Running Into Oblivion,

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Title: Nervous Wreck
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Ran Headlong Into Oblivion

Trying To Ignore here.

Thursday, July 24, 2008/ 21:02

I'm Trying To Ignore Here Helloo.

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Mood:Uh..oh..uh

Uhhuh..Yup..Right..Okay.

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Song In My Head:Hit Me Baby One More Time-

Travis cover

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Wow,I must say,school has been rather enjoyable these days.

Though I get to come home later and later these days.

Which usually I would say something like "What The Fuck!?You gotta be kidding me!",to it.

But now I'm impressed with myself,I ain't complainin too much.

Maybe my brain had just realised that school is,in fact,Important

and good for me.

Well I gotta say is,'bout time brain,'bout time we work together.

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Well as I said before,school has been quite enjoyable.

Mr Ng,my new form teacher,is cool haha.I like him,he has a good sense of humor.

And the class is ok.Though I got two idiots sittin infront of me and behind haha.

Shichang and Najwan,these two guys...oh wait girls(haha),have been

disturbing me like crazy.Likewise,I've been retaliating them back

like crazy too.We're just a bunh of crazy people.

Hell,there's alot of crazy people in the school.Fun-crazy I mean,not crazy psycho-crazy.If you know what I mean.

Well let me list the different types of crazy:

(Warning:This List Is Not Recognised By Psychologists Or Doctors All Around

The World.Purely For Fun And Humour.Add British Accent For Comic Effect)

1.Fun-Crazy:Likes to do fun crazy things purely for fun and profit and humor

because they don't have anythin betta to do.(That's Me)

2.Stupid-Crazy:Likes to do crazy things because they're just too stupid or just too darn stupid to know that doing stupid things is...well...stupid.Doesn't

react quickly to funny stuff.

3.Retarded-Crazy:Doesn't react much too funny stuff...oh wait,doesn't react

AT ALL to funny stuff.Also,they say stupid things at the wrong time and gets

booed by everybody but they're just too retarded to give a crap bout it.

4.Psycho-Crazy:touch people,stalk people,give stupid lame nicknames to people,

spy people,torture people,you know,the usual stuff.Also,best to avoid these kind

of crazy.Trust me,I've been in that situation before.

5.Pure-Crazy:Whole package.Also,see Institute of Mental Health.

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Haiz you know,I gotta learn to ignore things.For example,i gotta learn to ignore

other people's problems.No,I'm not sayin that I gotta be a heartless bastard.

I'm saying that I shouldn't care too much about other people's problems.

Sometimes I just get worked up because of problems that are not of my own.

It's stupid coz I'd just waste my brain cells thinkin bout it.

Yea so I really gotta start learning how to ignore other people's problems....

ok maybe not Eleanor's problems......or Lut's problems.....or Shichang's

problems......Arh what the hell am I saying?Arh Forget it haha.

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I Hate Myself For Caring Too Much.

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Do your part to save the planet people!

Go and clean up after yourselves!Seriously.

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I know,You guys are wondering what the hell is with the sudden eco-friendly speech here.

I dunno,I just feel like it.

Goodnight people.Goodnight Eleanor.

Racial Harmony Day anyone?

Monday, July 21, 2008/ 20:56

Mood:Is Goin
Up Bumply.
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Well my mood would've been beta if I start to ignore some things.

Ah well forget I said that.

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Well school is still as normal as ever.Its just that my social life has been

goin through a series changes,some of them I can't explain why.

Some of my friends,I find it hard to call them "friends".

One of my friends is becoming big-headed.

I dun noe what the fuck is his damn problem.

So unappreciative.What kind of friend is that?

You tell me.

I should just let him be u know.

Screw him.

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Anyway it was,Racial Harmony Day today haha.

Yea Mimi msged me yesterday,and asked me to wear

a traditional malay costume.

So I figured,what the hell you noe,its been a few years since I get to do that

so I'm down with anythin haha.

I msged Lut this mornin to ask him if he was wearin and he said no.

What the hell man,I was so sure he was goin to wear.

Ah well,screw him I thought.

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So when I got out of my house,I was wearing a Baju Kurung.

Of a dark brown colour.

As I walked to the bustop,I can't help but feel anxious as to how many students are actually goin to wear traditional costumes.

Well it got worse when I boarded the bus,

I saw nothin but well,the bus driver(well Duh),normal passengers(again,duh),and Regent students.....wearing the school uniform.

So you can imagine how I felt haha.

I was like,"Shit!Shit!Shit!Are u kiddin me?I can't be the only guy here wearin this!

I look freaking ridiculous!"

Then I thought to myself,"If I see one guy wearing a traditional costume,even one,I will not give a fuck of how ridiculous I look walking among dozens of kids wearing school uniforms"

And thank god,I did see one haha.

Then I just dun give a shit of what people might say bout me haha.

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When I reached school,I quickly moved up to the hall,and to my utmost surprise,

I saw Eleanor!Not wearing her school uniform but wearing a traditional

costume!

Oh boy,I certainly felt beta wearing my traditional costume because of her.

haha.

Thats what I always needed,a little boost of assurance from

someone like her.

I gotta admit,I really never expected to see her wear it.

But I never had a chance to smile at her properly today.

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Another good thing is that,I wasn't the only one wearing in my class.

Mimi,Faree,Nurul,Maisarah,Matthew,Hilmi and Zul wore it too.

Thats good u noe haha.

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However,the rest of the day wasnt that eventful as I expected it to be.

School Uniform or not,it's still normal school haha.

Yay great.Just great.

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Ah my form teacher,Ms Tan is leaving the school

That's sad you know.

She's a really good teacher.....well

in a sense that she treats my class well haha.

The new form teacher is Mr Ng.

In my opinion,he's pretty awesome,has a pretty good sense of humour haha.

and he's a blogger.

Which reminds me,I gotta put up a link for the class blog made by him.

haha.

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I think that's all I have to talk about right now.

Don't get me wrong,I'm not a problemless person.

I really have lots of things and thoughts in my head.

Only a small part of it is written here.

The rest however,

I don't think I should talk bout them,maybe not yet.

Some of them are half-formed thoughts.

Some of them are nver meant for others to know.

Some of them are questions in need of answering.

Some of them are observations and views in need of explanation.

Some of them are things that I shouldn't even care about.

Some of them are real problems.

Some of them are happy thoughts.

And some of them are just plain weird.Or funny.

And the rest of them.....I just dun know how

to put them in words.

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As I Say Before,I Am An OverThinker.

lala cultural night.

Friday, July 18, 2008/ 21:37

Post Cultural Night

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Mood:Pretty Pissed

abit.Just abit.

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Ha I know I was supposed to have posted somethin

bout cultural night waay waay before today haha.

Ah anyway,I thought Cultural Night was pretty good.

I can say that I've dressed well hahaha!

With a tie and all.

Yeap everybody looked good that night haha.

The show was okay,though I'm pretty disappointed that there was

no singing or real acting drama,not that dancing thing they called drama.

But I was won over by the Japanese drum thing haha and

of course by the school band.

Yeap I know you're probably thinkin,"Fuad likes orchestral music?What the hell"

haha Yeap I do,especially musical scores from movies.

For example,I have a few musical score from The Lord Of The Rings trilogy

in my phone haha.

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There're quite a few things I remember from cultural night.

I definitely remember taking lotsa pictures with people haha.

I took pictures with Lut,some of my other friends,Nurul,the 4-7 people,

and Faree haha yea haha and there's alot more pictures I took.

I remember taking a picture with Mimi.

I was quite surprised that she would take a picture with me haha...

knowing how we don't talk much anymore.

And I still don't know why we don't....well maybe its my fault or

something.

Well anyway,I thought she looked great haha.

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And the one thing I know I cannot forget is when I took a picture with Eleanor.

I never thought she ever wanted to take a picture with me....ever.

I was lost for words at that time.

The only thing I said to her was that I asked her where she found her ticket since

she told me she lost it.

Haha.

Well I almost didn't think that she'd come that evening.

She told me in the afternoon that most probably she will not come.

So just imagine me sitting there in the seats,starting to lose all hope of her coming.Then suddenly,I looked at the entrance near the stage and hell,someone

sure caught my eye.

There she was,walking up the steps,looking as awesome as ever haha.

Haiz at that time I suddenly felt so happy to see her.I mean,I can't even stop

smiling.

Then she saw me and she smiled at me.

Then my mood was up for the rest of the night haha.

She looked awesome.Oh,I said that already hehe.

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Sadly though,there wasn't any food provided there!What the hell man!

I was kinda starving near the end of it.haha.

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However,the it wasn't that pretty near the end.Somethin happen which I dun think

I should talk bout haha.

Well Faree cried that night.Sad ah.

I went home with Matthew,Nurul and Faree.Lut was goin to go for a late dinner or somethin withcHadi and the rest of the guys.

I was pretty tired,that's why I went home straight away.

Anyway somethin happened that made Faree cry abit haha.

When we were in the train,me and Matthew tried to cheer her up abit.

I can say,she's pretty good at handling herself.She can still laugh haha cool.

I can't believe I'm actually praising Faree right now haha!

yea Faree,you beta appreciate me for this.

Anyway,me and Faree live in Yew Tee whereas Matt and Nurul live in CCK.

So I decided to send her home or something haha.

Matt also suggested to her that I should.

But she was like,"no no need haha"

But then somethin stupid happened haha.

When Faree and me alighted at our stop.

She told me she wanted to go to the Ladies' to wash up.

So when she went in,I went to go get myself a drink.

Little did I know that when I bought my drink and went back to the toilet entrance,she was already on her way home hahaha.

I didn't know that till I smsed her haha

Gee Faree....thanks for keepin me waitin...Haha.

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Haha well I must admit,I definitely had an interesting night.

well thats all I gotta say bout it haha.I'll

see you guys sometime later.

see ya!

A Lost Catch

Thursday, July 10, 2008/ 20:46

A Few Seconds,And One Catch Lost

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Mood:Dazed But

Excited

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My class played a frisbee match today.

We're in an inter-class Ultimate Frisbee Tournament.

The tournament started last week.

My class 4-7's first match was against class 4-8 on last tuesday.

I'm glad to say we've won the match hehe.

Our second match that took place today was against 4-8 again.

I was one the players on my class' team but I was a substitute.

I never got to play 'till the last minute,when I finally came in for Lut.

Oh wait,Did I say "last minute"?What I meant to say was,"Last few Seconds!"

haha

Seriously,I wasn't even fully ready when I got in and I havent read the game

much so I was as good as clueless as to what was goin on at the time haha

All I know was,I was putting on the blue strap,I looked up,the frisbee was heading towards my area(I was defender),I chased the damn frisbee as hard as I could but it wasn't enough.....the 4-8 team manage to score a point.

hehe

And then,the game ended...just like that.Nice.

And I've been in the game for about a few freakin seconds!haha

I barely broke a sweat.

Haiz.

But the good thing is,We won!

haha I bet you You thought we lost haha.

We lead the other team by alot haha.

So we should be goin into the semi-finals haha

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I dunno why but,I dun think my team have realised my full potential yet.

I like to sneak around opponents haha.

I think wearing "sneakers",says it all.

I'm just afraid that I would be sitting out for the next game.

I really want to play you know.haha

However,I really pity Shichang haha.

He still havent got the chance to play at all haha.

I HAVE to play the next match.

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As some of you already know,

Cultural Night is tomorrow.

I gotta admit,I am really excited bout tomorrow hehe.

Well..kinda.ahha.

Lut said somethin bout goin early to hang out first..

I'm not quite sure bout it haha.

I know one reason why I'm excited,

I have never been to anything like this.

I'd like to see the students wearing anything else but the school uniform haha.

I just hope the ten bucks I spent for the ticket will not go to waste.

I want to see good show tomorrow.

And hopefully,I'll see some of you guys tomorrow!

Look for me.

I'll be the guy with the blue tie haha.

Not to mention,army brown sneakers hehe.

And I do hope that food will be provided!

hehe.

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Ah thats it for today I guess.

My main computer is spoiled so I'm currently using my Sister's laptop.

Good For Me.

Lucky For You People.

Bad For My Sister.

haha

So anyway,I won't be online as much and I won't be posting much either.

I do apologise haha.

And With that,I bid You farewell for now.

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P.S Ah Man,I still Don't Know Whether Liyana Is Comin To Cultural

Night Or Not.

I Dun Think I Could Enjoy As Much If She Isn't Goin To Be There.

Haiz.

Ah.Whatever Happens,Happens.

I Kinda Miss Her Real Smile =)

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Yours To Break

Fuad

(Ring-A-Ding-Ding)

Saturday Blues.

Saturday, July 5, 2008/ 16:20

Mood:Woo Hoo!

I Have No Idea.

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Ah Finally,I got time to post somethin here.

'Bout time too.

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So I've been nothin much except studyin in class.

Well with 'O' levels comin up in a few more months,what else am I suppose to do?Lie on the ground and shout,"Give Me Am A1!Give Me An A1!"

That would be plain ridiculous.I know Ridiculous,I've seen too much of it.

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As some of you would've known,I had my 'O' Level Malay Oral examination yesterday.

It was fucked up man.

I think it was the worst oral I've ever had.

I just hope the results will not pull the rest of my malay exam results much.

But I've been told that Oral is around 15% of the total marks for the exam.

Shit.Shiii-It.

My palms were sweating when I was waiting for my turn.

I took out a coin and just started flipping it.

I don't know why,but I like to do that when I'm stress haha.

Weird I know.

Anyway,my reading was not bad at all but my conversation part sucked.

Well it's not because that my malay sucks,it's because the topic is stupid.

I mean,I'm sure I would've done better if the topic is about something like Recent news like that earthquake in China or the cyclone in Myanmar or maybe they should just change the questions that they ask Coz,honestly,I couldn't answer some of the questions.I mean,it's not because my malay sucks,it's because some of the question are not stuff that you

usually think about everyday.

Ah man.

I guess what's done,is done.

There's nothin more I could do.

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Anyway,I'm kinda relieved that it's the weekend now.

Though I don't have much plans for the weekend.

I think I'm goin out tomorrow with Lut and some of the rest.

Lut says he wants to buy a shirt for cultural night.

I think we're heading for IMM tomorrow.

For this comin youth day(No school.Woohoo!),I don't have any plans to go out.

So I think havin school on monday would have been better.

Did I just say that?

Bleeahhh.Wash my Mouth!

haha

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I've been progressing quite alot on my guitar.

And havin fun too.

I can now play a few songs.

And I mean from start to finish.

I can play,"Hit Me Baby One More Time"(Seriously),originally by Britney Spears but the one I'm playin is the Travis Cover.

I can also play,Easy versions of "Good Riddance(Time Of Your Life) by Greenday,"Chasing Cars" by Snow Patrol,"Heart Of Gold" By Neil Young."Eleanor" By Jet(Still Practicin on this) and one of my favourite songs,"Over My Head(Cable Car) by The Fray.

Yup,I guess I am progressing well on my guitar.

I'm finally starting on songs that has an F chord in them.

Not a really easy Chord to master when your just a beginner but I will get there,I will.haha.

Also I'm thinkin of buying a capo.It's just a thing that you clip on the guitar stock so that it would be in a different tune.

The song "Over My Head"Actually needs a capo on the first fret if you want to play it.

I had to improvise and use a pencil and loads of rubber band and make it into a makeshift capo hahaha.

Well it didn't sound as perfect as it should haha so I'm definitely goin to buy a capo.

And I still want an Electric Guitar.

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I'll probably be postin again around next week,so uhh I'll

see you guys in about a week!haha.

Haha Yea man I just remembered!

The Lord Of The Rings:The Return Of The King is on tonight!

Haha I just can't get enough of it I know.

Seriously,It's a seriously good movie.Seriously.haha.

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Song Verse Of The Day:"A Bleeding Heart,A Good Head Start To Anywhere But Here.Just Let Me Out.Please Let Me Out Before I Turn Into,A Box Of Things Reminding Me How Much I'm Missing You.I Am Missing You" Yellowcard-Shrink The World

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P.S You Know,I really wonder whether she thinks about me sometimes.

I wonder what she sees in me.

And I wonder if she cares about me at all.

For all I know,She might not give a damn about me haha.

I still havent got the chance to talk to Eleanor.

She told me in a msg that a smile can make a person happy.Well that's exactly right.

I mean her smile always makes me happy and keeps me up.

I wonder if a smile from me does anythin to her.=P

hahaha

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Yours For Keeping

Fuad

(I.Hate.Oral.)