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--- Well Here Goes... My Name Is Fuad.(Pronounced as "Foo-Ud") I Am 7Teen Years Old.Goin On 18.Then Extinction. A Proud Muslim.A Lover Of Allah. Anyway,I am well,a Teenage Guy,Or A Young Man I Think. No Longer A Boy But Not Yet A Man,Or Something.. Well Whatever The Case,I Still Have Much More To Learn Bout Life,Love And The Works. I Got A Long Way To Go.Seriously. I Am Also,An Overthinker.Seriously. Anyway If You're Just Like Me Or You Somehow Find Me Interesting(READ:Somehow), Feel Free To Add Me On MSN.It's; Ad_Therifleman-118@hotmail.com |
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Clean!Green!And Extremely Mean!
Monday, April 28, 2008/ 16:22
Clean!Green!
And Extremely Mean! (Well,Not really.)Good Morning To Monday Blues! And The art of how to stupidly borrow staplers. Hey readers!Its been quite a while since I posted here. Well...here I am...sitting infront of a computer on a Monday. It doesnt get any better than that right?No,it doesnt.haha.Kinda bored right now actually.Oh yea I got my hair cut last Saturday haha.I told the barber to cut it short coz my mum would skin me alive if I only trimmed my hair...which doesn't make much difference to the lenght of my hair so i guess cutting my hair short would be the better Idea.Well I can say that this is one of the better haircuts I've had in my life.Well my sister said I looked good.And Iifahz told me that its good too today.Though I didn't have any response to that.haha.Hmm..... I wonder what Eleanor has to say about my haircut? Well lets move on to other things haha.Mid-Year Examinations are like a couple of days away and I'm kinda worried coz even though Exams is two days away,I'm still as relaxed as ever!I mean seriously.When I should be doin like homework or something,I would just be sitting on my bed reading my Electronic Gaming Monthly magazines(EGM is a super good read.Trust Me.)But still,the first paper is goin to be english paper so I guess it wouldn't hurt if I read my magazines right?Hehehe.But the good thing is,I've been bucking up on my Maths which for those of you who didn't know,I suck at math.Well i got improvement.I just hope that this time,I'll finish my paper in time hehe.And my I understood more about chemistry though I'm not so sure bout my Physics side.Law of gravity?What A Joke!Hahaha Ouch!Stupid apple dropping on me head.Stupid Gravity letting apple drop on me head.Stupid pain in me head.Stupid everything.Stupid Fuad.Yea lets work on Fuad-is-a-Dumbass thing.Hahaha. Hai...Today is a pretty good monday.Seeing how many times I got monday blues,seeing those words in the same phrase like that is pretty weird haha.But it still is a pretty god Monday.No,make that a pretty Good but hot and sleepy Monday.Seriously,I was sleepy the whole day.Anyway I did my mothertongue oral exam today.I think I did badly though.Cikgu Salha must think that I'm incapable of speaking proper malay now haha.But I'm sure I didn't do THAT badly.What the hell am I talking here!?Sometimes,I just don't know what comes out of my mouth...or fingers,since I'm typing right now.haha. Also, I spoke to Eleanor today.Abit....Well I only asked her for a stapler ok!haha.And its also the first time I called her name.hehe.Seriously,For that whole mothertongue period,(except the time that I got Oral)I was dying to ask her for her stapler!Talk about major social issues there.Near the end of the period,I finally summoned all my courage(and Dignity) and asked her.I called her once,But she didn't hear me.Then I called her the second time and she turned and she was like huh?She was smiling too.I guess she was very surprised that I chose that time to speak up haha.Then she walked to my table and handed me her stapler and I muttered thanks.I didn't think she heard it I dunno.After I used it,I gave it back to her.Without saying a word.And Yea,thats it.At least I did get a smile.And Such a sweet smile Eleanor Has!Truly. Fuad,I am going to say this once...well make that a few billion more times.You Are A Dumbass.Case Closed.Over.Out.Clean.Green.And Extremely Mean. Song Verse Of The Day:"I Dare You To Move.I Dare You To Move.I Dare You To Lift Yourself Up Off the Floor.I Dare You To Move.I Dare You To Move,Like Today Never Happened...Today Never Happened....Before." Switchfoot-Dare You To Move. |
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Life........You Want Some Fries With That?
Tuesday, April 22, 2008/ 20:51
Life.....
You Want Some Fries With That? Alright alright enough already Zarifah!I'm Updating I'm updating!haha.Well Yea its kinda been a while since I last posted(If U think A week Is awhile that is) Anyway the problem right now is,I don't quite know what to write about.heee. Uhh I'm rackin my brain here. Well last week was like I dunno,normal I guess...or maybe I just couldn't remember most of it.=/. Oh oh wait I remember!Yea I had quite a day on Saturday haha.Thought the morning sucked haha(Mendaki lessons).I was at home bout 1330hrs.Then I thought bout returning those Library books I borrowed so I decided to go to the Library at 1400.The problem is,I wanted to go other places after that so I thought bout goin to Hadi's house.I called him and it turns out that he,Lut,Taufiq had just got out from the Gym at CCK sports complex and they were goin somewhere to have lunch for a while.Well anyway Hadi says that after eating they'll be goin my way so I decided to meet up with them somewhere later. Ah to cut the stury short,I met up with them on the bus goin to Lot 1.On the bus I found out that Lut and Taufiq are goin to town afterwards.Then Lut asked me if I wanted to come and I thought,Why not?Its not like I'm goin to do anythin much at Hadi's house.So I decided to follow 'em and Hadi Followed too. Well anyway we had fun goin round town haha.Oh yea Pritpal was there too.So we went to bugis street and all that.Pritpal wanted to buy a shirt.He said something bout The school's Cultural Night comin in july and wearing something formal.And I totally forgot bout Cultural Night!Actually I'm kinda excited bout Cultural Night.Well u guys noe how much I like formal stuff haha.So I guess maybe,shirt with Tie and pants.Not jeans but real pants.And maybe a vest or something?Uh no no I dun want to overdress haha.My sis said the last time the school had a cultural night,the students need to buy tickets to go haha.I wonder how much this year's tickets will cost me. Ah Bottomline:I can't wait for it.I think.Well I'm Not Sure.When Have I ever Been Sure? Ah lets talk bout social life now. Well Lut is quiet these days.Well sometimes,but still an OK guy to be around.Haha. Mimi is still not talkin to me.And I still don't know why.And I'm still tryin to ignore it.And I still think bout it.And I think its stupid.And I think I might've missed something in this.But I still don't get it.Doesn't she noe that it kinda hurts and sucks not talkin to her?Huh I just don't know.I don't know what to know.I don't know what to do.I don't know what to expect. One question remain unanswered;What is the reason behind this?I guess the only way I'll ever get to know it is when she starts telling me.But I cant se that happening soon. Oh Well.... Its kinda stupid how I'm seeing Eleanor almost everyday and yet I rarely spoke a word to her.Everytime her eyes met mine,she would usually give me that sweet smile of hers and then I'll try to smile back the best way I can.I remember last week at assembly,on the big screen there was a quote.It was said by Eleanor Roosevelt.A pretty famous Lady.I think.I'm know then that Eleanor saw that name.I looked for her and she was lookin at me.She was smiling.No,sorta laughing. She thought I got the name Eleanor for her from the name Eleanor Roosevelt.But I didn't haha. I got the name Eleanor from a book called Going Nowhere Faster.One of my favourite books.Awesome Read.But i havent told Eleanor yet.She must be wondering where the hell I got that name from haha.Anyway,about me rarely talking to her.Usually,there were no opportunities coz she is usually with another person.And all those times I spoke to her was when she wasn't with anybody else.But sometimes,its my fault,I just didn't take the chances. Now i msged with her most of the time except when her prepaid's low.Well that always sucks for me.I like talking to her.When she's replying that is.haha. Sometimes I just feel like calling her.But then I don't know if she would pick up.Even if I call her,I just dunno what to say to her.And also,would she be annoyed?Irritated?Or would she think that I'm just a waste of time?I dunno.Maybe she would be glad that I called.Maybe she'll think;"Finally this guy calls me."Maybe..I dunno. I think I wanna ask her that.Or maybe I should just call her right now.No,wait,its 2311 hrs already.I'm sure she'd be asleep at this time.Uhhhh life. Well.Thats My Comical Romance. Song Verse Of The Day:"'Cause She's Bittersweet.She Knocks Me Off Of My Feet.And I Can't Help Myself,I Don't Want Anyone Else.She's A Mystery,She's Too Much For Me.But I Keep Comin Back For More.She's Just The Girl I'm Lookin For.." The Click Five-Just The Girl. I Guess She's Just The Girl. |
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Awards Day And The Midnight Story
Sunday, April 13, 2008/ 16:25
Awards Day And The Midnight Story ----------------------------------------- Awards Day,11/04/08,1630 Hours. --------------------------------------- So there I was,sitting down.Part of the audience and I just started to regret coming.Then I remembered why I was there,so I just continued to sit down.One of the things I like about awards day is that,I get to wear a tie haha.I dunno why,but I'm kinda into formal clothing hehe.And thats a secret. So yea I was there with a tie.I didn't know how I look then.But the NCC guys downstairs who were my friends,were like,"Waaah smart sey that guy!".haha and I thought they were joking.I think they were. -------------------------------------- Anyway,after a super boring and stupid speech made by the wacky principle and all the awards giving,the performances started.I was waiting all afternoon for it.haha coz the wind symphony(Band) was performing.Well I kinda like orchestral music(I'm a rock loving guy who likes orchestral music too.Weird) and also coz,Eleanor is in band too.I told her I couldn't wait to see her.So band performed.I thought they were awesome.I think band was the best performance that night.The other performances were like seen that,heard that.If you noe what I mean.I like the last part too.When all the performers and the band people including Eleanor were up on stage singin together a song bout the school.Then it was at that time when Eleanor saw me.She smiled at me.Haha she has such a great smile haha.and I gotta tell ya,her band uniform looked so good on her.Haha After that,it was the end and the guests left,then the student audience were allowed to leave.I stood up and was about to go when I just looked up on the stage.The performers were leaving to go to the backstage.Then I saw Eleanor up the stage again.Her eyes met mine,then she waved at me and I waved back.Surprised coz she was waving from up the stage down to me haha. So I went down to the canteen cause there's food.Like Free Food!haha!.So I ate my way to boredom!Really,I was bored coz I was eating alone.haha after that,I met up with the NCC guys then we help the teachers clean up the canteen which was nearly empty by then.Nice.I was the only one who wasn't in NCC and also,the only one wearing a tie haha. After all that I walked home with them.I kept lookin at the night sky.I dunnoe why but I just like to look up in the night sky.It makes me feel sorta peaceful hehe.well That just bout all of the day haha.not much,I noe.Well I'm just lazy to tell everything.haha. ---------------------------------------------------- The Midnight Story,12/04/08,2300 Hours. ----------------------------------------------- I had msged Eleanor goodnight at about nine-thirty pm.But she didn't reply me till bout eleven pm.I was so surprised to see the msg haha.I was watching tv at that time.So she told me she was outside with her family,doing what?I dunno haha.Then I thought,why would she be msgin me if she's outside with her family?She must have been bored I figured.So I asked her whether she's bored.She replied that yes,she was bored and she asked me if it was ok to talk to me.Its eleven thirty and she's askin me that.haha I told her I'm glad that there's someone to talk to at that time haha.And talking to her,...that's something.So I asked her what did she wanna talk bout.She said she didn't noe haha but she really wanna talk.So I just asked her this;How did I look wearin a tie?haha Seriously. I was just starting to regret asking her that haha.But then she told me ofcourse I looked smart haha and very neat too haha.So I thought;Man I am totally buying a tie for myself haha.Then I asked her what kind of clothes that she likes.She told me she likes dresses.Man I'd like to see her with a dress.Yea a dress would be perfect for her.I told her that I'm sure she is goin to look awesome in a dress.And I meant that.I would be so lucky if I get to see her in a dress.I just hope I won't get a heart attack when I do see her in a dress.Coz she will surely look beautiful haha.Truly. --------------------------------------------------- It was after Midnight but she was still outside.I just chatted with her all through midnight.When it was like one thirty in the morning,she was on the way home.And I was still chattin with her.To tell u the truth,I was already pretty sleepy but I just couldn't sleep yet,knowing that Eleanor was still awake.I just listened to music all night while chatting with her. She had told me that she was very shocked when she first read this blog.I told her I was sorry. Truly I am. I was pretty stupid.She also told me that she felt guilty somehow.And I dun understand why she would feel that way.... Still I chatted with her till she reached her home at around 2 am haha.She then thank me for accompanying her haha.Then I thought;For her,I'll do anything to help haha seriously. Then she told me she's too sleepy already and then she thank me again and bid me goodnight. Finally I msged her this exactly; --------------------------- Haha ok then.Goodnight...or rather,Good Morning.haha and Sweet Dreams Eleanor.May All Your Dreaming Fill The Empty Sky..=) -------------------------- At last,I checked the time and it was 2:15 AM. So I had just chatted with a girl all night till 2 AM in the morning. Then I just Smiled,Turned around in my bed,Wished myself goodnight,Closed My eyes and thought;I must be crazy or something.Crazy with that crazy wonderful feeling. Then I slept. ------------------------ Hey Eleanor.I still dun quite understand why U'd feel guilty. If Ur feelin sorry for me,don't.U don't have to feel sorry or anything for me.Just getting to noe u and all is everything to me.Just remember that not everything will go the way u want it to be.You noe that right? And Its the same for me too.Not everything would go the way I wanted them to be. But I dun really mind it much.I guess thats a benefit of having a little bit more of a sense of Humor haha.Sometimes U just couldn't give a damn anymore haha.Anyway,U and I both just have to live with it right? Well maybe,just maybe that ONE day,everything would be perfect for u and maybe,perfect for me too. Hey I got one question for u.Here it is: ---------------------------- Can You Ever Imagine If There Was No Me? I Certainly Can't Imagine If There Was No You Eleanor.. Hahaha like Seriously,I can't....Haha ----------------------------- ----------------------------- Song Verse Of The Day: "Come On Baby Blue....Shake Up Your Tired Eyes,The World Is Waiting For You.May All You r Dreaming Fill The Empty Sky. But If It Makes You Happy,Keep On Clapping...Just Remember I'll Be By Your Side,...And If You Don't Let Go,...Its Gonna Pass You By....." Oasis-Let There Be Love. --------------------------------- Let There Be Love People.Spread Hope Like Fire.Spread Love Like Violence. |
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The Invitation
Wednesday, April 9, 2008/ 16:31
The Invitation --------------------------- Hey people.Yea I know whatchoo thinkin,Its barely been a day and Fuad is postin again.Well actually,I'm only posting this coz I forgot to tell you bout somethin last night. Anyway like the bold words suggest,it is an invitation haha. Well I'm invited to this birthday party by my friend.This birthday party is kinda exclusive and I am not to tell anyone else bout this.Well,figures,I'm kinda tellin you guys bout it right now right?haha.Ah I know,I won't tell you guys the birthday girl's name haha.And I won't tell you the date too haha.I'm just tellin you bout the invite haha. So yea I got the invite.Lut and Shichang got em too.Cool then. I dun think I got an invite to a birthday party before in my teenage life.Oh wait,I kinda did went to one before.It was last year.It was Iifahz birthday party.Well actually,it wasn't much of a birthday party but more of a barbeque party.It was at East Coast park.Just by the beach.So yea it was a barbeque,with me and my friends doin the barbequeing haha.I can tell you,I never expected to be the one barbequeing haha and I've never barbequed before in my life.There's a first time for everything I guess.I think I'm gettin better at it haha.And Eleanor was there too,so we all enjoyed the barbeque.Except for the rain,we didn't enjoy that.My pants were soaking wet by the end of the day haha.Well we got home in the night,late.We kinda got lost abit.In the blocks around Marine Parade,lookin for a bustop.I think I was with hmm long list here; 1)Me 2)Eleanor 3)Lut 4)Hadi(me cuzzin) 5)Fahmy 6)Zul Well,forgive me,I think I forgot some.I know there's another girl but I've forgotten her name.Anyway,we managed to find our way and we got into a bus.Then I remember Eleanor coughing hard alot.I was worried at the time,I wish I had some water with me.But she got ok well,Phew I guess.haha. We took the train and I alighted at Choa Chu Kang with the rest.That was stupid since I live at Yew Tee.I think it was because I didn't wanna go home alone(not that I'm scared ok)or maybe because I just wanna wave goodbye at Eleanor haha,I'm stupid right haha.And she could be readin this,nice Fuad..real nice.Anyways after that,I decided to crash at Hadi's house for the night since I'm already at Cho Chu Kang.So that was all Of It. ------------- Whoa... I think I just strayed waay off course just now.I was talking bout the invite haha.Well anyway,I guess I can't wait for the exclusive party haha.Who knew I could be in somethin exclusive?I sure didn't.haha.Well the dress code for the party is kinda weird.Anything Purple.That's what it says on the card.I don't have alot of purple stuff.Well I do have a nice hoodie.Black in colour with purple outlines and a purple inside.I guess thats good enough for the party.Hmm I wonder who else is gonna be there?I think I wanna ask tomorrow.Haha. ------------- Anyway I had an Ok day today.No,make that a pretty good day today.But I didn't bring my specs to school.I could still see but not in detail,just abit of blurs.Haha.Yup I'm a genius,I know hahaha.And I think I got into the dragon boat team.Haha alright!Well I still don't know it officially yet but I'm so excited bout it!Haha. The downside of today?I got tuition later in the evening..so I can't use the computer tonight.Ah sucks.It been quite a while since I chatted with Eleanor online.Ahh well I'll see her tomorrow I guess.And the next day...and the next day..no,that's the weekend already...next monday..and the day after that...day after that....day after that....well,You get the idea right.Okay I dun wanna sound creepy here haha. ------------------------------- See you people later then.Haha Tata! ----------------------------------------- Song Verse Of The Day:"Come On Baby Blue,Shake Up Your Tired Eyes.The World Is Waiting For You.May All Your Dreaming Fill The Empty Sky" Oasis-Let There Be Love. ---------------------------------- This Is such an awesome song!seriously. And Me And My Guitar Have Been Gettin Along Well. |
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Whatever Happened,Happened...For Better Or Worse
Tuesday, April 8, 2008/ 20:34
Whatever Happened,Happened...
For Better Or Worse.. Well firstly I wanna talk bout somethin.Somethin I wanna clear. Its about Mimi. I did asked her why she's not talkin to me last Sunday.And she told me,its because she wants to be more quiet and focused in the studies.I thought,well ok then and i did tell her that it sucks not talkin to her much.Then,a few days later,I realised that what she told me wasn't the truth.There's somethin more to it.I mean,she was totally ok with everybody else.But she never says anythin to me.Its like she barely acknowledges that my table is beside her table.I dunno whats really wrong with her. So I just decided.If she doesn't wanna talk to me anymore,so be it.Thats her problem.And I dun even know what's her problem,honestly.So I guess thats it.I'll talk to her again if she starts talkin to me again.She wants to play it that way so be it. With That Over And Done,Lets Move On haha.. Anyway guys,I had my English Oral yesterday.I thought I did ok.Haha I Thought.My examiner was Mrs Choo.Some of you guys might know her.She's ok I guess.I know for the fact that she had lived in the U.S for a couple of years.I guess that's the reason why she has a pretty weird accent.But her english is kinda perfect...and I dunno where I'm goin here haha.Anyway back to oral.I walked up to her table.She was smilin.I was kinda nervous.I said "Good afternoon" to her.And she's still smilin.It started to creep my out haha.Then she tried to said my name.It went like This; Mrs Choo:Okay Muhammad...(Face lookin abit puzzled) Me:Fuad(as In Foo-Ud) Mrs Choo:Fuad?Are You Sure"(Points at my name tag.Come to think of it,I think she said "Fud".And like,helloo,how can I not be sure of my own name?haha) Me:Yes,my name is pronounced as Fuad(Keepin a smile on my face.Its started to feel like an interview haha) Mrs Choo:(Still lookin puzzled)Ouh Ok,well Fud(seriously)can you read for me the passage?(Smile) Me:Uhh Ouh..(Looked at the paper) So I sat and I read the passage.I mustered all the Britishness in me(Is That Even A Word?).Then came the picture discussion.I told her bout a couple of things and then she says lets start with conversation.I'm quite surprised,coz I only said a few things.But Mrs Choo is still smilin so I thought I must be doin ok.The conversation was pretty quick too.Well I spoke like I would normally,except with close to perfect english haha.She was smilin all the time and she did laugh when I told her bout a time when I got Diarrhoea and also about me not being that good with children haha.Well I guess,being honest is a good way for the conversation part. And then it was over.It was so fast for me and its obvious too coz,I could see the others were just startin on their conversation part.Haha so I'm still not sure whether fast,is good.But me and Mrs Choo ended it with smiles and everythin so it should be ok..right?Ok I don't know here,You tell me haha. After that,I collected my phone and went home. For Better,Or Worse. Like I said,Whatever Happens,Happens.And somethin did happen haha.She could be readin this haha.Well apparently,Eleanor read my blog.She told me.So I'm like,"Man!I am so dead!".I wrote quite alot of stuff in my blog.And I got no one else to blame but me.I'm still tryin to figure out why it hadn't occur to me that she would read this stupid blog someday.I guess I'm just blinded.Haha.Well Eleanor,I'm sorry for my stupidity.Truly. But she seems ok with it though.I expected her to hate me for it Or kill me or something.So well,know she knows what I've been thinkin bout all this time.For Better,Or Worse.And I hate myself even more now haha. Ahh I shouldve said somethin to her when I passed her on the fourth floor.Maybe say Good Luck for oral and apologise for this blog or somethin.Somehow I just can't face her just now.Out of embarassment I guess.Well,tomorrow will be another day. It was rainin just now.Which has nothin to do with anythin else I've just talked about haha.And I'm goin to Awards day on Friday. Eleanor,you really are something.And I'm nothing. Song Verse Of The Day:"Even The Best Fall Down Sometimes.Even The Wrong Words Seem To Rhyme.Out Of The Doubt That Fills My Mind,I Somehow Find You And I Collide" Howie Day-Collide |
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