Vista feels so new to me.I mean,I don't even know half of what this thing can really do.
I'm uh..pretty slow with coms as you can see.
And the new MSN feels weird using at first,so new and all.
And I never thought playin with the webcam can be so fun..hehe.
I think I took alot of Dynamic pics.
.....I feel like a caveman...A clean one.

Another thing I did last week was buying Battlefield 2 game wahahaha!
I've always wanted to buy this game!But was just waiting to buy a laptop first since the com at home is lousy with games.
So yea,one of the reasons I wasn't able to go online alot and blog is because I was playing bf2!!It's been so freakin long since I played games.(My PS2 is dead...or dying)And I'm lost sleep during those days too.My eyes are practically red every morning and I wake up at 12 everyday.
My eyes havent quite recovered from lack of sleep.
And whats more,I didn't sleep at all on friday night all the way to Saturday morning.
Not because I was playing games.I'm not that nuts.

I applied to go for a night cycling event with Lut at Asyafaah Mosque at Sembawang.The night cycling was from that mosque,all the way to East Coast Park.It sounds intimidating at first,but when we reached East Coast,I was like,"Eh...Dah reach dah?I thought like a couple more hours till we reach".
I mean,sure my legs ache but that was all that I can wince at.
It wasn't tiring mentally at all.
We reached there too early and ended up doing nothing much there besides just waiting for Subur prayers.
Thank God I came with Lut.Otherwise it'd be so damn boring.Though the lectures by the Uztaz were'nt bad.

Lut wasted $4.30 for a packet of Beef jerky.I told him it costs $4.30.But he thought I said $1.30,so I was quite surprised when he still wanted to buy it.
He was shocked to see at the register that it cost $4.30,but he still bought it..The Genius haha.
But the Black Pepper Beef Jerky tastes awesome!I never expected to see a pack of Beef Jerky that was Halal.But still,$4.30 was wasted.

Then the Subur Prayers came.We(every participant that could solat) solat berjemaah on the sand!I thought it was cool.Behind us was the ocean,hitting the beach,makin that all-to-beautiful sound.A good lesson which shows that no matter where you are,you can still perform your solat.

After that,there was some lame stuff to do,then finally we were aloud to go home.
When Lut and I reached Yew Tee,we went to have breakfast at MacDs.It was 10 am.I blanja him since the next day(Today) would be his Birthday.Hmm which Birthday ah?12th is it?Haha just kiddin.The boy's turnin Seventeen.
I still got Five months till I'm Seventeen.

And thats all I gotta today.Hmmm this blog is dying I think...Ah What The Hell.Who Gives A Shit.
Haiz Poly,when will you freaking start?

Lets Do This Thing

Wednesday, March 11, 2009/ 21:55

[Listening To:"Stuck On You"-Paramore
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[Playing:"Andai Ku Tahu-Ungu]
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Hey guys.
Hmm so I've finally decided that I'll be learning French!haha.
I just hope I filled up the form correctly.
Anyway I choose French coz I'm sure it will help me in the future when I go out and look for job overseas or something since I wanna do Aerospace Tech.If,I dunno,I get a job in europe or something(ceh europe sey) or maybe visit those north african countries where the people mostly speak French like in Algeria and all.
And French is COOL!haha.
Unlike some people like Syafizah who's learning bangla hahaha NOT.

But then I know learning French is HARD!I just have to give it all I got.
French is the language of love!hehehe.
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So today,well,I went jamming for the first time with Ziyad,Sufi and Khairul.
At our old school since theres a jamming room there.Why,U ask?Well coz it's FREE!No need pay anythin ah.
Hmm well,I don't really noe what to say bout it.It feels weird at first,then it feels right.We practice the song "Andai Ku Tahu" By Ungu.I only started learning the song last night seh!Then I had play the lead today.I don't deny that I suck abit,but then,it's my first time and I had to learn the song in less than 24 hours!

Uhh I just can't do my Barre chords properly.Damnit.

So yea,we played for nearly three hourse I think.A Big chunk of the time was for Khairul to get the correct beat for the song coz he drummed too fast for a slow song like that but I don't blame him.I mean,I didn't do so well with lead.
Ziyad relax je haha style ah though I didn't know he played bass.

Umm I think we still need a few(or more) practices together before we master the song.And we still have yet to pick a name for the band.
I guess I'll leave that to them uh.
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Anyway,goin for a colour vision test at Ngee An poly tomorrow with Sufi.
Though quite bummed coz he can't make it at 11 am.Meeting him at Yew Tee at 12 noon.I want to go early so I'll have enough time to meet up with Lut at Jurong East Interchange later,coz we wanna go town,maybe go IT Fair or something.

Can't wait for friday.Seeing Hadi and the Gang! again haha even though for friday prayers only.

Yea thats all I gotta say for tonight.
My thumb is SO SO Numb.

I Hate Hot Days

Sunday, March 8, 2009/ 16:09

[Listening To:"Clocks"-Coldplay]
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[Playing:"Check Yes Juliet"-We The Kings]
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This Vid was taken and edited from Band Of Brothers.
Soldier,"Pie In The Hole!!"
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OK so I'm just updating here for the sake of updating.
Ok I know I should be outside right now.It's a Sunday!
But I'm not.This Sunday is like any other day for me.No kiddin.

So anyway,still no news whether I am goin to be in a band.
Honestly,I not counting on it much.But that doesnt mean I don't want to be in one.I can use the experience since I've never jammed with anyone before.
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I got another package from Ngee An poly.This time bout Freshman orientation camp.No,wait.CAMPS.
Anyway,I won't be goin for the main Freshmen Orientation camp.
Coz if I go,I have to sacrifice a shirt and a pair of shorts!What good is that?
My wardrobe is small enough as it is.I really don't need it to be anymore smaller.
Besides I HAVE to pay $15 to go.Thats even more stupid.Ya' know,some people actually don't have enough money to just throw away like that.

Anyway,the events that are compulsary for me to go is the MDE(MultiDiscipline Engineering) Freshmen Orientation Programme in April.I don't mind that one.
But the MDE also has a Freshmen Orientation CAMP right after the programme.
It's a 2 day camp.Hmm I think I'll go since they never said anything bout sacrificing some clothes.
By the way,these MDE events are exclusive for people goin to Logistics Management,International Supply Chain Management and Engineering Common Programme(That's Mine!).
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So another form came in with the package.
This form is about taking up a third language.I ask my mum about it and she thinks I should go.So I'm now stuck with 2 choices,either learning French,or learning German.
I know that German is easier to learn than French.But then,French is like,the language of Romance or something right?Haha.

So help me guys!Help me choose!Which is better for my future!?

Here's Me Speaking In French;
"Bonjour Monsieur,Bonjour Madame......Viva La France!"*Throat Hurts*

Here's Me Speaking In German;
"Guten Morgen!.........Heil Hitler!"

K I'm just kidding.German is kinda cool too.I wanna go to Aerospace Technology through ECP,and who knows?Maybe I'll get a job in some German Aerospace Company!Then German language would be very useful.

That's all today guys.I wanna learn a new song.
Out.
Au Re Voir
(Not so sure bout this one.)

Thursday, March 5, 2009/ 22:01

Listening To:"All We Know"-Paramore]
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[Playing:"Crushcrushcrush"-Paramore]

Hey people.
Actually I thought bout puttin a Paramore pic here but then I didn't.
I dunno why.

Anyway yesterday I followed Shichang to go to Polyclinic coz he had to have a medical checkup for polytechnic.
Then we met up with Lut.
Then we seperated with Shichang.

Lut was following Weesen,Shouxian and Ziyad to go Jurong East for a Medical Checkup.So I just followed them anyway.
Then we met up with Khairul and Sufi and went on our way to jurong east.
Then they had their medical checkup at SATA while Lut and me relaxed in the library nearby till they finished.
Then met up with Weesen and Shouxian to go to IMM just to walk around and make fun of stuff and talk bullshit.
Then we went home.
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At home,
I thought bout what Sufi told me earlier in the day.
He said,"Get ready to join if my lead guitarist merepek".
I didn't know what he meant really.So I msged him bout it.
Turns out he wanted me to join his band if he finds that his lead guitarist is crappy.
I didn't know what to say at first.So I just thanked him.

I can't deny that I'm psyched up abit but I'm not putting high hopes on it.
I've learnt enough to put high hopes on stuff.

Ziyad plays Bass in the band.Khairul plays drums.Sufi plays Rythm and Vocals.And the lead guitarist is a guy named Hidayat.I'm don't know who he is but I know he's younger and is still schooling in Sec school.

Hmm I dunno what kind of songs they play though.
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I'm a guitarist but I have never been to a Jamming room before.How sad is that?Well main reason is I don't have any close friends who plays music like I do.
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Anyway guys,I created my facebook account today!Haha so add me people!Ok.
Haiz I'm still confused about the tons of stuff to do in Facebook!haha.
Well I wanna keep todays post short coz I wanna watch Heroes!
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And yea I figured out the solo parts for Crushcrushcrush By Paramore!See Y'all sometime else!