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Ran Headlong Into Oblivion

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Sunday, January 25, 2009/ 21:03

[Mood:Your Guess Is As Good As Mine]
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[Listening:"Be The One"-The Ting Tings]
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Ahoy there.
Hmm Gettin my Postin Results on the 30th!haha and I'm So freaking anxious haha well who wouldn't be.
Thinkin of quitting work next month.Its not the work,It's just me....No,it's the work alright.$4.70 per hour.9 hours everyday.No raise on holiday eves.Boring brain cell killing work over and over again.Better quit before I'm brain-dead.
Listening to The Ting Tings' songs.They're definitely somethin new and cool.Gotta watch out for them.
Gonna get a new phone like next month I think.'Bout time!My phone looks like crap now haha.I dun think it would be stolen if i just leave it around haha.Two years with me man.
Will be buying new clothes and stuff for the new life ahead yea!
And continue learning the guitar again.

That is all.=)
Hope you guys got beta stuff to do than me.
G'night!Good Luck!And Keep The Faith.
Out.

Insert Jokes Bout Tiredness Here

Tuesday, January 20, 2009/ 21:54

[Mood:(Insert Jokes Bout Insomnia Here)]
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[Listening To:"Secret Valentine"-We The Kings]
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Boy I can't believe I got work today.
I mean,yea I know that I work for 3 days then a day off.But I still can't believe I had work today.
I just don't think working 9 hours for 3 days straight and having one a day off is good.One day off just isn't enough.
I didn't even noe how the hell I got temporary full-time.Most of the others are part-timers.That means they work for 5 hours at a time.
What's more,I've been having trouble getting some sleep these days.
I.Just.Can't.Sleep.
No matter how tired I am.
That's why I can't believe I got work today.I was just tired.So tired.And I don't think I'm tired physically,I'm tired mentally.
Nowadays I get moody and abit grouchy when I wake up in the morning.
Obviously from lack of sleep.
Know what I think?I think I have Insomnia.Fuck.

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Sent my JAE Application last Wednesday.Aeronautical Engineering at SP is my first choice.It's COP is 12.And I got 14.But I figured I'll just try my luck since I didn't do badly for math and science.
My second choice is Aerospace Technology at Ngee Ann.It's COP is 12 too but I just put it down anyway.
Third is Engineering Common Programme at Np.It's quite interesting coz the first semester you'll be studying the common modules that all engineering courses have.The next semester,then you choose which engineering course you want to go to haha.That means that I can still get into Aerospace Technology muahaha!
Fourth choice is Aeronautical & Aerospace Tech at Nyp.A new course so it doesnt have a COP yet.
Now I'm sure y'all notice the similarity here haha.I'm just so damn interested in aeroplanes!haha call me a little boy,I don't give a damn haha.
Now I'm just praying to get to one of these courses.
Hope You All are praying to get to ur courses of choice!I wish y'all the best.
Hmm I'm thinking of applying for the army diploma too.Probably The Air Force one.Who Knows?I could be a fighter pilot some day haha.

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I want to complain bout work again here.hehe hope ya don't mind haha.
So yea,I've told u guys before how annoying some of the readers are right?The ones who kept asking me stupid questions?Hmm I think I havent...I dunno.
Lack of sleep can affect one's memories.
So yea,they keep asking me questions like I'm the one who runs the damn library!Hell,I'm not even a freaking Librarian!I'm arojust the zombie who slumbers around shelving books!And the one to straighten and arrange the books for that matter!Stupid Idiots.They can't even put the books back at the right place!Much less the messup trolley where they were supposed to put books that they're done with!There's even a big enough sign on the damn trolleys!
You'd think they'd be smarter if they read alot of books in the library.Dumbasses.
I feel like throwing books at their heads.Who knows?Maybe they'll get smarter.
Haiz I can't wait to quit next month.

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You Know...Seeing Couples And All In The Library And Everywhere Else,Makes Me Feel Kinda Lonely.(This is the part where you say,"Awwww that's sad".Forget It.)
Hmm I Cant Wait To Start Poly.It'll Be The Start Of Something New!(hehe)Get To Meet New People,And Who Knows?Maybe I'll Meet The One...

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This Is Fuad.
Keep The Faith.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009/ 22:50

[Mood:I'm So Freaking Happy!Haha!And Slightly Nuts]
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[Singing:"I Passed My O Levels!I Freaking Passed!"]
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Oh Ho Wowie.
I can't believe it.I did it.I really did it.
Got my results yesterday.At 1400 hrs.
Actually,it was quite sad.The whole thing.
My index number was 24,so there are 23 people in my class getting their results b4 me.
Well,from the look on some of their faces,I know some of them didn't do very well.And that made me so damn nervous and anxious.It was nerve-racking,sitting down there.So I went to a couple of my friends,and tried to comfort them abit.

Then my turn came.So I sat infront of my form teacher,Mr Ng.His face wasn't all that happy in the first place.I guess he's sorta disappointed in the class.
Anyway,he showed my results first.The aggregate score was sealed.
So my results...B3 for English(Hmm not bad I guess)..B3 for Pure History(Again,Not Bad haha) B3 for Humanities(I dunno if i'm good at ss or geog,Whatever haha) B3 for Maths(Haha!I can't believe this one!) A2 for Science Phy/Chem (This One Also haha) D7 for POA (Expected.Spoil the Picture) B4 for malay(Well I didn't retake it haha.Dun mind it)
So yea,I was surprised and I lost the ability to count the number of points I got haha.

I opened up the other letter alongside one of my friend.Haha I got L1R4 of 14 haha!Can u believe that!haha I can't haha.I hoped to get 15 u noe haha.I totally didn't expect to get 14 haha.
My friend didn't do badly himself.Haha congrats Lut haha.You did your best.You can go to poly man haha.And then take the Army Diploma that U always wanted haha.Nice man.

So yea,after that we just hanged around the hall,talking to other people.haha.
So I went home with Lut and another friend,Yazid.Talking and laughing just like we used to do when me and lut were still schooling haha.

I reached home and my mum was waiting for me by the door.She must be psychic or something haha.So she asked me how did I do.I said jokingly that I didn't do so well haha.I'm evil haha.So i just gave her my result slip and she went inside first,I was still taking off my shoes.But I heard her say,"Al-hamdullillah" and she sounded so happy haha.
I finally got inside haha and she came to me haha with smiles and all.She cried also haha and I just smiled.
It certainly felt great haha.

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So now,I just have to choose where I want to go.Well it's more harder than I thought haha but I finally finalised my choices haha.My top choice is Aeronautical Engineering haha something I've always wanted coz I've always been interested in Aeroplanes and all haha.The Cop is actually 12 but I'll just list it down since I got 14 and a ace my science and passed my maths haha.You know,my top 4 choices all have something to do with planes hahaha.As they say;

The Sky's The Limit.
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Anyway,since I start working again on friday,I wanna go out and buy stuff haha since I'm getting my delayed pay tmr haha.Hmm maybe I'll bring Lut along haha.Maybe treat him fast food haha.I have to buy a new mp4 player and replace my guitar strings.haha

So yea thats all I gotta say.
To those of you who did well,keep it up!And to those of you who didn't do so well,dun give up ok.

Keep The Faith.

Out.
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Labels: O Level, sky's the limit

Sunday, January 11, 2009/ 21:43

[Mood:Holy Shit!Tomorrow's The Day!]
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[Listening To:Listen To What Man?O Lvl's Tomorrow!]
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Oh Wowie...tomorrow's the day huh guys?I can't believe it haha.4 years(5 for some of us) of secondary school education and it ALL comes down to this.
Oooh I don't think I can sleep tonight...
Ok I'm gonna stop talking bout it now coz I noe you guys are as nervous as I am now haha.

CHANGE TOPIC

Okay I'll talk bout my week haha.
Hmm on Wednesday I think...I was working,you noe in the Library,in the children's section unfortunately.I was just moving away from my trolley when one malay kid called me.You know what he called me?
He said,"Eh Uncle".(quite loud too.)
I felt like replying back,"Uncle kepale otak kau!"haha.
Do I look that Old?Seriously.He was being slightly rude too.
Where are your freaking manners kid?Nobody taught you?
haha and the fact that I am malay too doesn't help.He could've have called me "Abang" or something.Or at least a polite,"excuse me".
We're not of different generations hello.
Hmm maybe I do look kinda old...nope.Not Me.He's just to young haha.

On the same day,I was pushing my trolley past the shelves and then I saw a head popping out of one of the shelves.No,my eyes didn't deceive me.
I came nearer and two blue eyes were staring up at me.
A caucasian boy was curled up inside one of the shelves,with his head popping out.Reeaall nice.
For a moment there,I thought he was stuck.So I came up,well..Down to him.I felt like saying,"Kid,What The Fuck Are You Doing!?".But seeing as I am such a Polite Young Gentleman(And everybody threw their shoes at me),I said,"uhh excuse me,what are you doing?"
But I didn't reply.So I said,"Are you OK?".Then he replied,"ouh I'm Ok.I'm just flexible,thats all."
I felt like saying,"Its a goddamned Library!Not some circus tent!"
But I just said Ok and went back to my trolley.I didn't want to know more bout his problem.Haha.

Hmm that's just about all the weird things that happened this week.

I can't remember alot bout yesterday...ouh yea I worked yesterday too.My mind always sorta switches off when I work.Well the memory side.
Today,I went to the library,I know,you are probably thinkin I can't get enough of the library haha wrong!haha.I have enough of WORKING in the library,but I havent got enought of reading in the library haha.Besides,I went to CCK Library not Jurong Regional where I work.
First thing I did when I got inside was that I went to the section D under young adult section.Coz I got an Errand to run haha.
Then I found the book,Vampire Beach:Intiation.Weird title I thought.I flipped through the pages and found it.A postcard with a picture of Taufik Batisah haha.
Then I put it in my bag.I just have to remember to bring it to school tomorrow.

Anyway I borrowed five books today.haha more than I have ever borrowed at one time.The first book is,Finding Lubchenko,second,Poolboy,(same author as the first,Michael Simmons),third,The Sniper(James Riordan),Fourth,Freshman(Michael Gerber),Fifth,Flags Of Our Fathers(James Bradley).
Haha Got a lot of reading to do now hahaha.

Uhh well,I dun have anything else stupid enough to put here so uh Goodnight Folks haha.But I think Most of us won't be sleeping much tonight hahaha.
Arrrhhh Tomorrow!!2 pm!See You There!I sound like I'm excited but I'm nervous abit and really really anxious for tmr......Here I come....I need more Skittles...
Night-O.

Labels: Tomorrow..

Tuesday, January 6, 2009/ 21:26

[Mood:Good,I Guess]
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Listening To:"Sk8er Boi"-Avril Lavigne
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Hey people.
So hey,2009 huh haha.
Hmm I dunno man,still feels like 2008 haha.Maybe I gotta give 2009 a lil more time to settle in.

Anyway,Like almost all the students waiting for O level results,I still don't noe when the hell the results are coming out!
I wonder why the moe hasn't said anything bout that matter.We should've known bout the date by now you know.
I hear people say it could be the 12th.But the 12th is like,next monday!If it is on Monday,the moe should've told us earlier.What the Hell.
Some other people thinks it could be on the 20th.
Haiz....I really have no clue.This is just stupid.Seriously.Stupid.

Anyway,other News!
I goin to cut my Hair tmr since I'm not working tmr!(Still,this might change in the last minute haha)
Another bulletin,
I still havent manage to start a conversation with that Cashier girl at Cheers.No surprises there coz if I did,I would've talk bout it like crazy at the start of this post haha.
Haiz,I dunno why it's so damn hard to say,"Hi I'm Fuad".
Hmm no,thats not a good start.Hmm how bout,
"Hey baby,where've you been all my life?"
haha ok maybe not that.
Hmm I think I'll start with something like,
"Hey,how long have you been working here?" or something.
Then I'll add,"I'm Fuad by the way".
Hmm thats good right?Right?
Uhh I'm hopeless.Gone-case.

Anyway,I'm thinkin of goin for a jog at dawn tmr.But that depends on whether I can stay awake when I wake up haha.Wow it's been ages since I jogged.I'm sure it's goin to be hell when I jog tmr.I'm goin to be aching all over my body by the end of it haha.But then again,no pain,no game right?haha.Besides,m dad told me I gotta start training for NS haha.At first I thought it's stupid to start now since I'm not starting for NS for another couple of years.And also,I'm a skinny guy haha.I need training.Seriously haha.
Also,I can think more when I jog.

I need to think clearly,longer.Especially,that things in my life are changing with the choices I made.
Well,yea,I'm glad to say,I let go of the thought of being with Eleanor.I must say I'm doin good.I'm not sad and thats always good right.I'm moving on.
Now that I think of it,I dun think I should be with her.I know could never be more than a friend.I gave all my feelings...and it was all spent.Now,I dun have anymore to give except friendship I think.I know I'll be ok.
I know I'll find someone.That cashier girl could be the girl,or maybe someone else I'm goin to meet.

Anyway,I have a lot of other things to think bout too.Like where I wanna go after I get my O level results.And If i go to poly,I'm thinkin of taking the army diploma coz I'm very interested in the army.
Boy,I really have a lot of stuff to think.I'm losing sleep because of it haha.

Well thats all I got to say for today.Its boring stuff I know.haha.
Don't mind me while I ponder on my life and why the hell am I even here.G'night Folks.

Faree wants me to chat with her haha.Weird I know.haha k kidding.
Hmm talked bout what is up(the ceiling she says) haha.Talked bout how lame I am.-_-.I'm always the lame one.Hmm I think I'm gonna cry.haha.
Told me to write bout her so here I am.Yay!haha.Against my will haha kidding.
Can't wait to see her again.Hmm what colour is her hair now?Red?purple?Yellow?(HAHA),Gold?(HAHA).
Oi Faree!When wan watch movie again?hahaha.You beta write something bout me ah haha.Nighhts.