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Title: Nervous Wreck
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Ran Headlong Into Oblivion

Tuesday, December 30, 2008/ 15:44

[Mood:Hmm Uhh What?]
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Listening To:"You Found Me"-The Fray
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Hey...I guess this is it huh.
I think,we got less than 48 hours to 2009 haha.
So how was the year for you?Hope is was great haha.

For me it was ok I guess.Well it was definitely more eventful than last year.
Learnt alot of life's lessons this year haha.It's all for my own good.
It's the year where I became 16,surely one of the big ones.
Another step to being a man haha.

Hmm well,I'm just glad the year is ending in 2 days.I just can't wait for next year man.No more secondary school.I know I hate secondary school but still,I'm gonna miss it too.And all my friends too.I know there's a possibility that I ain't gonna see some of 'em ever again.I can't decide whether thats good or bad...haha kidding.

I think next year is gonna be good....well,way better than this year hopefully.
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I don't have work today!Yay!But what am I doing?I'm just sitting here typing stuff.I must say I'm losing touch with my social life.I rarely see my friends now.
Not even msg them alot,much less call them haha.uhh Shit.

Work is ok...I mean I can't expect anything much out of working in the library right?Uhh boy I can't wait when I get my money cause then I'll quit so that I could enjoy my holiday...or what's left of it.

Same Shit,Different Day.(SSDD)
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Hmm my hair is long...I dun think it has ever been this long before.But I like it haha.Though I still have to cut it soon.I'm still skinny...haha though I eat alot.
But I've been doin my push ups.I wanna start running again but I'm just so busy with work these days.Boy I just can't wait when I quit.I need more excercise
haha.
When I get my money........
1)I wanna buy a new mp4 player!My mp3 player is like,nearly three years old!Seriously.Haiz.
2)Buy a good set of heaphones haha.
3)I wanna buy a new pair of slim cut jeans.
4)A new Jacket.Hoody maybe.I seriously need one.
5)I dunno,go to the cinemas like crazy I guess haha.
6)I need to change the strings on my Electric Guitar.They're starting to rust.
7)A new,good,tuner.
8)I wanna buy The Fray's upcoming new album!I just love their songs man.And the new song is awesome!
9)And whatever else that pops up in my head.

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Hmm well,I'm running out of words for today.Can't wait to play the computer game I borrowed from my nephew.Star Wars:Knights Of The Old Republic II The Sith Lords.haha.Dunno why I suddenly want to play these kind of games.
Well,goodbye for now my Friends..and enemies if I ever have one haha.May you all have a great year next year.
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2009,Here I Come.JC/Poly,Here I Come.Future Girlfriend(If I ever gonna get one),Here I Come.
See Y'all Aound.

Labels: 48 Hours, Haha, Money, SSDD, Star Wars

Saturday, December 27, 2008/ 01:25

Today I Saw That Cashier Girl Again On My Way To And From Work.
I Dunno Why,She Looks Prettier Everytime I See her haha.Hmm
It's Just Me Maybe.

"Hi,I'm Fuad".I Never Thought This 3 Words Could Be So Hard To Say haha.
I Think She Might Be Older Than Me.
Boy,I got till 10th Jan To Start A Conversation,Coz I Stop Working At The Library After That.

Oh Yea,I Saw Her Nametag Too.Her Name Is Suzy.Yes,Spelled Like That.
Now I Wonder,Does She Speak Malay?Haiz.
Damnit.

Labels: Cashier Girl.Three Words.Nametag.Damnit.

Friday, December 26, 2008/ 23:42

[Mood:Up And Running]
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Hey Hey Hey haha.
Hmm It's abit late to say this but uhh Happy Christmas!To those of you celebrating it.Especially to my Good friend Shichang haha.yea.
For the rest of us,Happy Holidays or just uh Happy Saturday haha.

Anyway,I watched Twilight on Wednesday haha.I watched it with Faree and Matthew.I decided on it in the last minute too haha.
I just switched on my com around 1 pm,and Faree was online,so I chat with her abit.She told me she's goin to watch twilight afterwards with Matthew.Then I asked her jokingly,"Never ask me also ah"haha.And she said I could come if I want haha.So I did.

Havent seen Faree and Matthew for awhile...It's good to see them again.
Anyway,Twilight was...Good,I think.I like the story,but I think the love part is I dunno,abit Too much haha But then Again,I'm a guy haha.
But the action parts are nice and I especially like the Baseball part haha.
Well,Overall,it's Good hmm 4 out of 5.I think I'm a bad Critic but I don't care haha.Well I would definitely watch the sequel,if they are goin to make one.

After that,I went to eat with Faree at hmm I can't remember where haha.
Then I dropped by Hadi's house to do Asar prayers coz it was 5 pm(Eh kate orang alim hehe ceh) and I needed to rest abit coz I'd be goin out to town afterwards.

6.20 pm,I got out of Hadi's house and went to the interchange to take bus 190 to get to town.I was heading for Paragon but the problems is I've never been to Paragon haha so I dun really noe where to alight haha.

Got in the bus,sat beside a window,my favourite place,took out my phone and earpiece,plug 'em together and Voila!A not-so-decent mp3 player is made!
Okay,that was lame.
Err so yea,I listen my way into oblivion,thoughts runnin across my mind and before I knew it,I was somewhere in Orchard and I still havent figured out where the hell I was supposed to alight.Then,I saw that the bus I was in passed by a building called,you guessed it,Paragon.I should've alighted at the bustop before coz the next one was quite a distance away haha.

Well I did alight.It was raining.And it was 7.10 pm.I was late.hehe.

So I decided not to give a shit about the rain and I started walking fast towards Paragon.After all,no matter how many times it rains on me,I never get sick.Hmm I guess my immune system is pretty good.I wonder what the hell did I do to get a good Immune System haha.
Anyway,I reached the entrance to paragon,the was a performance goin on at a space infront of the building.I wasn't surprised,It was where I'm supposed to be anyway and it was Christmas Eve too.So I was behind it,and there he was haha.My friend Shichang haha.It's been long since I seen him haha.He invited me to come down there.His church was the one holding the performance and he was part of a group that moves the props around haha.
So I talked to him.Then watched the performance.I thought it was ok.But what do I know?I've never been to this kind of events anyway haha.
After that,I talked to shichang again.He showed me his new phone and all.It was a Motorazr V9 haha lucky bastard.
Then after everything I told him I had to go and find a mosque near the area coz my parents meeting me there.Then bid farewell and the rest of the night was ok haha.It's just that,I havent seen my friend for awhile and I havent gone out with my parents like I did that night.It feels weird by the end of it and I dunno why.haha haiz.
Oh Yea,did I mention?I went to eat at Burger King with my parents.I bought a Whopper.Also,it's been awhile since I ate at Burger king.And also been awhile since I ate at Burger King with my dad there coz he was away and all haha.

I guess,that day was just made for me to catch up on things.

Oh Yea,I also bought a new button up shirt.
And when I went home and sleep,it was the first time in about a month that I slept in the top bed in my room coz my kid brother was sleeping in the bed below.
Yea,I was just catching up on everything so I didn't forget bout them.Hmm God didn't want me to forget certain stuff haha.

Uhh Goodnight...I'm just weirded out right now haha.
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Song Verse Of The Day:"The Best Way To Make It Through

With Hearts And Intact,

Is To Realise That Two,Out Of Three,

Ain't Bad.."

I'm Like A Lawyer With The Way I'm Always Trying To Get You Off(Me+You)

-Fall Out Boy

Labels: Art Of Catching Up

Tuesday, December 23, 2008/ 22:11

Here's Something For You Faree.
.Faree.

There You Go,I Just Put Your Name On My Blog.
I Just Hope I Wont Get Sued For This......
HAHAHAHAHA!Happy Now?haha.

Labels: Faree

Monday, December 22, 2008/ 20:58

[Mood:Not Bad,Not Great,Somewhere In Between]
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Listening To:"About A Girl"-The Academy Is..
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Hey guys.

Things have been Okay since my last post.
My Dad's back!Ahh man I must say I miss him ordering me around haha.Well he doesnt order me everytime,just sometimes.
Hearing the stories that he has,just makes me appreciate what a great man my father is haha.Sometimes,I can't help but notice that his patience is Incredible!haha.I guess that's where I got my measure of patience from haha.

Anyway,lets talk bout my work haha.
For those of you who didn't know,I work at Jurong East library.I shelve books....and push trolleys....and straighten books.....and curse people under my breath.Haha.
The other day,I was stationed at the basement,which is the Childrens Section.Boy,I gotta tell you,when you get down there,it's not a Library anymore..It's like a Playroom!Only with shelves and books.Haha seriously.
Anyway,at one time,I wondered why I rarely shelf information books numbered 200 to 300.So I checked that area and do you wanna noe why kids dun borrow books from that area?the books are all bout Religions.Hahaha,I guess children are not as angelic as we thought they were huh?hahaha.

Well,today was my much needed day off.Man,when you've worked everyday for one week,you'd give anythin for a day off haha.So I went out with my mum,sisters and brother.My dad was working.We went to West Mall,coz my elder Sis,Atikah,wants to buy a new phone coz her old one is busted haha.
I followed them first coz,after that,I wanna go to my Uncle Addha's house coz he's giving me his acoustic guitar haha.I havent told you guys this but,My old acoustic guitar was busted haha.It was given to me by my uncle Faizal.Haha One day,bout a couple of weeks ago,I was about to change the strings on that guitar,so I removed the old string first.And when I did,to my horror,the Nut fell off,and the tuning pegs on the right fell off too hahaha.Then I called my uncle Faizal.He said it's ok coz that guitar's very old haha.It was a Samick guitar.I don't know if it's a good guitar but It feels good to play it haha poor old Samick,his time came.So then I told my mum I have to buy another acoustic guitar.HAVE TO.I told her I will pay a part of it haha.

This morning my Uncle Faizal Called my mum to talk.Then my mum asked him whether he could find and buy a guitar for me coz my mum doesn't really noe bout guitars.She said she would pay him afterwards.He said ok,no problem haha.
And then I think he called my Uncle Addha about it.Then Uncle Addha called my mum.He said I dun have to buy a guitar,I could just take his since he doesn't play much anyway haha.He said,he doesn't play acoustic,he prefers electric haha.
So yea,I went to his house to collect it haha.It's a Yamaha acoustic guitar.Uncle Addha told me it's a good one haha.Well I'm just so grateful and I guess I'm damn Lucky to have 2 Uncles who play guitars haha.

Well thats all for today I guess.Actually I wanna type some more stuff but that's for the next post haha and anyway,I wouldnt want to miss House On AXN haha.
It's a seriously great show!Haha smart and funny and sad sometimes,thats suits well with me haha.Kk Later guys.
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Song Verse Of The Day:"Pain....Make Your Way To Me...To Me...

Coz I've Always Been Just So Inviting

If I,Ever Start To Think...Straight

This Heart,Will Start A Riot In Me

Let's Start..Start HEY!

Why Do We Like To Hurt So Much?

Oh Why,Do We Like To Hurt..Som Much?

That's What You Get-Paramore

Thursday, December 18, 2008/ 23:45

[Mood:Pretty Good Actually.I'm Surprised Myself.]
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Listening To:"Shattered"-O.A.R(Of A Revolution)
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Hey People.
How are you guys doin huh?haha.
Anyway,sorry bout the last post haha.It doesn't make sense right haha.
I wasn't makin any sense when I typed that haha.
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So yea.....these few days has been pretty weird for me emotionally.
Haha.It's been CRAZY haha but I'm not pissed off or depressed by it,I'm learning from it,and gaining from it I think haha.I think.=)
And yea I can't believe I can still smile alot haha.It creeps me out haha.
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I've been busy working this week.Not one day off.But I managed to ask for a leave tomorrow coz my dad is coming back from Hajj haha.So I have to give up my throne for the Man of The House back to my dad haha.It's been cool being the man of the house,though I didn't do anythin much haha.

Anyway,just now my day was ok.Weird coz I feel sad but still good at the same time haha but still ok.I finished at 9.I got out of the library and drop by the
Cheers store nearby and bought myself some latte in a can.Actually,thats not exactly the reason why I went there.I started goin there on my way home coz,there's this girl who works there...she usually works in the evening into the night.Well I dunno...there's something about her haha.And thats why I go that Cheers store everytime I'm on my way home from work haha.I dunno why ok haha.
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Uhh you know,I actually asked Eleanor whether she'd like to go and watch Twilight with me or something haha.But she said she's goin with her friend today haha no surprises there haha.I think I guessed the answer before she told me haha.Boy,if you are me,you'll get used to it haha.I don't expect much from her anymore.And then I asked whether we could watch somethin else on another day but she said she can't.haha no surprises there either.
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You know,I think it's time for me to move on and forget about it.I've been waiting for her to change her mind for 2 years now and I guess,in the end,I was the one who changed.
I know that if I move on,I won't feel sad coz..
1)I am a person who can't bring himself to feel sad for more than an hour.2-3 hours tops haha.
2)And Life is a bit easier with a sense of humor haha.Especially if you're a teenager like me haha.

Also,I wanna thank you Eleanor.I guess I learned alot from waiting.
I was a seriously shy guy,full of doubts and so unsure of myself.
But I changed I guess.Maybe not by much,but I still changed.
Don't worry I don't hate you or anything haha.How could I hate you haha.
And I'll still wish you goodnight if you want me too coz I promised that I'll try to wish you goodnight everynight.And I am a man of words.I don't make alot of promises,but when I do,I keep them.Well...I do try my best haha.
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So I dun have work tomorrow.And that's great coz I'll be able to meet with my friends again!haha.Man it's been awhile since I've seen them.I miss being among them haha.
I havent told you guys bout how I'm doin with my guitar playing right?haha.
I'm actually progressing rather well.I learned to play songs from greenday like American Idiot and Basketcase haha.They're great songs haha.
I've also learned to play Paramore songs like,My Heart and Crushcrushcrush and I also now how to play the lead for Decode.And there's alot of other songs that I can play too so I guess I'm progressing well haha.
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Hmm well Goodnight People.Thats all I have to say for today/tonight.
Remember this;
Unhappiness Does Not Come At You.It Comes From You.
haha Nights.
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Song Of The Moment:"One song about a girl

I can't breathe when I'm around her

I'll wait here everyday

In case she'll scratch the surface

She'll never notice

I'm not in love

This is not my heart

I'm not gonna waste these words

About a girl

Whoa!

Last night, I knew what to say

But you weren't there to hear it

These lines, so well rehearsed

Tongue tied and over-loaded

You'll never notice

I'm not in love

This is not my heart

I'm not gonna waste these words

About a girl

I'm not in love

This is not your song

I'm not gonna waste these words

About a girl

To be loved, to be loved

What more could you ask for?

To be loved, to be loved

Everyone wants

To be loved, to be loved

What more could you ask for?

To be loved, to be loved

Everyone...

(Chrous)

I'm not in love

(To be loved, to be loved, what more could you ask for?)

This is not your song

(To be loved, to be loved, everyone wants)

I'm not gonna waste these words

(To be loved, to be loved, what more could you ask for?)

About a girl."

About A Girl-The Academy Is..

Wednesday, December 17, 2008/ 00:15

I Think Love Is Stupid Now.
And I Hope Too Much...Damnit.

Friday, December 12, 2008/ 21:54

[Mood:If Not Bad,Miserable.Seriously Miserable]
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Listening To:"Until Tomorrow"-Paramore.This is the most miserable sounding song I could find.You should hear it.
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Hey.

Well,as you can tell,I feel miserable today.
I think I just had one of my most lousiest day in my life.
No,it's not because of what happened during the day.
It happened,at this moment,nearly 24 hours ago.
But lets talk bout my day today.
I know you're probably wondering why I even bother to talk bout my day when it's so lousy..
I just don't like my posts to be too short haha.Don't be fooled by the "haha",
I'm actually feelin like crap.

Anyway,I had work today.I reached Jurong regional Library abit late.Well
not that I was never late before hehe.But as soon as I start workin(straightening the books on the shelves),I started thinkin bout the sms conversation I had last night and then my mood dipped right there.
I can't believe that just as the day started,I wanted it to end as quickly as possible.I can't concentrate on my work,I sorta did my work half-heartedly.
And I think thats an understatement.
I think,at one time,I had some difficulty breathing.But I dunno if that's due to the misery or if it's coz I'm really sick.

For The First Time In My Life,I Felt Truly Miserable.And not just misery I felt,I felt guilt and anger abit.
Well first time for eveything I guess.
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I'm sort of a God-fearing man.Which I know is a good thing coz my dad told me once that if there's anything you should fear,it's God,coz God is well...God.
I was so glad I could go to friday prayers during my break today coz I didn't have the chance to go last week.haha
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Well I msged Yana just now and she did reply.=)And I guess that's all I need to make my day...or well what's left of my day coz its a couple of minutes to midnight now haha.
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Anyway,I read her blog.I wonder if a part of one of her posts was about me.
But I can't be too sure cause I don't want to get my hopes up too high or it might
come crashing down.
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I Wonder How Many Times Can I Break Till I Shatter.Hmm Food For Thought.Mine At Least.
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So well I'm sorry this posts looks like a mess haha,I can't help it,I'm a mess today.
Crap,I got work tmr too.The days just keep gettin better and better haha.
Well at least I finish at 1 tmr,so I'm free for the rest of my day tmr.
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I read this sentence in a book just now.
"'Sorry'?I've always thought that's the most useless word in the English language,because it can never undo what's done"
I think thats exactly right.But that's just me,I dunno bout you.
Well with that,I bid you Goodbye for now.haha.Try not to be miserable haha.
G'night!

Monday, December 8, 2008/ 11:29

[Mood:If Not Great,Good]
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Listening To:"Decode"-Paramore
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Hey guys!

Haha oh yea finally I'm back haha.Took me quite awhile to start a new blog.
And I still can't seem to perfect the skin haha looks abit weird in some places,but
hey,it's good enough that I'm back haha.

Anyway,quite alot has happened since I last blogged last August.
Well I sat for 'O' Levels and I think I did good.And I got an Electric Guitar!(Finally!)So yea I've been rockin out haha.And my dad is away for Haji,so he won't be back till next 2 fridays I think.That makes me the man of the house right?Not haha.Well in a way I am but I still don't have authority over the household haha.And finally,I got job haha.And about time too.
Well anyway,I work at Jurong Regional Library haha just shelving books thats all.
If you think thats not tiring,try doing it for 8 hours straight haha it's a pain in the legs!haha.

Oh man,it's been awhile since I met up with my friends.I worry that this would affect my sense of humor soon..hehe.See I can't even crack a joke to save a life.
Lut still havent got a job I think..and it makes me feel guilty but I dunno why.
I havent seen my classmates for awhile.And it's definitely been a long long time since I've seen Yana.I think the last time I saw her was November 11th which was the last day of 'O' Levels.And I don't think I'll see her again till next year when we get our results.Ah boo hoo haha the thought of it makes me feel like shit abit.Uhh no,definitely alot.Haiz.
Uh crap,I'll change the subject..

So yea,today is Hari Raya Haji!Woke up early to go to the mosque.And it was raining too.Talk about a bad time to rain.But I know this was just a test of patience from God and I think I barely passed it haha.I mean,there were so many people and it was so cramped.I managed to get some small space(seriously small)and did the prayers.
It was still raining when the prayers ended,and thank god I brought an umbrella.
It was so cold haha but I guess I like the cold.Well,more than the heat.
I don't realy noe why I like the cold alot,but I think if I went to Antarctica,I would change my mind haha.
Ah I'm just blabbering stupid words here and this means I got to stop before y'all think I'm nuts or something haha.
So yea,if you're workin,enjoy haha I noe,I don't think that's possible either.
And if you're searching for a job,Good luck!And Good Luck not regreting once you get one haha.
And to those of you who neither have a job or is lookin for one,good for you!Or bad,depending on whether U have money and....Ah what am I sayin?
I'm Outta Here.
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I Came.I Saw.I Laughed.I Sat.I Found Love.I Sat.I Learned.I Graduated.
I Suck.