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Ran Headlong Into Oblivion

End Of Week One

Friday, June 27, 2008/ 21:17

Mood:The Weekend
Mood.
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I guess it's the end of week one ey?

I must say I've had a fairly good week.

Nothin much that I could complain about.

Yea....A fairly good one indeed.

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So it was a hot Friday today!

Or should I say,Fryday.

Ok I'm bein lame here.

Pardon my Lameness people.

School was....come to think of it,pretty quick today.

After the Friday Prayers,I hung out at Hadi's house.

I did nothin much there.

Well,except playin around with Hadi's little brother,Zaki.

You know,I think he recognises me easily now.

Yea since I go there like,almost every Friday.

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So after wrestling with Zaki and giving him a headlock and

a submission,I went home.haha.

And that just about sums up my day.

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I've been doin more studyin than I did last semester.

I'm just startin to feel the urgency now.

I just have trouble focusing abit hehe.

And I get sleepy easily for some reason.

I wish I could be more hardworking you know?

I mean,I'm not sayin I was totally not hardworking

at all before,but I want

to put in more effort and really prepare myself for 'O' levels.

All I'm askin is,How The Hell Do You People Do It!?

How do you really force yourself?

Until I figure it out,I will still be neither Here Nor There.

Or maybe should just join or make a study group.

Yea,that'd be better.

Well,Now is the right time to be a Nerd.

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Wow,my posts are gettin shorter and shorter.

Well goodbye my friends.

Happy Studying!

Haha happy studyin,what a joke!

Can You pray for me that I get my real sense of humour back?

Lameness is threatening to take over me.

Why oh why?

I need a chocolate.

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Song Verse Of The Day:"I'm Over There.I'm Tired Of Living In The Dark,Can Anyone See Me Down Here?"

3 Doors Down-Away From The Sun

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P.S I feel like I really wanna talk to Eleanor again.But how can I when I'm just a Nervous Wreck?

Haiz Saccharine Smile..

Anyway,I really hope that she'll be goin

for cultural night.If not,I bought a tie for nothing!Damn.haha Have a Happy Weekend People.

Have a Good Weekend Eleanor.

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Yours Honestly

Fuad

(Laughaholic Nervous Wreck)

The New Semester

Tuesday, June 24, 2008/ 22:43

The Start Of A New(And probably my last)Semester.

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Mood:Pretty Darn

Good

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I know I'm little late to be postin bout this.

Anyway,First day of School!(Yesterday)

Well I must say,I kinda miss being in class.

I was really happy for the first few hours haha.

But then I remember how crazy the class can be

and so the feeling just died out abit haha.

But I'm still happy to see familiar faces.

And I could never ask for a wackier class.

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Everybody is still quite the same.

Shichang is still as crazy and funny and lame as ever.

Lutfil..well I dunno what to say,he's just his own kind.

And Faree is still as vain as ever hahaha.

Yeap,Everything's the way it should be.

Uhh Yea.........

I don't know if I'm suppose to feel happy or disappointed.

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Today was pretty much the same as yesterday.

I got PE for the third period and because of that,I was sleepy

for the rest of the day.

Since,Shichang and I was bored out of our minds,we started writing messages on a piece of paper.

We were like havin an MSN chat without the computer haha.

We wrote stupid stuff and stuff that doesn't make any sense.

And for some reason we keep writing jokes bout britney spears haha!

Mostly about her baldness haha.

I mean seriously,her decision to be bald is just freakin ridiculous.Haiz,celebrities,being famous is not enough for them,

they want to be infamous too.

God,what is the world becoming into?

Don't answer that.I don't wanna freakin know.

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You know that you talk to yourself right?

I mean,everybody talks to themselves.

Well maybe not talk out loud to yourself,more of think to

yourself.

I think to myself too.

Well there's more to me.I admit,I talk to myself.

Like,really...talk out loud to myself and sometimes I just mutter under my breath.

I talk to myself in a way that I'm talkin to another person.

Is it alright to do that?

I don't know.To me its just normal.

I'm even doing it while typing this

But I know some people would call me crazy.

I just hope its not a serious thing you know.

The last thing I need is for a Doctor to tell me that I'm not right in the head.

Maybe I should go for a brain scan just to make sure..haha.

Maybe they'll find a new mental condition in my head and

then they'll name it after me.

Man,that would be cool.

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Haiz,I'm getting more boring than ever.

I'm Outta Here.

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Song Verse Of The Day:"I Wanna Know,Can You Show Me?I Wanna Know Bout The Strangers Like Me"

Phil Collins-Strangers Like Me (Hey Its A Nice Song Ok)

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P.S Eleanor Still Looks As Good As Ever.

And I'm Still As..Fuad-ish As Ever.

I Hope Your Mum Is Doin Well Eleanor.

And I Still Can't Sleep As Well As Before.

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Yours Truly

Fuad

(Sore Eyed)

Last Days Of The Holiday

Friday, June 20, 2008/ 16:47

Untitled.

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Mood:Umm Uhh

Okay I Guess.

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Hey guys.How've you been?

So I guess my blog has been missin quite alot huh?

Seeing as the last time I posted was last week.

I guess you guys are wonderin how I've been.Or not.

I'll tell ya anyway.

I've been doin pretty good I guess...

well minus the super-boring days I've had in this

Holiday.

I've been doin nothin much except well,watching TV and

strumming on my guitar as you can see by the Picture

on the left hehe.

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These four weeks of holiday is comin to an end.

Though I still can't be sure if it's a bad thing or a good thing.

Hmm lets see the Pros And Cons.

Here we go;

Pros

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1)Get to meet me friends again.

2)Get to see Eleanor again!Yea hehe

3)Not goin to be bored out of my mind again.

4)Get to resume my position as Vice-chairman of the class.Ceh

5)Not goin to be bored shitless at home again.

6)Get to smell the class again!Okay,maybe not That.

7)Get to give stupid remarks to Faree again!Yea man!

8)Get to give stupid remarks to teachers again.

9)PE again!I seriously need to excercise again.

10)Not goin to be a zombie again.Okay,I'm not so sure

bout this one.haha

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Cons

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1)Uhh Helloo,studying.

2)Uhh Helloo,lousy teachers.

3)Uhh Helloo,Mr Teo.(Okay Mr Teo ain't that bad right?haha)

4)Crazy Principle anyone?

5)Get To meet friends again(The Lousy Ones)

6)Principle is still as crazy as ever.

7)Some teachers are still as lousy as ever.

8)Gay people in the class.I'm not kidding.And No,I'm not one of them.

9)The Sec Ones are still not a sight to see,well cause they're

still so tiny,you can't see anythin.HA!

10)Homework..and well MORE homework.

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Anyway,I think it's still for the better that holidays are

comin to an end.

Well I did learn a few things in this holiday.

Like my tolerance of boredom is pretty good since I like

to make fun of myself being bored.

And TV can be educational sometimes,but most of the times,

it's a perfect tool to distract Zombies like me.

And that I need to get a life!

And I need therapy.Seriously.

And That I'm an insomniac.I just find it hard to sleep these days.

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Today's post is goin to be abit more shorter than my usual standard I think.So I apologise in advanced alright.

Its not that easy maintaining a blog.You still need to think

of what to type and I don't mean typing about the exact details of what you did in the day.That would be so boring.

Seriously,I have a couple of blogging friends who do that.

Most people don't care about your day to day life.

What most people want is your take on some issues or maybe your humour or your views on certain things.

Imagine if i keep typing about what i did at school or at home for every post,I'm sure you wouldn't be reading my blog coz I can guarantee that it'll be too boring.

Well unless you can make it funny or more interesting like some people can,it will be boring.

And too much colours in your post won't cover how boring it is.

it'll confuse readers.

Well I'm not sayin that my my blog is so great,I'm sayin about

the boring stuff that people do with their blogs.

And now I wonder why I am even talking about all of this.

What am I?An Expert?No Way.

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Alright I'm making you bored here.

Hmm uhh well I'm gonna be across the causeway from tonight

till Sunday haha.

My family and I will be stayin at my grandfather's house

in Johor.

And yea well uhh that's it I guess.God,I'm becoming boring for you people.Well,I blame the Holiday!

Ah see you guys around aite.Even if I dun know who you are.

Shit,I gotta pack my stuff.Like right now.

"Mum!Where's my underwear!?The Calvin Klein one!"

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Song Verse Of The Day:"Take It From Me,We Don't Give Sympathy.You Can Trust Me Trust Nobody.But I Said,You And Me,We Don't Have Honesty On The Things We Don't Want To Speak" The Fray-Trust Me

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P.S Theres no P.S today.Sorry.Outta Time.

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Yours Truly

Fuad

(Gettin ready to be De-zombiefied)

A Day With My Sister

Tuesday, June 10, 2008/ 20:53

Ain't Gonna Happen

(At Least Till Next Year)

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Mood:Something

Is Missing Hmm.

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So err I just spent a day out with my Sis yesterday.

Yea weird,I know.

I mean you rarely see a brother havin a day with his

sister right?

Anyway,my sis wanted to go to the Library today.

I thought I'd just tag along since I can't

think of anythin beta to do yesterday.

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We went to the Library at Jurong East,

Yea the big one.

I was thinkin maybe I could get some books bout guitars and all that but in the end,I couldn't find anythin that

I wanted.And I didn't

even bother to read anythin else.

So for like,two hours,I did nothin except walk around

in the Library and lookin through shelves.

And lookin at people doin their own stuff.

I guess I can be annoying even though I'm quiet haha.

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So then I went beack to my sis,who was doin work on her Laptop.

We sat with a backs to a big shelf.

There were another group doin work right

infront of us.

Okay,before I continue,let me tell

you that I am NOT a pervert.

Anyway one of the girls(they were all girls),

was sittin with her back towards me.

Her shirt was quite short and well err

I accidentally saw her err

Underwear.hehe.

And God,I feel so uncomfortable sitting there.I mean

I had to look away!

I was thinkin;

"Cmon Sis!Hurry up!I can't stand sittin here any longer!

I think my eyes have gone red!"

Its like the girl didn't even care if I was there!

Thank God my sis finished her work as soon as it

happened.

Then we got out of the library but I never told my sis bout

it haha.

After that we went to eat at Macdonalds then we went back to Lot 1 coz my sis wanted to look for a present of somethin.

On the train I had a pretty funny conversation with my sis.

here it goes;

Me:"You know what?Sometimes I hate goin out with you."

Sis:"Why?"

Me"Because girls won't look at me twice when I'm with you."

Sis"And Why's that?"

Me:"Well,they would think that we're like a couple or something

haha when you're actually my sister."

Sis:"Ouh,haha"

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I am right.Right?haha

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Anyway at Lot 1,we met Azira in Cotton On haha.

You said somethin bout me bein tall right Zira?haha

I was pretty blur that time haha.

After that we went home.Haiz.

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You know when I told you guys that I wanted

to buy an electric guitar?haha

I told my mum bout it and she said I'm not goin to get one

till I pass my O levels.

I was like,"Are You Kiddin Me?Thats next year!"

Argh!

I can't wait that long!

My uncle was searching the net and he called me up

to tell me that there's a guy who wanted to

sell a Fender guitar with an Amplifier for SGD 130!

And That is considered super-cheap!

I told my mum and she still said the same thing.

My Uncle even called her for me and she still said

the same thing.

Argh Shit.

The deal would be gone by next year.

Haiz.Looks like I'm not gonna get an Electric Guitar

anytime soon.

But I don't think my dad knows that I wanted to buy it.

Maybe I shud tell him later.

I definitely got to start saving my money.

Like Seriously.

Goodbye Recesses!

And Macdonalds!

And Burger King!

Hey did I mention that My new favourite

burger is the Whopper?

Yea the big one.

I can't believe I could finish one by myself,

I mean look at my size!

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I'm thinkin of startin an

Electric Guitar And Amp For Fuad Fund.

Now who wants to donate!

Or Sponsor!

Or at least try to convince my parents hehe.

Arh....Forget I asked.

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Song Verse Of The Day:"The Thing About Love Is,

I Never Saw It Coming" Marie Digby-Say It Again

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P.S I just feel like somethin is missin.Hmmm

I guess its because I've stop msging her haha.

Or something else.

Don't worry Eleanor,I will resume.

If you even care that is.

I just wanna know,Do you care?

Do you care that I've stop?

Let me know.Pronto.

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Yours Truly

Fuad

(Still Not Gettin It)

Its In My Blood

Monday, June 9, 2008/ 14:22

Its In My Blood,

I Think

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Mood:Rockin It

Out...To

Boredom

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Awesome!

I made it through to the third week of holiday!

yea man.

Now where was I?

Oh yea...Boredom.

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Alright,I'll admit,I did had alot of fun yesterday.

But Today sucks.I'm practically doin nuthin right now,

well except for typin this crap but I don't have any idea

of what I'm goin to do later.haha

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Oh yea Yesterday was great!

My guitar(Yes I play a guitar) was out of tune so

I called up my uncle to tune it for me.

He asked me to come to his house.

So I did.And I brought Hadi along too.

For those of you who didn't know,Hadi is my cousin.

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I met Hadi at one lonely bustop near Southview Primary.

Actually Hadi's house was near the bustop before The southview one.

He was supposed to get on the bus then I'm ridin.

But when I reached his bustop,well he was there.

But he didn't get on.Instead,he saw me and started yellin

somethin.

The bus already started movin then and Hadi mouthed somethin and gave the call sign.

I realised he said he will call me in a while.

So the bus went and then Hadi called me.

I asked him why he never got on and guess what he said.

He told me he just remembered that he doesn't have enough value on his Ez-link card.

Hahaha What The Hell,I thought.

Then I told him I'll alight at the next bustop and wait for him.

Thats how I came to be on that Lonely Bustop.

Stupid.

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Thank God my uncle's house wasn't far,just in Teck Whye.

So I walked with Hadi and finally reached it.

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The rest of the day was like this;

Hadi and me chat with Uncle bout guitars and all that.

Uncle helpin me tune my guitar.

Me practicing on my guitar.

Hadi and me chat with Uncle bout guitar.

Watching Uncle rockin out on one of his

electric guitar(He got like ten of 'em),He's Fucking

Amazing!

I've never met anyone else who could play like him.

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I can't believe how easy it is for him to just rip through all those
crazy solos from the popular rock songs of the eighties

and nineties.

It just so awesome.

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Then came the highlight of the day.

My Uncle let me play his electric guitar!

He taught me abit bout Power Chords and taught me

a popular rock tune too.

The guitar was heavier than I thought haha.

And It was just so awesome to be holding it!

Well maybe not to you but to me it is haha

I totally have got to buy myself An electric Guitar!

My Uncle said if I was lookin to buy one he could search some guitars for me.

My acoustic guitar isn't mine actually.

It is my uncle's one.

He gave me the Guitar so that I could start learning to

play it.

I couldn't wish for a beta Uncle haha.

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Hmm I wonder if I start braggin about wanting an electric

guitar to my mum,would she consider to buy one?haha

Well it wouldn't hurt to try it right?

Well it would hurt my Mum's wallet hahaha!.

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Lookin at my Uncle playin the guitar like that made me wonder somethin.

Also another Uncle of mine plays guitars too so I can't

help but wonder whether Playing the Guitar Is

In My Blood.

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Look Out!Upcoming Rocker Coming Through!

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Song Verse Of The Day:"If You Love Me...Won't You Let Me Know" Coldplay-Violet Hill

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P.S I Haven't Been Messaging Eleanor For The Past Few Days.I Have A Reason For It But I'm Not

Goin To Talk Bout It Here.Coz There're

Some People Here Whom I Don't Them To See It.

I Just Want To See Something.

I Think I'm Just An Extra In Her Life haha.

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Love(Yea Right)

Fuad

(The Zombie With A Guitar)

The Fifth Day Of The Week

Wednesday, June 4, 2008/ 20:50

The Fifth Day Of The Week

Don't Let The Title Fool You,Today's

Not That Eventful Either haha.

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Mood:Is Goin

Up.Well Slowly.

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Hey Guys.How're Ya Holidays Huh?

Well whatever it is,I'm sure your's is way Beta than mine.

Well if it isn't any good,join my club!

The "This-Holiday-Is-So-Freaking-Boring-That-I-

Wish-There's-School-Or Any-CrapJob-That-I-Can-Do-And

That's-Scary-Enough"Club

Members:Only One Currently.

Care To Join?=)haha

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Today goes in the following manner;Morning:Good,Noon:Uhhhh,Afternoon:So Freaking Boring,Evening:Hmm Okay,Night:Pretty Good.

Morning I got class.

I had Chemistry class first,then Recess,

then Physics.

Then I was supposed to have POA class but It was cancelled.

More on that in a while.

For chemistry my class learned Organic Chemistry.

Thats what its called I think.

What is it about you ask?

Go read the damn textbook.

Anyway I learned bout Alkanes and Alkenes.

Besides havin the difference of one letter(haha),

Alkanes means that all the carbon atoms have only one bond,

Alkenes on the other hand,all the carbon atoms have only one bond except for only one carbon atom which has two bonds.

And I can't believe I fuckin remembered that!

Wait,I am boring you right now right?haha

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Anyway for Physics,my class did a practical.

It was ok.And I guess it was good practice for science practical

exam.

And besides,I got a mock science practical

exam on Friday so I need all the

practicals that I did.

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Just now I mentioned that POA class was

cancelled.

Well whatever Ms Merduati ate in the last 24 hours,

her stomach didn't agree with it.

So presto!She got food poisoning!

I couldn't wish for a better timing hehe.

Yea I know I'm Evil.

However I realised something.

Ok it's too long but I'll shorten it for ya.

Here we go!

I realised that;

Merduati getting Food poisoning=No POA class=Going home early=More time to be bored at home=negative "Yea!"

=Me wishing there was POA class=Me scaring myself with that thought=Going against my nature=Ah Damnit=I really need a Psychiatrist..or maybe some Chocolate

And Finally equals to Phd;

Permanent Head Damage.Ouch.

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Well at least I can do the Math.Haha.

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Well No Matter!

Tomorrow is a new Day and I have a feeling tomorrow's

gonna be better than today.

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Thank God I still have my sense of humour.haha.

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I guess I'm kinda excited bout the coming Cultural Night.

And that proves that I got nothin much to look forward to.

Anyway they say we're suppose to wear smart.

That's why bought myself a tie!

I know,you guys are thinkin what is up with me and ties.

Well I guess I love wearing a tie haha.

So I bought a tie at Topman the other day.

Its an electric Blue coloured tie that goes pretty well

with my white with faint lines button up shirt.

So for Cultural Night,I'll be wearing a white shirt and a blue tie,and a pair of dark jeans and not to mention,my Converse

high cut sneakers.I'm keepin it real hehe.

So what're you guys goin to wear huh?haha.

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Anyway,about my last post,

I know I sound depressed haha but I'm not Emo Faree!

haha.The last post is just an observation of my life made by

myself.

Nothin more than that.

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With that,I bid you farewell for now.

Happy Holidays people!

Happy Holidays Eleanor!

Happy Holidays Zira!

Happy Holidays Lut!

And of course,you too Faree.(yea right.haha.)

haha just kiddin Faree.

And happy holidays to everyone else who knows me.

Seriously people,happy holidays.

And anyone goin to watch a movie or anythin,

invite me.

Please.I beg You.haha.

You won't let me die of boredom right?

right?

heloo...

Right?

Right...

RIGHT!?

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Song Verse Of The Day:"I Don't Mind,As Long As

There's A Bed Beneath The Stars That Shine.

I'll Be Fine...

If You Give Me Minute,A Man's Got A Limit.

I Can't Get A Life If My Heart's Not In It."

Oasis-The Importance Of Being Idle

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And Being Idle Is Important too haha.

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P.S You Know What?

I think I'll go to Cultural Night with

my friends.Unless she brings that up.

Its still a long way to go anyway.

And please people,if you got plans and you're

lookin for some idiot to bring along,

bring me alright.I'll be your Idiot.

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Sincerely

Fuad

(Walking Zombie)

A Week Like Any Other

Tuesday, June 3, 2008/ 21:02

One Word,Meh.Wait Thats No Word.

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Mood:Bored &

Weary

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It's Official.This is the most boring June Holidays I've ever

had.

Its too boring that I can't remember much of the last few days.

Ah whatever man,no matter how much I complain,

I know things will be quite the same for the next

few freaking weeks!

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Ah shit.

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Today was uhh 'Ordinary'(as in boring).

I had maths class all day till 1330 in the afternoon.

It was the same yesterday too.

To be specific,it was an intensive maths revision for my class.

The teacher's name is Mr Chaw.

He's pretty good in my opinion.

He has a sense of humour,unlike some teachers.

I sat beside Maisarah in the class.

It was cool.

Well for once,I dun dread maths classes that much.

I guess when you dun have anythin much to look

forward to these few weeks,goin to extra classes

sounds like a pretty good Idea haha.

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Well,my life right now is kinda slow.

There's too much choices I've got to make.

I wake up every morning,sub-consciously.

I'm like a zombie or something.

I go out of my house,with no sense of direction

most of the time.

I just go wherever I'm suppose to be.

When I'm at Home,

I'm in no mood to do anythin much.

Sometimes I find myself sittin down on my bed or lying down,

Just thinkin about things.

Being Idle,I like to say.

And that pretty much sums up an ordinary day in my

Life.

Boring right?

I think I might be Depressed.

But I can't find a reason why I'm depressed.

Is it because that I dun have hope in myself anymore?

But I've been doin better now.

Maybe I'm tryin to make sense of things that doesn't make any sense at all.

Maybe I'm tryin too hard till I feel depressed?

Hai..I dunno.

Or maybe I just don't know who my heart is with anymore.

Maybe,that someone whom I thought was the one,

Is confused as I am too.

Hard-pressed to face reality and make a choice.

Well that's who we all are,

We're all people tryin to make sense of things that does not or never make any sense at all.

We're always searching for answers even though we don't

know what we're lookin for exactly.

Always trying to deny the reality of things.

I guess we're Anything But Ordinary.

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Or maybe I just Think too much.

An Overthinker.

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I know this post sounds depressing,

But I'm actually Okay.

One thing you need to know about me;

I am always,always Okay,even though sometimes

I sound miserable,or just look messed up.

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I'm a Cool-headed,messed up,Overthinker who

defies Emotions.haha.

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I think I'm searching for Love too hard.

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Sometimes when I feel Like I wanna let go of the rope and

just forget about you,

I'll see you and you'll pull me back up the rope,givin me reasons to keep holding on to you.

I know you don't realise this but you always

give me some sort of hope

that I could be someone special everytime

I look at you.

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You always had my heart I guess.

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But now is not the time to think bout It.Right?

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Shit.Now I talk too much.

Happy Holidays People.

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Song Verse Of Today:"Everybody Seems To be Getting What They Need,Where's Mine?

Cause You're What I Need So Very

But I'm Anythin But Ordinary" Train-Ordinary